It was exactly 4am and I still had trouble sleeping. The same thing has been happening for over a month already. Sometimes I would only sleep for a couple of hours and other days I wouldn't sleep at all. And the cause of this is because I'm thinking about something and afraid to tell Jin.

I want a baby.

I've tried to talk to him about it but I would get nervous and chicken out. I don't even know why it's so hard for me to talk about it with him since we've been together for six years. We've never really had sex since he thought its best to wait until we're married. I didn't want him to think he's selfish but I also want him to know about how I feel.

"(Y/n)?"

I shook my head as he interrupted me from my thoughts.

"Are you okay? I called you a few times and it seemed as if you were spacing out", Jin said in his tired voice.

"It's nothing. I'm just trying to fall asleep", I said.

He turned and wrapped his arm around my waist. His face nuzzled on my neck and placed small kisses on my shoulder.

"This is the fifth time I've woken up to you being wide awake. Is there something bothering you?", he asked.

Should I tell him now? No. He's leaving in two days. I don't want him to be out of focus.

"I just drank too much coffee. You know, with work being all hectic", I said.

"Maybe you should take it easy. Too much coffee will ruin your sleep schedule. And it's bad for you. Want me to sing to you?", he asked.

I softly laughed and nodded.

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"(Y/n), Jin wants you to-...what are you doing?", Jimin asked as he saw me laying on the couch while I stared at the ceiling.

"I'm exhausted. Anyways, what does Jin want me to do?", I asked as I rubbed my eyes.

"He wants you to pack for him since he'll be busy all day today. He won't be back until late at night", he said.

"Okay", I sighed and laid back down.

"What's up with you?", he asked.

I sat up as he sat down next to me.

"Nothing...I mean there's something..I just can't tell you", I said, biting my lip nervously.

"Why not?", he asked.

"Because if I tell you Jin will get mad if he finds out since I didn't tell him first and I can't tell Jin...right now", I played with my fingers.

"Is it something bad?", he asked.

"Well....it kinda depends on how you see it", I said.

"How do you see it?", he asked.

"I see it as an opportunity for our relationship to be more than just boyfriend and girlfriend", I smiled.

"Ahh..so it's something serious....well it's either marriage or having a baby...or both", he said.

I bit my lip as my face turned red, my heart beating so fast, I thought it would explode.

"If it's that serious, you should tell Jin. You know he cares about your feelings so if you don't tell him, he's gonna blame himself", he said before giving me a comforting smile and left.

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"Jagiyaaaaa, I don't wanna leave you", Jin whined and pretended to cry.

I laughed as I crawled into bed, laying my body next to Jin's.

"But you have to go or else who's gonna keep the other guys from getting into trouble. Jungkook will probably annoy the hell out of everyone, Taehyung will get lost...again, J-Hope will be distracted from all the animals, and I don't know about the rest. And it's only for a week", I said, kissing his cheek.

"It's gonna be a long week. Who am I gonna hug when I go to sleep?", he asked.

"Hug Yoongi. He'll be dead asleep anyways", I giggled.

"Aish. I did that last time and he kicked me out of the room so I had to sleep on the couch and it was very uncomfortable", he whined.

"Well just don't think about it and time will go by quickly. Go to sleep already, you have to wake up early tomorrow", I said.

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A week without Jin and the guys was torture. At work, it was so frustrating since all the customers kept nagging about getting the wrong products. And with Jin gone, I couldn't be comforted. Phone calls wasn't good enough to make me feel happy. We only talked for like five minutes everyday.

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A week later, I stood in front of the door, jumping in excitement as I couldn't wait until I could have Jin in my arms. As the car parked in front of the house, I ran to Jin as soon as I saw him.

"I missed you so much!! Did you bring me food?", I asked.

"I've been gone for a week and all you have to say is if I brought you food?", he asked.

"I also said I missed you....a lot", I said in a cute way.

"I'm just kidding. I missed you too and yes I did bring you food", he smiled at my reaction when he held up a bag of food.

I snatched the bag out of his arms and ran inside the house.

While we ate the food, we talked about what we did the whole week and of course I complained about the customers who were being rude. Jin, on the other hand, had so much fun with the guys. They visited a bunch of places and took a lot of pictures.

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"I'm so tired", I yawned while stretched my arms over my head.

I laid down on the bed and sighed as I felt the warm blankets touching my skin. A few seconds later, Jin laid down next to me and caressed my face. I was so close to falling asleep but Jin startled me at the question he asked.

"So you wanna have a baby?"
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Part 2 will be up by tomorrow hopefully.