We arrived a while later at the academy.

I put Lulu down as I saw some people were watching me questionably. I glared at them and they quickly looked away.

I saw Lucas in the distance, it made my blood boil. He's what you considered someone that needed his face bashed in.

Lucas stopped and talked to someone. Suddenly he looked
in my direction, I watched him with my light brown eyes, I was still in wolf form of course, there was no way I was going to expose myself like that.

He patted the guy on the shoulder before walking towards me. I growled and showed my fangs, I didn't like where this was going. Lucia looked over but was scooped up by Benjamin. I gave him a thankful nod and took the pants and hoodie he was offering in my mouth.

I ran to the toilets and changed, while feeling rage building up in my chest. The warm feeling was boiling under my skin, pushing and fighting to come out.

When I walked out, Lucas was already waiting for me by the fountain. Wolves around us were sensing the tension and stopped to look at what was about to happen. Some even took their phones out. The fire inside me burned brighter with that thought.

Bellamy was suddenly by my side, probably warned by the ruckus that was slowly rising in volume.
"Hey bro, there's a lot of people here. I know I can't stop you so I won't even try but you know what you're getting yourself into right?"

I nodded. To be honest I wasn't in the mood to think about the consequences. Lucas needed to be put in his place once and for all. No one would ever go against him, exept me, perhaps I just wanted an excuse to fight. Either way Lucas was going down, if he learned a lesson from it, even better.

We walked up to each other. I could sense the uneasiness on him, he hadn't seen me so ready to fight in months. Lucas has always been someone that's scared. He was scared of not being respected, scared of not being liked, scared of not being strong. And all those fears made him want to make people see him as a strong, powerful Alpha.

Something he was not.

I didn't know Lucas, I didn't know what he liked. What he did in his free time, if he gave homeless people money or even if he gave his momma a kiss goodnight.

But the thing is, I didn't care.

I didn't care about anything, or that's what I liked to believe. So without a second thought, I swung my fist with sickening speed. Lucas didn't even comprehend what happened to him before he fell backwards. Probably hearing the loud crack of his nose echoing in his head.

You can't fight the blurry vision of a broken nose, the overwhelming pain. Doesn't matter how many times it happens, your eyes will water and your mind will take a moment to access what happened.

So Lucas didn't see and didn't move a muscle when I came crashing into him. The sounds around us became muffled as my mind became blank. Nothing mattered as I punched him, each time harder than the last.

I finished it off with a strike to his liver. His liver crammed up and his body shut down from the immense pain he was in. A liver shot is all you need to crumple even the strongest men. You can't control anything, when your body has decided that enough is enough.

Once I realised the fight was over, I felt everything come back to me.

The people around me were cheering, filming, talking but most importantly they were watching me with new eyes. Respecting me or maybe fearing me, I wasn't sure.

I was getting a pad on the shoulder from who knows who when we all heard an angry shout. No, angry wasn't quite it, it was more enraged and demanding authority.

The crowd parted to make a path for the headmaster that walked with long strides, demanding an explanation to what was happening. Some teachers were trying to disperse the crowd but all stopped when seeing Lucas's bloody broken face with closed eyes. He had passed out it seemed. Couldn't handle the pain.

The headmaster was standing beside Lucas, looking down on him. Then he turned to me.
"I hope for you that he's alive, Rafaël."

An elderly wolf checked Lucas vitals and nodded his head as he went. When he was done he stood and faced the headmaster with a doubtful look. "He'll live, but anymore damage and it wouldn't be the case. This wolf is a savage, it's absolutely not a good message for this school."

The headmaster watched the elderly wolf with a face that said "you think I don't know that?" The elderly wolf understood the meaning of his face and quickly busied himself with bringing Lucas to the clinic.
The headmaster then turned to me with a poor 'trying to conceal his anger' face. "You're not a wolf, Rafaël."

The teachers were busy dispersing the crowd and yelling at everyone to go back to their classes.

I looked the headmaster in the eyes. My eyes shone, in human they were blue but in wolf form they were brown. So when I was angry they collided.

"If I'm not a wolf, what am I?!" I shouted back. He was preparing for a fight. I could see it, his body was hunched forward and his hands were beside his body, ready and focused to react at any given moment.

He looked behind me then smirked.
"You're a monster."

And I just snapped. All the adrenaline left in my body went up tenfold. I launched myself at him like a beast. My blood was boiling so hard that a black and red haze concealed my vision.

He had touched the one insecurity that had never left. The one that had it's claws so deep in me that I never even tried to detach it. Because was it true? Was I a monster? The question always went unanswered.

When the haze lifted I could tell I was in wolf-from. Some students and teachers were being helped by other students, trying to get away from me. There was blood on some of them.

I tried to go forward but was pulled back. That's when I realised, I had a muzzle on. And 2 teachers with an injured headmaster had me tightly on a leach.

I tried to free myself but they were already pulling me towards the old cells.

I could see Benjamin with Lulu in his arms, she was whining looking at me. Bellamy looked at the ground, looking defeated. The others were standing not far to the side, I couldn't read them. I didn't understand how they felt. Did they think I was a monster too? I would If I was them. Because who could do something like this apart from a monster?

The headmaster stepped on my paw. Making me yelp and look up. I could feel his breath against my ear as he leaned in.
"You're trouble I can't afford anymore. Favours be damned, you're not stepping a foot in my school again. Tomorrow at night everyone will say you escaped. That you were too scared of the consequences and so you fled."

He straightened back up, waiting for the other teacher to open the cell.
"And you'll never come back, if you do, well let's just hope you were dragged unconscious because not only will your friends suffer more then they will already, they'll be expelled."

We both knew being expelled was not an option for the Cambell's. They would be devastated. They had money but there was never enough to provide for such a big family. Bellamy had already told me that if he didn't work and help provide for his family he would feel like a failure because family was all that mattered. I don't think his brother's felt any different.

They trew me in the cell with a force that was unnecessary harsh. Before closing the door, the headmaster looked at me one last time and sneered "If that's not enough for you, then I think I can convince you with the help of your little pup."

He slammed the door shut and they left me and my thoughts all alone, in the dark, on the cold hard floor.

The adrenaline had completely left me and my body was screaming in pain. I tried to lick my paws clean in comfort but the muzzle was still on, making it difficult for my tongue to really clean them.

Finally I lay my head on my half cleaned paws. Defeated. There was nothing left to do but close my eyes and sleep. Wishing that all of this was just a bad dream, and that the coldness I felt wasn't really seeping inside my bones.

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I woke up in the dark. My wolf was trembling from the cold. I had no energy left, knowing that I was to go back to the wild left me feeling...lonely.

I didn't have any hope. I might sound dramatic right now but at this moment I didn't know what could have been worse than this. Death seemed peaceful in comparison, a release from this painful world.

Hours passed. I was alone with my thoughts, one of the things I hated the most. My mind was my enemy and when it was left alone, wondering, it became painful. I tried to sleep some more to escape it but nightmares arose. At the end I just started at the wall, willing it to be over.

My concept of time was gone, but I knew it had been quite a while. My rumbling stomach and healed wounds were proof of that.

The heavy door opened with a loud complaint and in came the headmaster. His loud footsteps almost made my ears ring after so much silence but the wiff of fresh air I got almost made my wolf howl in joy. That was before remembering what it meant.

The headmaster took me by the fur of my neck. It hurt, but I was too tired to do anything but growl lowly and let him drag me along. The night was cold to my already cold body but I didn't let it affect me. I was sad to have to let go of the brothers and of Lulu, of my bed and the warmth and safety of the dorms but underneath it all my wolf was happy to go back to the wild.

Nature was like the peace I longed for. I was desperate to get lost in it. Still, I wished them all a good life, I knew they would take great care of Lulu and I promised myself that I would never forget her. I let them know all these emotions while howling and running towards new beginnings and hopefully better moons.

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I want to cringe so bad at my first chapters, urgh I hope I can evolve and that my chapters will become better and better because this is still not it.

Anyway I dedicate this chapter to: cato28oneD because she's always supporting me and she's pushing me to continue writing so big thanks!! <3