S W A R A

A week before I got to know everything... which I didn't know and I actually blamed for all the activities which was not done by him. I still do feel really guilty for my actions before yet he asked me never to do so. He was the same all the time it was just me, only me who pushed him away and maybe that's why he was behaving that way in Paris.

I was eating my breakfast alone and he didn't join me. Infact he has still in his room and has not come out from his room. Is he sleeping? Might be, we came home nearly at 1:00 a.m but he still gets up. Is there something wrong?

Having my breakfast I knocked his room door.

"Sanskaar" I called him for thrice.

"Swara you go to office I'm not feeling well today." I heard his voice.

Not well? Is he having fever or something? Oh god!

"You aren't well? Open the door let me just check it up what's wrong?" I tried to open the door but it was locked from inside.

"You leave to office, I'll be fine." I heard him say again.

Before I would protest my mobile displayed a message notification from our p.a saying to come fast.

"Swara leave I'll be okay."

I'm really not convinced with this. I didn't want to go leaving him behind but today's meeting is important as well. I'm greatly stuck in a tight spot uff...

"You'll be fine right?"

"Yeah I'll be."

"Fine take care and eat your breakfast." I said and left to the office.

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Gosh! I thought I would be there before 6:00 at home. I don't know whether he had has lunch. I did call him but he didn't pick it up. Today was an hectic day with lots of meetings and paper works to be done. I had finish them so very quickly yet I didn't manage to go home for lunch in fact I skipped my lunch this time.

Red signal! Damn I'm already rushing home and this traffic... Urghh! I don't know why but I feel something.. something as if he wasn't well not physically but mentally because morning when he answered me his voice was cracky as if he was trying hard to speak.

Green signal! Uff finally.. I started driving back home and reached. I came inside and dropped my bag and blazzer on the couch. Before I would get into his room I saw the breakfast I prepared for him still untouched. Everything was the same except I found a water bottle on the table that's all. Something is really bad then!

I placed my hand on the knob of the door and pressed it down to open and it opened. The room was filled with darkness, the windows were closed and curtains were still not removed. It was too much suffocating as not even the fan was switched on. That is when I saw a figure sitting at one corner with head hidden between his knees and hands hugging his legs.

The room was deadly silent and my heart started thumping in fear.... Sanskaar.. he can never be like. I've never seen him this way. I immediately rushed and opened the curtains and windows to let some breeze in and I sat beside him and placed my hands on his head softly.

He slowly looked up making me hell shocked and worried.

He.. he was crying! His face and red was completely red and his face was drenched with tears. He blinked while tears flowing down from his bloodshot eyes, his thick lashes stuck together in clumps as if he'd been swimming. The tears made wet tracks down his face and dripped from his stubbled, wobbling chin.

I don't know what to say.. I've never seen him like this, not even for once. Seeing him like this my eyes started burning.

"Sa.. sanskaar." My voice trembled still not able to digest the fact that he was crying. My heart ached and weighted a ton all of a sudden.

He suddenly grabbed me in a tight hug and buried his head on my neck. He was trembling more and I could feel his tears wetting my skin and my shirt. I hugged him back.. I don't know what made him this terrible. I gently rubbed his back and caressed his hairs. Seeing him like this was like killing me all alive. It hurted me a hell lot.

I let him cry for sometime because everyone needs a break from acting strong.. everyone needs a break. This man I knew as been strong for too long and letting him cry will not make him weak it makes him more stronger and I have experienced it very well.

When I cried I always wanted someone to hug me tight and let me cry and tell it's okay! You'll be better. Though I had mom with me I didn't bother her much. She already had too much downs in life and I didn't want her to get added on this too.

"I failed as a son!" I was astonished to hear these words from him.

No he has never failed as son according to me. This man is a man which ever parent would cherish and love to have.

"No you..."

"I failed to save my.. maa." He trembled more.

Maa! Wait a second what happened to her? I didn't even see her after that night. Something.....is wrong.

"Sanskaar." I pulled him out of the hug.

I need to know this. Sanskaar's mom was an living angel. She had always seen me like her own daughter.

"She was in the.... car too when uncle and Aunt....." My breath hitched.

"What?" I gasped while tears rushed down my cheeks.

I didn't know that sanskaar's mother had been present in the same car along with my parents. I.. I don't know all that.

Sanskaar's was still crying and I pulled him into the hug this time. I know how it feels... seeing your parents right in front of you dying and you helpless about it.

Sanskaar was too much close to his maa. Both don't just share a mother-son bond, they were like best friends. His mom would always tease him while he teases her back. She was his angel who protected him always. He loved his maa too much than words would say and I know but this.... this was too much.

"It's.. her birthday.. today and I... " He snuggled more into me.

I closed my eyes tightly. I don't know what to say and convince him. No words can explain or express the pain when you loose your loved ones. I cried with him along. She had been too good with me always. If my maa, mom had been taking care other than her it was his mom who loved me.

"I miss her!"

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S A N S K A A R

Swara somehow managed to make me have a glass of juice and pulled me out to the garden outside to change my mood.

She knows me very well and she didn't speak much about it. My head was throbbing and I was dragging my body to walk. I felt too weak as I didn't have anything from morning expect the juice which I had. My eyes travelled to a mother and son playing ball.

I feel jealous of them. I wish to go back to those days and play with my maa and never leave her. She was very special to me and I lost her. I wish to hear her sweet voice again..... Invain I know this would never happen.

"Let's go." Swara said as she saw me staring at them. I just hummed and went behind her suddenly I felt a tug.

"My son!" A old women was crying hugging me.

"Mom!" Nivi came running behind her and tried to pull that woman away from me.

I was still dumbstruck, I didn't know what to do.

"What happened di?" Swara asked to nivi.

"My mother in law actually... It's was around sanskaar's age when my husband.. passed away so she thinks...." Nivi stopped while her voice turned heavy.

"Rahul, my son." The old women cried more hugging me.

I.. I don't what I should do. I slowly wrapped my arms around her and looked at swara who was all worried.

"I'm sorry son. I should have not been rude with you."

I bit my corner of my lips.

"It's okay.... I never blamed you." I said caressing her hairs.

"Really?" She looked at me and all I remember was my maa looking at me that way.

"Ha.. instead I need to thank you!" I hugged her again while I was getting lost in the past with my maa.

"You remember maa? I used to be fight with my friends and come home Everytime.. but you would never ask me why and used to treat my wounds."

"Sanskaar."

"Maa?"

"Don't fight like this in future, seeing you like this breaks my heart."

"I used to be too stubborn in childhood yet you managed me so well. You always prepare me whatever I wanted even if I ask you at late nights. You make me eat yet even if I ask you whether you ate, you would say yes but I know you haven't yet even touched your food. I have fought with you and hurted you maa. I'm sorry...... Thank you for always being there for me maa. I never told you this still love you."

My eyes has turned moist again. I miss my maa like hell. I looked up to see swara smiling at me with teary eyes and nivi was smiling.

"I love you too son!" The woman caressed my face and hugged me.

She does know who I am and I don't know who she is yet we both were in need. I missed my mother while she missed her son.

I kissed her hairs. Somewhere I felt this happened because of my maa..... I felt like having my mother in my arms again.

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We had our dinner silently. I was somewhat okay for now compared to before. I looked at swara who was silently washing the dishes and I know she won't let me help so I sat on the kitchen counter looking at her.

After my maa she was, is and always will be my angel. Now she looks really sad and I didn't want to her like that.

"How was the meetings today?"

"Too much work today." Swara made faces.

"Yet how on the earth you do that?"

"What?" He looked at me confused.

"Even if you are tierd you look damn good, any secrets?" I asked while she smiled.

Finally... Mission Accomplished!

"Do you want to know the secret?" Swara asked me wiping her hands on the towel as she finished her work.

"You have have one?" Her question was actually unexpected.

"Yes!" She beamed.

"What it is? Don't tell it's make up because I know you hate them." I'm curious now.

She pulled me to my room and made me stand in front of the mirror.

"What?" I asked her.

"It's you!" She said looking into my eyes.

Now it was my turn to smile. Seeing me smile she too did.

"So good night." She wished and turned but I held her wrist which made her look at me.

"Don't leave, please." I whispered while she nodded.

We both slid under the blankets. I pulled her towards me while she rested her head on my chest.

"I'll never leave you." She said.

"I know." She meant every word she say always and I knew it.

Soon I drifted into sleep as I was totally tiered and just before I closed my eyes I looked at her who was sleeping peacefully. I caressed her hairs for sometime.

"I love you swara." With this my eyes started getting heavy and I knew I closed my last only looking at her.

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TO BE CONTINUED.....

This was suppose to be posted on mother's day yet due to my late updates I wasn't able to catch it up. Anyways it's not like we have to celebrate only on mother's day we call think every day like that.

I hope I've displayed the emotions on the right way. Hope you all like the chapter do comment and hit the ⭐..

Love,
Diya ❤