I know this was dangerous, but I had to do it. I just had to know what was going on. If Leah didn't wanna be my friend anymore, she had to tell me face-to-face. She couldn't do it over the phone. I wouldn't let her I can't go that way. I know how selfish that may seem or how crazy it is after what happened to me. I shouldn't want to be around her. I shouldn't want to get near her or talk to her at all. But I know it wasn't her fault she had no control over it and I don't blame her. So here I am as I find myself knocking on the Clearwaters front door.

"Eve what are you doing here?" Sue asked

" where is Leah? I know she's here she has to be" I said

"She's in her room but she doesn't want to talk to anyone" she said

I didn't care so I moved past sue with her calling after me. I barged into Leah's room to find her asleep.

"Leah wake up please, I know you can hear me" i said

"Go away" she said

" you can tell me to go away after you hear me out" i said

She sat up and nodded for me to continue but she didn't dare look at me.

" look at me, don't be afraid because I'm not" i said

Slowly she looked up and tears filled her eyes as she stood. Her body began to shake as tears slid down her cheeks. I walked closer to show I wasn't afraid of her not now not ever.

"I'm not scared of you Leah, Im only scared I'll lose my best friend, the one I need most after what happened to me, you can't ignore me forever but I understand if you don't want to talk to me ever again I wouldn't trust me I look hideous I'm personally scared to look at me so I get it you can't either" I said turning to leave

"Your not hideous" she said stopping me from leaving

"Then why won't you look at me Lee?" I asked

"Because I hate what I've done to you, what Sam did to Emily but yours is worse and it's my fault that your hurt and can't look at yourself in the mirror anymore it's me you should hate I should be begging for your forgiveness not the other way around" she said

"Then talk to me Leah, stop ignoring me and be my friend again I lost Paul as it is and I can't lose you I just can't" I said almost crumbling to the ground but she caught me

"Are you okay?, too much standing?" She asked

"I'm okay I'm okay it's just hard standing for so long" i said

"Here sit" she said

"Yeah sure" I said letting her lead me to sit in her bed

"So what's this about Paul?" She smirked

"Nothing he befriended me then said we couldn't be friends anymore turns out he's a werewolf shifter or whatever and now he's still lying about something and so is Bella but I don't know what they aren't telling me and it's irritating me" i said