she missed fireflies.

she used to see them 

almost every night

flying around

lighting up the world

shining and blinking

their beautiful lights.

she used to chase them around

try to catch them

just for the chance

to see them light up

in her hand.

she always let them go

after she caught them,

but she missed

seeing their light 

every night.

ever since she moved

the beautiful fireflies

never showed up anymore.

they stayed behind

their faint glow

disappearing from her life.

it was a rare sight 

to see them nowadays

and it made her sad.

maybe it was stupid

and pointless

to miss a bug

afterall,

she hated bugs,

but this one was different.

fireflies

brought

good

to 

the 

world.

all they brought

was light.

fireflies reminded her

that there was still good 

in the world

but it was getting harder 

and

harder

to remember the good things.

the good was getting rarer

and the fireflies

were disappearing

and her heart was aching

because she tried to treasure

the good times

the good things

the good people

but they all

were disappearing

just like the fireflies.

she never saw 

her two best friends

and 

everyone else

seemed to forget about her

anyways

and it was hard

because

everyone else

was so busy with their lives

doing beautiful

wonderful

good things

while she was stuck

unable to go back to the past

unable to go to the future

stuck in the present

where there were no fireflies

no friends

no good times

no good people

just

her

she wanted to scream

but she couldn't do anything

not anymore

and this wasn't her home

it never was

how could she be in a place

where she saw no good?

all she saw

was the loneliness

the brokenness

the ugly

her faults

her insecurities...

not skinny enough

not strong enough

not pretty enough

not smart enough

not talented enough

not enough friends

not enough followers

not enough reads

not enough likes

not enough comments

not enough lovers

not enough clothes

not enough shoes

not long enough hair

not enough words

not enough books

not enough abs

not enough stuff

not good enough

not enough

not enough

not

enough

enough

enough

she wasn't enough

she couldn't do anything right

and she was alone

alone

alone

she 

was

alone

and all she wanted

was somebody

anybody

who

would

stay

why

won't 

they

stay?

don't eat 

you need to be skinnier

run

you need to get in shape

work out

you need to get abs

be someone else

so they like you

worry

will they like you?

cry

you're alone

scream

your thoughts won't shut up

don't speak

maybe they won't judge you

look away

they won't like you

hate yourself

you're not pretty enough

don't sing

you're not as talented as her

shy away

they don't really like you like that

try too hard

because that will totally work

be annoying

just like they think you are

be something

you are nothing

be someone

you are nobody

she

has

to

be 

more

do

more

just 

let 

her 

be

why

can't 

she 

be 

left

alone?

she 

is 

alone

alone with her thoughts

her insecurities 

her not good enough self

music

listen

to 

music

drown

it

out

try 

to 

survive

give in

eat

you aren't strong enough

to be prettier

to be skinnier

to work out

not

enough...

where are the fireflies?

where did they go?

where was the good?

the light?

her savior?

where

did

they 

go?