Hi.

So today I'm going to be talking about body Issues. I know that for sure I have always had and still have body problems. I know that sometimes we tend to get upset that we don't looks a certain way. The stereotypical way of needing to be thin, fit or skinny to be beautiful.

On some days I think, why am I so fat? Why am I the person who gets to have extra body fat? Why? Why me?

On other days I think, it doesn't matter! You are you! There's nothing you can do.

When I was maybe 5 or 6, I was skinny and had a tiny figure. But as I started to get older, I started gaining weight.

My parents always told me that it was just baby fat and it would eventually fade. But here I am sitting on my bed, 10 years later, writing about being fat.

I know that last summer, I exercised legit everyday. But I dint really feel a change.

All my friends have a small figure or a fit body and sometimes sitting around them makes me feel insecure. I know this happens to me whenever I go swimming with them.

They all were bikinis and look perfect when I wear a one piece swimsuit that ends at my knees. Even if I had a fit body I don't think I would wear a bikini, cuz I'm just not comfortable in it. But sometimes I would like to walk out the house with a pair of shorts on.

I know that my friends all like me because of my personality but sometimes to be confident I need more than a personality.

I want to have a nice body. One that I feel comfortable in and am not afraid to wear skinny jeans and a cute t-shirt without being judged for how big my thighs are or how many rolls on my stomach you can see when I sit.

I know that for sure, I am going to start working out everyday starting next week. And hopefully by the end of this year. I will accomplish my goal.

But in the end, it doesn't matter whether your skinny or not skinny. It doesn't matter if you have a flat stomach, or not.

It's all about your heart, your soul and your mind and whether or not they they are in the right place.

The best compliment someone could ever give me is "you have a beautiful soul" or "you have a kind heart." I am still waiting for that day to come, but I know it will come eventually.

Here's a quote that inspired me.

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart." - Helen Keller