ANDREA

It's crazy how the world works.
How the littlest things can trigger something.

Josh and Beverly were behind me chatting.
They spoke about Cotillion and if I was going to go or not but I just ignore it.

Josh throws his arm around me and brings him close to me as we walk.He wanted to make me feel better.He brings out the Andrea that I thought I'd lost.At the club I never thought I would do anything so outrageous and outgoing like getting up on stage.

He wants to protect me.

Hell he proved it when he made Aiden fuck off.

But I don't need him to take care of me.In the end I'll just end up hurt.I told him everything about me.I opened up but I still feel like we are just merely acquaintances.

"So whats up with you two?" Beverly asks.

"Nothing!" I state.

I take Josh's arm off of me and I walk ahead of them.

I needed to be alone.

I ran home and he obviously followed me since he lives next door but when I got to my house I made sure the front gates were shut with the security alarm and cameras on.

Nobody was home but our butler Drew.
As Usual.

I run into my room and lock its door.
I fall to the ground and begin to cry again.
This is the fourth time today.

I can't help but feel so pointless.

And with Lux I don't even understand why she bothers to talk to me if she hates me so much.

Does she constantly need to remind me?

I need to see my therapist.

She always says it's better if I talk to someone I'm close with or my age and I've always said I had nobody else but her.But now I think of josh and the other night and how Im pushing him away and I feel like I can talk to him.

But I wasn't opening up to him anymore.

I already cause misery around me and I don't want him to be effected.

Cotillion is in a month and I still haven't found a date.When I finally stood up and look outside my huge window where everyone can see inside my room.I saw reporters for Teen Vogue and People magazine asking Avery and Caden about cotillion.

Which is what I assume since it's the only other thing that would make sense.

Caden answers most of the questions,mainly because he doesn't let Avery speak.

Avery is debutante material.

I don't want to let anyone down.Especially my mother and grandmother.They cherish cotillion.They're already bringing designers from Michael Khors to Couture.I don't understand the point in it though.Its not like I'll stand out.It's not like I'll look pretty in my dress.

Once again I'm doing this for my family.
They are the only thing I live for.

I'm scheduled to get interviews late this week.As the daughter of the wealthiest family in Brooke Haven I must represent.The media mainly focuses on me so I'm surprise how people still don't know my name.

Well I guess it's not that surprising.

Beverly gave me her number earlier in case I needed to talk or hang out which I assume what she meant by that was hit a blunt.

But I needed to get out of the house and I wasn't going to talk to Josh.

I think I might be making a new friend.

I call her and she says she'll be here in five minutes.