I woke up.

when I got up I looked at the time, 7:02 am.

That's good, I guess.

School, I have to go to school.

Either way I'll get words on my body.

May as well go then.

I got up and got dressed.

Do I really have to go?

Yes, it will only be worse if I don't.

I walked downstairs and grabbed my backpack, quickly running out the door.
I wish I had a normal life.

I got to school slightly early.

I quickly went to my first class, not wanting to be cornered in the hallways by people like John and his gang.

The teacher was in there and that's it.

I headed to my seat and decided to work on some lyrics for a different song.

I think I'll call it migraine.

Why? Well all of this pain and suffering is like a migraine in my head.

Ooh I could use that as lyrics!

Students soon started to fill the room.

Once everyone was in the teacher introduced a new kid named Josh.

God, I hope he doesn't become a bully.

The teacher instructed him to sit by me.

I'm fucked.

I continued on the lyrics for a few more minutes before packing them away.

I felt the new kid's eyes on me, though I didn't dare steal a glance.

I don't really know why he's staring at me, it's weird but cute in an odd way.

Then again who would love my sorry ass. No one.

So I guess I'll go back to being depressed and alone.

Just the thought of him not liking me made my heart hurt.

I will not let myself become attracted to him.

It's kind of hard to fight though, I know sooner or later the gay will win and I'll be even more dirty than before. Even worse, everything everyone has ever said about me will become true.

It's inevitable though and I find myself constantly wondering why I am still here, why do I fight everyday to stay alive when it's all for nothing?