[BETRAYAL]
by: GreeneverGardenn

11.18.23
(SATURDAY)

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Staring at my phone all day. Nagngisi na sab ko while nakipagchat sa tao na nakaila nako online. Sign na ba ni? His name was Zachary and he seemed nice. He is?

“Hi.” Una niya nga chat. Medyo cold, pero sige replayan nato, basin pa diay.
“Hello! Good evening po.” Reply nako. Naa nay ‘po’ aron ingnon buotan ba. Kay buotan gyud bitaw ko. I was chatting him using my RPA 'cause it feels like freedom for me. Kana ganing ga show lang ka og unsa gyud ka ba except sa face and voice. Mao mana ang purpose sa RP, di ba?

“Random add?” Pangutana pa niya. Nahibulong siguro siya nganong naabot ko sa account niya, abi pa lang nang stalk ko.
“True ka d'yan!” Reply nako sa iya. Syempre, dili baya ko seener. Nindot ni da, naa na koy ka chat.

Didto, nagsugod ang tanan nga unexpected.

“How's your morning?” He asked. While me, busy sipping on my hot milk reading his messages. It's 5:00 AM and I am already awake and energized just because of him. Ana man gyud na.
“I'm good. Hbu?” Nakapahiyom gyud ko, for a thought that he might cared for me. Feeling yarn?
“Great! I am fine,” the conversation started to continue like it will never get over. He was also a RP user, ana siya. Abi nako'g dump lang at first ang iyang account gyud tungod sa iyang last name maong akong gi pangutana. So mao to, RP user sab diay siya ug bag-o ra siya sa RPW. He's nice, he was the definition of the ideal guy that I was dreaming for so long. To be honest, I was slowly becoming into him. He never reveals himself which is okay ra sab nako. We never really had this clarification on what was our relationship was, kay ako ra man gyud ang ga hunahuna nga naay kami. Feeler baya ko. It takes a long day and every day he knew what I was doing and so do I to him. We sometimes exchange sweet messages in a poetic way, and handwritten letters in every special occasions we both have. Dili mo end akong day nga wala ga ngisi, pero gyud good ang mood. It goes on for almost 4 months. Pero sa mga sunod pa ana, wala nako damha ang tanan. Everything seems to be falling apart, kay nikalit nga nihunong siya ug chat nako. He's online but before I could send him a message, he somewhat intentionally logged out. I knew something is off but I kept on believing that maybe he's busy and I should just understand. It's been months like this, and I couldn't stand it anymore so I message him.

“Are you mad at me?” Gi seen ra sab niya dayun.
“I am not.” He answered. I felt betrayed by the thought that if wala siya'y rason ug wala sab siya nasuko nako then why he's been avoiding me? Naa ba ko'y nabuhat? Na bored na ba siya? Gi samukan na ba siya? D*mn, maka overthink.
“Then why wala na kay chats?” Disparately, I asked him this stupid question. Oo na, stupid na kung stupid. Asking a guy like this, nga for sure wala man kami pero ma blame ba ko for overreacting over things like this? I'm just in love. Am I? Gosh, self. Is it really love? Did I fall in love? Maybe, this is my toxic trait. Which is I know how to love but dili ko kabalo mo tuo na in love na ko. Haysss. Pero dili man ni mao ang case ron. Ang pangutana man diri kung nganong ni kalit siya ug distance. Di ba?

“I just don't want you to get hurt if you'll know the truth.” Literally, makapakulba ang word na ‘truth’. Mura ko ug natuk-an sa akong nahunaan. I was chewing my finger nails taking my time to type a question that could reveal what he was hiding from me.

“What do you mean by truth?” Mura sab ug naa sa movie ba, nangurog ko while akong kamot gi paningot na while ga type ug ga huwat sa iyang reply. He's typing and here I am thinking and hoping that he wouldn't say that he has someone or something who he really likes and sure thing that wouldn't be me. Nahadlok ko nga what if he reveals that he likes someone, then I'll be end up breaking down without him knowing. Nahadlok ko sa kamatuoran nga pampalipas oras ra ko while he was into someone. Nangurog gihapon ko while ga focus na akong mata sa tulo ka dots, kay ga typing siya. After a minute, the long wait was over.

“I am Sheia.” He answered.

Three letter words ended me. No explanations, no chats again. He or should I say “she” blocked my account and me being a dumb, I just found myself staring blankly holding my phone. Di ko katuo, mabuhat ni niya nako. To all the stories and moments I shared with her, all I got was this. I was disappointed because she never explained. All the memories had vanished and all I could feel was pain and betrayal. I felt my tears falling down from my cheeks and I found myself sobbing while holding my phone. I was betrayed. I have fallen for a liar. And worst of all, she is my friend. She knew everything, and yet she played me like a fool.

end.

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@berde