‼️ : will contain grammatical errors and plot hole (this author forgot the flow of plot of this book and is trying to remember her plans for this book 💀)

The pain was starting to cause me to black out. My vision was blurry because of the tears in my eyes.

I didn't know what hurt the most, the knife piercing and pinning through both my hands, shattering through my bones, or the fact that the one pushing the knife causing this pain was someone who I once considered as a family.

I didn't know. Maybe I was feeling all of it.

The pain from the betrayal, the pain from realizing it too late, the pain of all the lies, the pain of the knife sinking in my skin.

All of it.

I didn't know where his rage come from, why he was holding this much hatred towards me, why he was looking at me with those eyes that once looked at me with warmth.

I hated it.

My feet supported my hips to lift up and I slightly twisted my body to throw in a kick at Kai's legs, he only laughed at my attempt. "You should have listened to me but you were blinded by your feelings with that mad dog."

"You fucker..." I glared at him like he I could burn him with my glare. "Sick bastard!" I continued to try my best in kicking him but to him, I must have looked so pathetic right now.

He laughed and laughed. His voice seemed to echo in my ears or maybe it was because I was on the verge of collapsing.

"See you in hell, my dear moon."

-

Kai was too busy inflicting pain on Luna that he didn't notice the door was already open and came landing a punch directly to his face. The impact made him go flying to the ground.

As soon as Kai gathered his resolve from that sudden force, he looked up and saw a chilling image of Lee Felix. He wasn't looking at him but at the unconscious Luna sitting on the ground, the knife still left pierced in her hands.

Behind Felix appeared a smiling Jackson. He was leaning on the door frame, arms crossed, and when he saw that Kai was looking at him he put on a smug look and waved at him.

Kai gave a scoff, "Do you think wrecking havoc inside my territory will leave you unscathed? No, no one's leaving here alive. I won't allow it." He stood up and reached for his pockets.

A gun.

He had a gun in his hands, he pointed it at Felix who was still looking at Luna. "Oh, shit he has a gun. I think it's time to snap out of it Felix." Jackson says.

Kai shot the wall beside the door frame which made jackson roll out of the way, "That was rude?" Jackson let out.

Felix didn't flinch, instead he kneeled in front of Luna and caressed her face. There were droplets of blood, her blood, on her face. He wiped it with his thumb. "I'd have to borrow this for a sec," His hands slowly went to the knife pinning on Luna's hands.

His heart was aching while looking at the knife that was pierced on her hands. He couldn't take the pain that Luna was possibly feeling. He hated that she was the one who felt the pain and not him.

He wanted to take the pain away, he wanted to be the only one who bears the pain. His anger was like a ticking time bomb, and once it explodes it would mean bringing hell to his enemies - to Kai.

He pulled out the knife, slowly. Even though Luna was already unconscious, he felt that he needed to slowly take the knife out so that it wouldn't cause her too much pain.

He felt like he was getting vulnerable by only looking at Luna suffering.

Another gunshot was heard, the bullet grazed Felix's arm. He didn't hiss from the pain, he never even reacted to it. He stood up, wiping off Luna's blood on the knife with his mere fingers.

He faced Kai, his eyes were ice-cold as he stared at him but also with a hint of burning rage, hatred, and his burning desire to end his life as painful as possible.

It was rather... chilling.

"You want a taste of hell? I'll give it to you." Felix said in italian. Kai pulled the trigger at him again, the gun goes off but Felix was not in front of him anymore causing the bullet to miss and hit the wall.

Felix reached Kai's side, he slashed Kai's waist which made him tumble. He dropped to the ground instantly when Felix suddenly kicked him when he was still recovering from the pain in his waist.

"Take a nap." Felix says. Before Kai could react, darkness overtook his vision and he went into a deep slumber.

"He fell asleep? Just like that? What did you put on that knife? And how were you able to put whatever you put in mere seconds?" Jackson kept on questioning, jaw dropping to the ground and faced in utter confusion.

Felix didn't answer as he went to Kiera, or rather, her real name, the real her.

"Luna..." He took her into his arms. Her vulnerable body. He planted soft affectionate kisses on her forehead, not minding the blood on her face.

"Let's get her to the hospital..."

-

LUNA
Where am I?

It was dark but my eyes were wide open.

Ah, I'm having one of those dreams again.

I felt someone's hand on mine and when I looked down at my hand I could see something attached to my hand, like it was an extension of my skin. When my eyes traced it, I saw it leading to another person.

It was me.

She was a sitting a little bit farther from me. Our arms were connected (like yknow jake's ability from adventure time? Yeah it's exactly like that)

The fact that our arms were connected should freak me out but instead I walked closer to her. She had her head down. When I stopped in front of her, she slowly looked up at me.

Our eyes met - or not...

She didn't have eyes, it was just two black holes on her face. Her eyes was missing. She smiled at me, "Everyone you love will either betray you or die."

I gasp for air as my eyes open wide, the white unfamiliar ceiling greeted me. I was out of breath like I just ran a marathon. I gulped, that was such a creepy dream.

I was about to move my hands when I felt that there was something heavy on it. I looked over to my hand and saw Felix. He was sleeping while his hands were intertwined with mine.

His eyebags were visible.

"Fe..." (Iron, okay bye) I stopped. It was satisfying to watch him peacefully sleep. I should just wake him up after a few minutes.

He was breathtaking. Out of all the gorgeous men I've met, he struck me the most. I was never the type to go for looks, but I guess his beauty is unparalleled. He has that hypnotic charm that can even tame the heart of a killing machine like me.

I reached my other hand to stroke a hair that made its way to his face.

I wonder if that dream had anything to do with Felix. I know I shouldn't overthink it but... it's an uneasy dream.

When my attention went back to Felix, his eyes were already opened. He was also observing me, looking at me.

"Oh... you're awake." I say. Okay, that was dumb.

He brought our intertwined fingers to his face and kissed the back of my palm. "You scared me yet again..." His eyes hooded as he planted kisses on my hand.

"I thought nothing scared you, Mad dog." I put on a smug look. His kisses was starting to go up my arm until it reached my neck and the next thing I knew, he was hovering over me.

His arms were on both sides of my face as he raised one of it to caress my cheek. His touches sends electrical waves throughout my body. "Well, someone had to break into my house late at night to kill me and she became something I fear. I fear on losing you, Luna."

My body shivers at the mere sound of my name sliding off from his lips. I snaked my hands up to his neck and fiddled with his hair at the back. "I'm not going anywhere, Felix."

He leaned in again to connect our lips together. My hands were in his hair, gently grabbing on his locks of hair. Our kisses were starting to get sloppy and rough.

My hands trace down to his clothed chest and it motivated him to do the same except he slid his hands under my hospital gown, his hands touched the bare skin of my leg.

I pulled away from the kiss, panting, "We're going to do it here, really?" I asked, catching my breath. Felix chuckled, his hoarse voice sending shivers down my spine.

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🎀 TO SKIP THEN SKIP THIS PART 🎀

"I don't mind doing it here, do you?" Felix asks. I raised both of my hands to cup his cheeks.

"You did lock the door, did you?" Felix only nodded at my question. I smiled, crashing my lips onto his again. I never would have thought I would be sharing this kiss with the man I was supposed to assassinate. Things have changed between me and Felix and I'm not complaining.

"mmm... wait..." he pulled away which left me feeling empty with his lips not being connected to mine. "You're still a patient so let me do all the work." he smirked.

I blinked, knowing he was planning on doing something. My breath hitched when he started to plant kisses on my neck, it was so gentle, like he was kissing a newborn baby.

I flinched from his touch, his hands went under the hospital gown I'm wearing and grazed my legs as he pulled the cloth that was covering me.

"You're so beautiful even in a hospital gown, I could devour you." He growled beside my ear. I laughed.

"You're just a psychopath who had just discovered he has a hospital kink." I say.

"Oh, yeah?"

My back arched back when his fingers entered me, prodding at my entrance. It was only a single finger yet it had such an effect in me. "Like that?"

I could only hum in response, my eyes rolling to the back in pure bliss. He moved his finger, exploring my walls. I grabbed his shoulder as I bit my lip to suppress the moans from coming out.

I didn't even notice him coming down, closer to my exposed cunt until his tongue landed on my slit up to my clit.

My hands went to his hair, gripping on it. I could feel him smiling before he engulfed me whole. My back arching off and meeting the bed again after a little suck.

The hands underside of my knees helped me kept my legs open widely to give him full access in eating me out. Licking and sucking every inch of the silky folds. His tongue tested and tried every technique, flat, pointed, circling, flicking.

This man under me was full of talent, he even excels in oral sex. With every suck he could always find the one that made me struggle to not cry out and being heard outside. Using precise movements, he continued to eat. And he ate and ate until my body trembled.

He slipped another finger which made me yell but was cut off by me biting my lip. I accidentally bit my lip too hard that it was bleeding but I didn't want him to stop.

He picked up the pace of his fingers. When I decided to look at him, I immediately felt weak when I found that he was staring right back at me as he ate me out. Fuck.

His fingers and his tongue moved together as if in sync and it was driving me crazy, crazy for more.

He didn't dare to stop. He kept me pinned to the bed when my hips instinctively tried to run from the beast that was devouring it. The knot was forming in my stomach, "Ah, yes. Don't stop..."

It finally exploded. He didn't dare to let it drop as he guided me through the orgasm. His eyes darkened with lust. Before he parted with my exposed pussy, he kissed my inner thigh.

His face met mine as he kissed me passionately. I could taste myself in every corner of his mouth. My mind was preoccupied focusing on the kiss that I practically let out a scream when he entered me.

"Sorry, I should've gave you a heads up." He chuckled.

"Start moving." I commanded making an effort to not make it seem like I was begging him. I still had my pride.

"Yes ma'am" He jokingly replied and suddenly pushed deeper and then pulled out but he was having trouble. "Fuck, you're sucking me in so tight."

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With every push he did, I felt waves of ecstasy flowing through me. Something was different about this sex. Our bodies both yearned for each other, craved each other.

We were eating each other out like we've been starved for years. Our bodies were a perfect fit like a key and a padlock.

He was the last piece to my broken puzzle, a piece that had filled every emptiness in my life.

I was scared, scared of this unfamiliar feeling they called "love". Was I really capable of loving someone without hurting them when it's all I did ever since I could remember?

I was scared of every possibilities that might happen if I'm near to Felix. Would it be really okay for me to be by his side?

Endless questions with no certain answers.

A tear escaped the corner of my eyes as Felix kissed it, not letting the tear touching the bed sheets. "Are you okay?" He asks, our nose touching as he kissed me again.

He pulled away as I inhaled for air, "Is it... really okay for me to love you?" My breath shaking as I questioned it out loud.

Felix tilted his head, "Why wouldn't it?"

"Felix, I'm a monster. I am a terrible person. I'm scared that karma would catch up to me someday, I'm scared that I would ruin your life, I'm scared of hurting you."

He cupped my face with his hands, my cheeks felt warm being cupped by his comforting hands.

"Do you think I'm so innocent myself? If you're a monster then what do you call me? There's nothing wrong with a monster loving a monster." He kissed my forehead and it continued until his kisses went down my jawline down to my neck.

"And... you can ruin me or my life all you want if it means I get to be with you. I don't care." He said with the most comforting and softest voice.

I cried.

I actually cried from his words. I hugged him so tightly before like I could break his back.

Then we spent the next hours just smothering kisses, devouring each other, then cuddling.

-

"Mr. Wang..." Jisung greeted the man in front of him as he aporoached him with his men behind him.

Jackson nodded his head, "The suspect is in the office, he's unconscious so you must drag him." Jisung could only nod at his command. He was overwhelmed by the older men's presence knowing how he was such a big deal in South Korea, his homeland.

He went to Kai's office, knowing damn well the suspect Jackson called in to pick up was Kai. He was itching for this day, he wanted to be the first one to see him suffer, to see him behind bars, to pay for his sins

But...

"Uh... Sir?" His men trailed off as soon as they stepped in the office, there was nothing. There was no body.

"He's gone."

-

Kai grunts, his eyes trembled as he struggled to open it. The lights were blinding as his eyes slowly adjusted to the brightness.

"♪ mmmm... aaahh~ mhmmhm~... ♪"

Someone was humming and something smelled good? Like someone was cooking a dish.

That's when Kai realized to check his surroundings. He wasn't at the office where he last remembered he was in. He was in someplace unfamiliar.

He sighed as he was about to stand up but failed - his hands were tied up in chains and so were his feet. "What..." he let out as he stared on the cold chains touching his skin.

"Oh?" An unfamiliar voice of a woman chimed. Kai lifted his head to see a woman poking her head beside the wall separating the kitchen from the living room. "You're awake! Wait-..."

The woman went back to the kitchen as Kai furrowed his eyebrows like never before.

Minutes later the woman returned with a pot, the delicious smell was coming from it. "I'm done cooking, you must be starving!"

"Who the hell are you?" Kai asked with an obvious irritation in his voice.

"You want to try? It's very delicious, trust me." She smiled as she waved the wooden spoon she was holding to stir the food in the pot.

"I said, Who the fuck are you!" Kai now screamed, growing impatient and more irritated at the woman in front of him.

The woman's smile remained but she was silent. She chuckled, looking down, she placed the pot at the mini table and looked at Kai with the most intense and serious gaze.

Her smile was now gone like she was a different person from the one who just invited Kai to try her food.

"Who am I?..."

"I'm Hana. Park Hana."

A/N:
Those who has read pleasurable mess know who Hana is, yah she's back for Felix (!?!?!) *oa gasp* lolz jokes aside I've been VERYYY inactive lately and I'm sorry abt that, it's been such a busy school year. I'm worried I don't have time doing what I love (writing in wattpad) when I reach college. I'm growing up too fasttttt I want to go back to being a 13 year old naive kid. But yeah I'll try to finish this book before college cuz maybe after this book I won't have another opportunity to write another book (I really do hope not, wattpad has been my childhood I can't bring myself to let it go even if no one is using wattpad anymore T.T)