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She don't want this anymore. She can't do this anymore. Why don't she just give him what he wanted.

She chuckled closing her eyes.

If only she knew what he wanted, then she would have given him exactly.

"You know don't you, Sally" A voice whisper. She gripped her finger. Salina swallowed a lump before chuckling. Ha ha ha ha ha. She laughed, rubbed her face choking only to feel wet.

"Ah..." She breathed out. Those pitiful looks everyone know what he want for her. She chukled rubbing her face, her finger tremble.

"Then free me form yourself, right now. Do it, Salina" He spat those words.

Was not he asking for her death? It was so obvious. She laughed mockingly herself. Her heart ached. What the fuck is wrong with her?

"I loved you" She bite her lips. She feel something heavy in her heart.

"I loved you, you fucking son of a bitch" She closed her eyes slumping against the wall.

Knock knock

"Come in" Salina said calmly the emotion turmoil she was feeling was no where to seen.

"What do you want?" The old butler looked down before putting a tray of food.

"Sir asked me to bring you something  to eat" She smirked at his words.

"Did you hear what I said?" She asked her jaw clenching yet her eyes burn with tears rather then anger. Why? The old butler just looked down bowing a bit before walking out.

"I love him" She stated calmly.

"Tell him I will give him exactly what he wants? Won't you?" The butler stare at her seeing that innocent smile she give him make him feel guilty. A but of nostalgia linger in those old eyes.

"Ma'am, I am sorry" Salina shake her head, chuckling wiping her eyes.

"Ma'am?"  She can't helped as she stare ahead blankly for a while.

"Get out" the cold uncaring voice ring in his ear. He bowed before walking out.

She heaved a sighed before putting on a smile. She can do this. There is not much left of her anyway.

Would not freeing him with make her free too. 

She grinned which falter. Her shoulder shake as tear fall unchecked.  She stand up with slowly walking towards her bed.

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"Dad.." Mr.Henderson jumped up from his chair, hearing his daughter's choked voice. It been so long since she called him.

"Sally?" Hearing her father calling her with her nickname  butter reality. After what seems like forever her voice carried over.

"W..What should I do? Dad" Her voice come out merely a whisper. David froze.

"Salina? What happened?"

"H... He" Her lips trembled, she choked out.

"He.. All he wanted is freedom, Dad" She looked down staring at the floor.

"Sally?" David does not know what to expect as he was  shaking.

"I.. If I give it to him. Will he bring back my son?" She asked swallowing hard waiting for a reply. A confirmation.

"Will he? Dad"

"Salina, what do you mean?" Mr.Henderson grabbed his car keys rushing out of the door.

"He...He took away Aaiden, dad. I might not be a good mother but I tried. I really did. Please believe me. I did my best for him. I.. can't I.. just can't"

"If I don't do anything, Aaiden will be crying. He will be really scared, dad"

"I can't do that to my baby. I can't be that selfish, dad" She whispered.

"Salina, We will get him. Alright? I will get you out of there alright. So please. Please, I beg you wait fo me" David started the car a sweat rolled down his forehead. He feel his heart dropped to his stomach. After three years he was not expecting to hear this.

"I.. I can't it's too late, good bye dad" She said.

"Salina.. Salina. Listen to me, baby please"

"Please Salina you are the only thing left in this world.. please please I am begging you. Salina I promise to get you out of there. Please, You can't do this to your old man, please I can't live without you. I love you, Please" He begged her.

"You lived for the last three years without me, did not you?" She said bitterly.

"It's not true, Salina ,I don't have any option at that time. I pretended.."

"It's alright, dad. I.. I am happy with my decision and I want you to live happily too." She cut the call.

"Please.. please, Salina. Don't do this my love? Please" He hear the beep sound. David finger tremble. He did not notice the car. A dark thought linger.

What if he reaches there only to see her.... Would not it be better to just die? He would not have any meaning to life anymore.

'No' David shake his head. He should not think like that. He needs to save his little girl at any cost. She only have him.

Salina stare at the phone as her father's voice ring though.

Sally please I am begging you don't do this.

I will be there, my baby.

I will save you, so please.

Please don't, wait for me.

Wait for me. Please wait for your old man.

She stare at her phone hearing her father the proud David Henderson begging bring fresh tears to her eyes. She closed her eyes. That's the last voice message. Her finger trembled, she rubbed her face feeling sick to her stomach. Salina just stare at the paper which she wrote.

Her hand trembled,

The reason for my death is Aaron Alvis Valentine.

She smirked, as a tear trailed down her cheek. Salina closed her eyes taking a deep breath letting go of her phone. Her eyes coldly stare at ceiling.

Salina choked, crying not to feel anything only to get startled by the sound of her phone ringing. She waited for it to die down.

"I.. I can't. I am sorry" She stand up her leg trembling giving away. Salina topple down hurting her head. Her vision blurred, again. She gasped for air. Breathing was becoming a difficult task. She rushed to the bath vomiting out water. She slide down, curling up.

What did she reduce too? Can she actually let her father see her like this? She chuckled.

"I.. I am sorry.. I am so sorry" She did not know, who she is apologizing to, her father, her son or herself?

She took the blade from the bathroom counter putting it against her wrist, slowly putting pressure on her wrist. Her hand shaking as she saw a drop of blood. Her heart thudded. She throw away the blade choking.

"No one.. no one wants to die, huh" She chukled rubbing her face. She is pathetic, she can't even end own her misery. She close her eyes curled up.

She stare at the wall. It was not long before she hear someone knocking on her door.

"What is it?" She can't even recognize her own hoarse voice. The door opened a nervous butler to looked around as she stand up walking out of the bathroom door. She leaned on the wall arm crossed her eyes icy.

"What is it?" Her voice soft even it lack every emotions. The butler had to look down it was difficult to look at her.

"S..Someone's here to see you" the butler said nervously.

"Tell them to come up" She stated calmly walking her way to the bed falling down. She was acting as if her leg was fine.

"I.. I think it will be better if you see it for your self" She sighed keeping her face devoid of emotions. Salina stand up walking out of the door.

"Who is it?" Salina asked as she walked slowly.

"Police." She chuckled hearing that.

"Are they here for me? Or Aaron?" She mockingly asked. The butler flinched. She stand at the top of the stair, slowly taking on step at a time. She was standing at the last steel.

"Are you Mr.David Henderson's daughter Salina Valentine?" She narrowed her eyes. She stare at the ambulance standing outside. Her blood ran cold as she stare at the inspector, dread filled her. Voicing out her thought seems to be a painful task.

"Y..." the words where stuck inside her as she fall down, a chuckled left her mouth. She laughed the irony of the situation, she could not help it.

"Yes that's my father dearest" She smirked looking at inspector who was sure something wrong with the woman infront of her.

"What happened? Is he dead?" She asked with a mocking smile lacking any kind of consideration.

"We are sorry to inform you, Ma'am" the inspector said.

"Mr. Henderson died in a car accident. His injury was so extensive that he was spot dead" She nod her head as if this is a regular conversation. She stand up with a lots of difficult. The butler helped her up. She smiled at him thankfully. As he helped her walk to the ambulance. Opening the sheet. Her finger trembling. With lots of effort she move towards the ambulance standing infront of the house. Her heart beat increase. Suffocation built up.

Wait for me.

The word ring in her head drumming her inside.

"He is my father" She sighed out, blinking her eyes, she looked away. She won't cry infront them never. She would not allow herself to..

"T..thank you for your help inspector" She said with lots of difficulty staring at any of them.

They leave the body at the frontyard. She collapsed at the gate staring at her father.

"Can you all leave me alone?" She said they did leave her alone even then she refused to cry. She can't, she have no right too. After all she is her father's murderer. Even then even after all those pep talks, a tear slide down her cheek stubbornly.

"Dad?" She called him biting her lips feeling the metallic taste on her lips. Her inside turned as she fall back.

".. I..." She shake her head. Does she have anything right to say sorry? While she was still breathing she took away his life?

"I love you" the word she forget to tell him on the phone. She forget to reply his words which she eagerly replied when she was a child. Waiting for him to return from work so that she could leap in his arm, hug him and tell him, I love you. When did she started taking that for granted. Is this the punishment for that?

"Dad?I .. I was so stubborn. I.. I did not meet you. I ignored you yet when I was gasping at the last straw, I called you first and you picked up. Why? Why did you pick up? Why did not you ignore me? Why?" She asked him but what's the point in asking him now.

"Dad.. Please wake up" Her voice trembling. She blinked back her tears.

"Please don't do this to me. I will be a good daugther. Please.. please" She begged him just like he did. Anything, so she could talk to him. Hear his reassuraning voice. He said he will save her.

"Look.. I waited for you just like you asked. Then why? Why did you end up there? You did not even get to meet your grandson" She asked rocking back and forth.

"Do you know Aaiden is nothing like me? He is kind and loving. He might have gotten that from you. T..thank god he did not take after my stubbornness" She chukled at that, she put her hand on his cold one. Holding tightly providing warmth as much as she could.

"Did you get Mr.Valentine?" The butler asked the maid who just shake her head.

"He.. would have love to meet you and play with you. But I know I will still be your number one. Won't I? Dad. You won't replace me, right?" She shake her head.

"How could I ask that when you turned away from your second chance at happiness for me?" She looked down, her father. She wander if that day, if only she went after him stubbornly, if only she did and cried, would her father be able to turn away from her? Would he been alive today?

"Stay with me, please" She pressed his cold hand against her cheek, feeling no warmth no reassurance nothing. Her lips trembled.

The butler tried to reach everyone in the family while Salina stayed beside her father's dead body waiting for him to wake up.

"Ma'am, Mrs.Valentine?" The butler called her. They are gather around her. It was evening already. She was silently sitting beside her father. When the people from church came.

"No" She screamed at them. No one, she won't let anyone take him away.

"She was sitting there since this morning. She would not let anyone near him. She would not let anyone touch him" Priscilla said, she feel weird seeing her this broken. After a lots of effort she convinced Antonio her husband and Aaron's father to call Ronald Ernest. He is a psychiatrist if only he could talk he out.

"Don't touch him" She looked at the man approaching her. Ronald was just watching her for a while now after being called. She looked distorted yet desperately holding her emotions. She looked at him distrustfully.

"Who are you?" She glare at the man, who might be older then her. He smiled at her softly taking a seat beside her. They were silent for a while.

"Was he a great father?" He asked. Salina does not know if she should answer that or not. She looked down gulping a lump.

"Yes" She bite her lips staring forward.

"He.. He was the best father" She smiled a bit but stayed silent.

"Why?" She mumbled put.

"Why do we take everything for granted and only regret when there is nothing left?" She rubbed her face chuckling a bit.  Ronald stayed silent letting her talk.

"M..my mother cheated on my father when I was a kid. She repeated again and again. I was too young to understand while my father was clueless. When he caught her red handed rather then yelling or screaming at her, I remember him hugging me telling how sorry he was. I was too young to know what was going on. I .. I don't even know why he was apologizing to me. Now that I think of it, I feel like he might have been apologizing because I won't have a mother after that day"

"I.. I am sorry" She feel her eyes blurring as a tear trickle down her eyes.

"I am sorry I am so sorry only because of me.. I.." She bit her lips choking. A heavy feeling pressed down on her.

"I am sorry, I am so sorry for taking everything for granted. If only if only I had called you and told you that you are the best dad, I could ever have that I love you. I never thought about having a mother. You don't need to regret about that. If only..." She grit her teeth.

"If only this is a nightmare I could wake up from and he will be there patting my head telling me that everything will be alright." She cried out. Ronald stare at her a sudden feeling of guilt flash through him after he was here to calm her down.

"He..." She bit her lips.

"Take your time" Ronald whispered in a low voice.

"He begged me. He begged me to wait for him. If only I said I would wait, he would have been alive"

Regret.

Salina smiled as another tear answered tears filling her eyes, she sniffed. Ronald stare ahead patting her head softly. Feeling a warmth that was suppose to be her father's something break in her as she cried out choking sobbing. Her cries were more heart wrenching shaking everyone her in the room. She went hysteric with in a second.

"I am sorry" Ronald said the next moment she slumped against him.

"You can take her in her room" Ronald told Priscilla who asked the servant to bring her to her room.

"Don't give her any dose today. Sedatives could be lethal but if she again went hysteric try to calm her down without medication. If that don't work use tranquilizer" Ronald does not know if he should say this. After all he has done what he is called for.

"If you could delay the funeral until she wakes up it would be better. She needs closure....." He said calmly. It was just a suggestion. Everyone in the family who were present will do what they want. But he feel like she needs that closure more then anyone.

"Thank you Ronald" Dr. Antonio Valentine said his eyes cold piercing.

"Always a pleasure working with you" He said with a business like smile before walking away. Antonio turned towards Priscilla.

"The funeral will continue as scheduled there will be media after all" Mr.Valentine said coldly. Priscilla did not said anything even though she was against it.

"Call Aaron" Mr.Valentine said. She nod her head and tried to call him again.

"His phone is still out of reach" Priscilla said.

"We will proceed as stated. Aaron is busy taking care of his hysterical wife" Mr.Valentine said coldly his eyes calculative.

"C..Can't we delay it for a while?" She asked only to get silence as the answer. Everyone in the room wanted to stop the funeral. Can't he see in what state Salina was? Or was he doing it deliberately? Priscilla bitterly thought.

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Salina blinked her eyes, her envision blurred, her head feel heavy. She seat up rubbing her face feeling someone pounding her skull. She could not remember anything. She sighed. Searching for water the jug was empty.

She feel tired and hungry, her throat dry. Salina slowly get out of her room. Feeling exhausted physically as well mentally. How much could she can take before it becomes too much?

She walked passed the hall way, to the kitchen take a jug for water. She went back walking past the hall way, her eyes wander to the television everyone was watching, freezing in her spot. She saw the picture, her hand tremble, as the jug slipped from her hand. The sound of glass shuttering could be heard through out the hall. Eveverything came back not leaving a sling detail. She stare at the television.  Everyone stare at her afraid. She falled down. The glass piece piercing yet all she did was stare at the moving picture.

"D..dad?"

"Dad" She choked out, realizing this was video of a funeral. Suffocation built up.

"I need to see him. I need to see even if it's for the last time" She jumped up not bothered about her cut.

"Ma'am" The butler stopped her.

"Step aside" She spatted coldly.

"Mr.Henderson is already cremated" Her eyes widen, her lips trembled. She feel her fast heart beat. She feel something shatter but what?

"But.. H..he is my father. I .. am.. suppose to" She chuckled shaking her head.

"You are not in your right mind" the butler said looking away.

"He is my father. I have every right to"

"No" She screamed at the bulter who flinched back.

"Take him out, take him out now. I want to see him one last time.. I had to see him see one last time. Tell him how sorry I am. Take him out" She yelled trashing against them, her breathing went erratic.

"Give her sedative" Dr.Valentine said coldly. Priscilla had to look away tears trailing down her cheek.

"But.. Ronald said" Pricilla tried to protest.

"No please, he is my father. He is my everything. He.. He was coming to me.to see me. To stop me please, I... I had to. See him... I had too please... Don't do this to me.." She fall down again crying. The butler take her to her room. He feel hurt to see her going through this.

Priscilla stare at the scene a tear rolled down her cheek. She always knew she married a monster but seeing it with her own eyes was another experience. Someone needs to stop this.

Priscilla again tried Aaron's phone.

"Where the hell are you?" She asked. Aaron rolled his eyes.

"Why am I suppose to answer you that" The mocking tone he used stopped Priscilla's words.

"You have not seen the news, have you?" She asked almost whispered.

"I was in back to back operation theater, Priscilla.  Even if I want I don't think they will attach a television for information much less entertainment" He replied cutting the call, he was exhausted and have no time to deal with her.

"Wait Aaron" Priscilla said urgently only to hear the beep sound. She dial his number again and again and again until he was forced to pick up.

"It's better be important" his voice threatening.

"Mr.Henderson... Mr.Henderson died" He froze for a beat, pinching the bridge of his nose. Aaron sighed.

"And?" He asked. Priscilla bite her lips wandering if she should explain everything but she did.

"Take me to the airport" Priscilla heard between her explanation.

"Are you out of the town?" Priscilla asked confused.

"Yes" Aaron cut the call rubbing his face. He feel exhausted.

He then called the butler.

"Where is she?" He asked. The answer came immediately.

"In her room" He sighed in relief.

"Have she eaten anything?"

"No, sir we have tried but she won't response at all" He closed his eyes. It will take time before he reached home.

"Make sure she drink something at least" Aaron stare outside, his eyes blank.

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Thank you for reading dear readers.

I know it been a long time. Things are doing a bit rough in my life. I don't have any time to write. But I will still try to update twice a month.

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Until next time.