His bright smile that turned into a frown was the last thing that Baekhyun saw before he left.

What did he do? That, he has no idea. If he could remember it correctly, they were just happily playing Monopoly before good things became shit.

He was just talking about their old friend who admitted that she has a crush on Baekhyun.

"Could it be...?" He shook his head in disbelief. Chanyeol couldn't be possibly jealous of Taeyeon.

Shaking his head, Baekhyun went to the garage and started looking for Chanyeol...again.

Baekhyun has no idea where to look first, and to be honest, he doesn't even have any idea where Chanyeol is.

Hours later, he gave up. He drove back home and lied down.

"Chanyeol-ah, where could you possibly be?" He asked, tears streaming down his face while scanning his and Chanyeol's photos on his phone.

With that, he fell asleep, his pillows stained with tears.

Little did he know, Chanyeol, on the other hand, already wanted to go back home. But he doesn't know how to, and how to apologize.

But he knew that a simple sorry would do. Because that's Baekhyun, he's kind, he's understanding. He would probably understand that he got jealous that he ran away.

But that's not an enough reason to leave Baekhyun behind.

"He's definitely crying right now. My world, my husband, my love, is crying because of me. Stupid, Chanyeol. Stupid," He said, hitting his head repeatedly.

He wants to apologize for his shallowness. He wants to apologize for leaving him. He wants to apologize for everything.

"Can you still remember when we were still close to Taeyeon? The time when she said she has a crush on me?" Baekhyun laughed at the thought.

But then stopped laughing when he noticed Chanyeol's changing of mood.

"Channie? Are you okay?" worriedly, he touched Chanyeol's cheeks.

Chanyeol shivered.

"Y-yes. I'm o-okay. C-continue..." Chanyeol said, trying to hold his tears back.

He felt jealous.

Why do Baekhyun's eyes sparkle everytime that he talks about Taeyeon?

"And the time when you and Taeyeon fought because of me? Because you accidentally spilled your coffee on me?" Baekhyun chuckled.

'That's it.' Chanyeol thought.

He couldn't take all of these Taeyeon talks.

Chanyeol stood up, and went outside.

"Chanyeollie? Where are you going?" Baekhyun asked but Chanyeol didn't mind.

"Chanyeol-ah." Baekhyun tried to call Chanyeol but Chanyeol acted like as if he weren't hearing anything. Acting as if he was deaf.

"Chanyeol," He called but Chanyeol was already out of sight.

He left Baekhyun alone just like that. Without even saying goodbye. They didn't even got the chance to finish their game of Monopoly.

The next day, Baekhyun felt empty. Maybe it's because of the fact that Chanyeol wasn't the first thing he saw.

With heavy eyelids, he slowly stood up, went downstairs, took a bath, and started to look for Chanyeol... again.

He has no idea where to look first.

But he found himself standing in front of Starbucks. He has no idea what's gotten into him that led him to Starbucks.

As far as he could remember, their first date as a couple was here. Starbucks.

He had a little hope that he would find his husband inside. Well, he wishes.

But to his dismay, there were no one inside Starbucks aside from him, the person on the cashier, and the security guard, of course.

He ordered and seated. Still hoping that Chanyeol would come and drop by any moment from now.

But hours later, he gave up and moved to another place.

He went to the playgorund. The place when they first met when they were 11.

A boy, aged maybe around 11, was watching another boy, who's taller and maybe the same age as his. He watched the taller as he was being bullied by some other kids.

"Is he stupid?! He's tall enough and maybe old enough to fight back!" Irritated, young Baekhyun came out from his hiding place and approached the boy who was being bullied.

"Yah, Nam Jiha, go away!" he called the leader of the bullies. He was holding several rocks, and he would not hesitate to throw if they wouldn't leave the other guy alone.

The bully looked at Baekhyun's direction with shocked eyes.

"Well look who's here. If it isn't Byun Baekhyun. Why should I? Is he your bwoyfweend?" Jiha, the bully, mockingly said.

Baekhyun tried his best not to blush. It was a success for he kept his straight and blank face on.

"Shut up, Ji Ha. You don't want your butt to be kicked, right?" Baekhyun cracked his knuckles and walked towards Jiha, which, slowly walked backwards and ran away.

"Kids these days..." He shook his head and looked at the taller, who's trying to avoid his gaze.

"Uhmm... th-thank you... for saving me," Chanyeol said shyly.

"No problem," Baekhyun smiled, and continued, "Hey, can we be friends?"

Chanyeol looked down, so that he can see Baekhyun.

"Sure! I would love to!" he cheered.

"I'm Byun Baekhyun. Nice to meet you," he smiled.

"Park Chanyeol. Call me whatever you want. Nice to meet you," he smiled back.

"By the way, Channie, don't mind about what Ji Ha is saying. Just forget it," Baekhyun shyly says, as Chanyeol looks at him.

"What about the thing that he's saying?" Chanyeol asked.

"That I am... y-your..." The shorter male gulped. "b-boyfriend," Chanyeol laughed at Baekhyun's epic reaction, Baekhyun blushed.

"Yah! Don't laugh!" Baekhyun whined which made Chanyeol laugh even more.

"Okay. If you say so."

Baekhyun fought the urge to cry.

"Chanyeollie, where are you? I miss you..." he said as he wiped his tears.

If Chanyeol was here, he would be the one who will wipe his tears away. If Chanyeol was here, he would tell him that it's okay. If Chanyeol was here, he would tell him to stop crying.

But Chanyeol is nowhere to be found.

✨

Days, weeks, months have passed. Baekhyun still hasn't heard anything about Chanyeol, and days, weeks, months have passed, Baekhyun's condition became worse.

Before Chanyeol left Baekhyun alone, Baekhyun was suffering from pneumonia. But he didn't let it bother him. He acted as if he's okay and he's not suffering from any disease.

But everytime that he looks for Chanyeol, he forgets himself. He doesn't know how to eat, nor to drink his medicines that would make him feel better. All he knows is that his husband is somewhere out there.

Right now, he doesn't feel like going out. He really feels like shit. His body feels heavier than usual. He feels cold despite the hot weather. To make the long story short, he feels sick--sicker than usual.

With that, he tries his best to reach for his phone, and with his luck. He managed to do it without the phone falling.

He called his bestfriends, Jongin and Kyungsoo to come over.

✨

Months passed by. Still, Baekhyun hasn't heard anything about Chanyeol.

Is he okay, is he eating well, is he fine, does he also miss him, and most of all, does he still love him? Well of course, no one could answer that aside from Chanyeol himself.

But how? He's nowhere to be found.

Jongin and Kyungsoo were always for Baekhyun. Since he called them that day, they never left his side again.

"Baek, we really think you need to see the doctor," Kyungsoo said worriedly.

"What for, Kyungsoo? I'm fine. I'm perfectly fine," Baekhyun chuckled but coughed afterwards.

"Baekhyun-hyung, you're not okay. Stop pretending that you are. Please, you need to see the doctor," Jongin pleaded.

"But I need to find Chanyeol--"

Kyungsoo stops Baekhyun.

"For fuck's sake, Byun Baekhyun! Chanyeol has left you for almost a year! You need to move on!" Kyungsoo cried, Jongin pats his back lightly.

"Kyungsoo, I'm sorry. But I'm holdong onto my faith. I know that he still love me. I know it. He just needs some space and time, and I'm giving it to him. But I know, I really know, that he's gonna come back. He will. Maybe not now. But I know... someday," Baekhyun said, leaving the couple's mouth agape.

He went to his room, it was still the same. Lifeless. It became lifeless ever since Chanyeol left their house.

He tried to call him everyday. But he won't pick up.

Baekhyun sighed, what could he have done to make Chanyeol upset and leave their house for such a long time?

It's impossible that it's still because of the Taeyeon thingy. Because that would be too shallow. But he still doesn't erase jealousy from the list.

If he only knew where Chanyeol was. He would've apologized a long time ago. For what he has done. Although he doesn't have any idea about what it is.

✨

It's been a year since Chanyeol left, and Baekhyun's condition is becoming worse everyday.

"Hyung, you really need to see the doctor," Jongin said for the nth time.

But Baekhyun, being a hard headed boy he was, shook his head and said, "No need, Jonginnie. I said I'm fine."

"Baekhyun, listen to us. Even just for this once. You need to see the doctor," Kyungsoo said.

"Give me a reason why should I," Baekhyun challenged them.

Kyungsoo sighed, "Baekhyun, you're not like this. I know that you're still looking for Chanyeol. I know that every night, while Jongin and I are sleeping, you sneak out and look for him and return before we even know that you're gone. Baek, I know that you love Chanyeol, more than anything, more than you love yourself. But that doesn't mean that you won't take care of yourself anymore. Baek, just accept the fact that he isn't coming back--"

"NO! HE WILL COME BACK! I KNOW IT.... I know it..." with that, Baekhyun started crying.

It stings.

So this is the feeling when the person you love leaves you.

"Hyung, hush. See the doctor, you need it," Jongin smiled.

Baekhyun looked at Jongin.

"When I do, will you help me look for him?"

Due to loss of words, Jongin and Kyungsoo just nodded.

Baekhyun stood up amd hugged the two.

"I love you guys," he whispered.

But before they knew it, they saw Baekhyun lying on the ground.