Sup hoes, I was tagged by yours truly thejadelover

I have been given a few questions, stick around and answer some of them with your own opinions and answers.

Features:

I'm 5'6 (5'7 on good days) and normally an inch taller than most of the guys I know, practically towering over all my girl friends.

Don't worry, I'm sure their growth spurt will hit them....hopefully.

Anyways

I have dark brown eyes that look black but will look hazel in the sunlight. Exactly the same with my hair. My dad was greek and my mother is Arab so I'm mixed ig, tho I've fallen on my dads side.

The only Arabic features I have are my hair, eyes and eyebrows. Other than that I don't really think I look very "indian". I have fair skin and a small nose.

My teeth are (in my opinion) fucked. Like I already had 3 extractions with still 2 fillings pending and I need braces desperately. Hence, you don't ever see me smiling in pics or with people. I always cover up my laugh.

Guess my other insecurity is my skin. Aside from having good features and bone structure, I suffer from acne. I'm not talking about a few pimples, it's a lot. It's gotten better now but just under my eyes and on both my cheeks, it's very red.

That's why I use filters, to block out the redness and pimples.

I think the only thing I like about my upper body is my neck and lips. I have quite smol lips. Don't even get me started on my HUGE cheeks. Istg I need to lose my babyfat, I'm almost 16 for fucks sake!

Sense Of Fashion:

Hmm this is easy.

To my mother's disappointment, I do NOT like wearing those 8 year old dresses with frills and fucking rainbows.

Instead my go-to look is leggings/tights with a long T-Shirt and high tops or any random takkie. The T-Shirt is usually from the Boy section since I'm absolutely in love with boys clothes which my mother assures me that it's just a phase.

Sure, let's go with that.

I also have my girlie days where I wear cute dresses with heels or flat shoes and just end up skipping around like a submissive daisy.

One thing I don't wear is jeans. I have ONE pair and I never use it. It's just so uncomfortable and not easy to match. Not my style.

I tend to match colours. Like black leggings with a purple top with purple shoes and black earrings. I don't ever break up the colours which drives my family mad.

I can't help it jeez.

I see them breaking their black and white clothes with like, pink shoes. IT ANNOYS THE HELL OUT OF ME!!!

Another thing, I don't wear croptops or anything ripped. I guess it makes me feel self conscious so yeah.

Other than that, I live in hoodies. I steal my cousins and friends hoodies all the time. It's like my safe zone. I wish I could afford Kpop hoodies :(

Likes:

I'm obsessed with Kpop, I have a passion for chess (Chess Captain at my old school) and I kinda enjoy Netball and Tennis a lot. Writing is most certainly one of my favourite things in the world, aside from photography, watching YouTube and playing games.

My WP bio will explain all my favourite fandoms and more info about me.

Food will stay superior though.

Dislikes:

Uh I hate a lot of things actually. Sometimes I hate being around people, large crowds, family, my mother, just anyone. I enjoy my own company and prefer to be alone 80% of the time.

I hate homophobic, racist people and just general haters.

Who I Really Am:

I'm known to always wear a fake smile. The truth is, I don't like smiling. I guess I don't even know how to smile genuinely anymore. Sometimes I just want to frown and glare at people but I have to uphold the family "image" or whatever.

I'm so fucking short tempered but control it well (sometimes) I usually come home and just scream in frustration or rant to my mother or one of my friends. I bottle up a lot of emotions and it normally shows up unexpectedly when I can no longer conceal it.

That isn't healthy right?

I swear I fucking hate crying. I actually force myself to stop and push it away deep down. I hate feeling weak. To me, crying is weak. Telling someone your feelings is weak. Showing people the real you, the broken you is weak.

I know that's not true but that's just the way I am. Constantly wanting to look perfect to the world.

I love making people laugh but tend to be shy and quiet when I first meet someone. Once I actually open up and allow you to know the real me, you'll see how loud and crazy and weird I am.

Half of my friends don't even know the real me and not many people like it when I reveal the truth.

Apparently the real me is cold, rude, doesn't give a shit about anyone or anything, scary, mean, disrespectful etc. Well yeah, it's not that bad but you get it. It's completely the opposite of my wide fake smiles and shy and cute lie I show to the world.

I'm a girl that just wants to have freedom, to have the right to do whatever I want whenever I want. Guess I have to wait till I grow up cause rn it ain't looking so good.

How Am I In School:

I haven't told anyone this aside from 2 of my friends but I actually left school in 7th grade which was 2 years ago.

The reason, my mother couldn't afford school fees so I was forced to leave. Yeah it's been a while and I've just been sitting at home causing my anger to get worse.

Hopefully in 2021 I get back, I know we're in a hard time but I need to go back to school.

I was one of the top students in the grade right up till 5th grade. As soon as I hit 6th grade I started worrying about popularity, social media and boys more than my education.

Grade 7 was shit. I remember dealing with bullying because I was the only girl that was bisexual in an all girls school. Well, the only one that came out of course.

My own crush made my life a living hell, causing me to self harm at the age of 13.

I was so emotionally unstable back then, so fucking weak that I let them push me around, telling me to die everyday. I just let it happen.

But now? 2 years later I've changed.

Now you better fucking pray if you piss me off. I don't take shit anymore.

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Yeah this was my few questions! Go ahead and answer them too, I'd like to know your stories!

Or just ignore, totally up to you :)

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