Breanna

I stand looking in the mirror as I got out of the hospital shower. I've. Been here four days and today I go home as long as I promise to stay on bedrest till further notice. There are so many things on my mind. I feel arms wrap around me then hands land on my bare stomach. Omg why is he touching me and I'm naked. Something i can say about Jay, it's like I'm drawn to him and he to me.i love the connection. It's like we been together forever. I try and move but it doesnt work.

"Regardless of how much you try and get away, I'm all for you and my son and yall conat go anywhere. Now come on so I can help you dry off." Jay said while kissing my cheek then proceeding to drying me off.

"Ummm, I just gotta get use to this all I guess. When do we leave? I'm over all this hospital shit now" I spoke wiping my tears.

Bae, stop crying please. Well they said you could go home tomorrow but it's a catch" Jay said but he never looked up.

"Just say it already you making me worry" I damn near screamed. My bipolar moments are too frequent for me, I tell ya.

" Calm down mama. You so spoil. Anyway, you gotta stay in town for a week then the doctor will check you then we will just have to drive home. No planes right now. I already got a RV, so you can be home but on the road." Jay said so caring. How did I get here, nobody supposed to be here.

"Oh, fine. But I gotta go see Augs mom. We haven't seen her in like 6 months. She gone have a fit I didn't tell her." Oh what a web I got myself caught in.

August and I still haven't really talked. He and Mirical strip got into again. I'm not sure what she tried this time. But it seems he has someone trailing her. The guys have been super serious lately and it's great but I want to stab all four of them.

I walk in and lay back down, as always lately Jay plays behind me wrapping his arms around me and rubbing my stomach as our son kicks his hand as if hes trying to move it for me. It's very funny and cute to me.the doctor walks in with a tech to draw more blood. At this damn point I have no idea how me and the baby are even standing.  They stealing all my damn blood. The lady sticks me as the doctor reads charts. It doesnt hurt or either I'm just use to it. Dont know if that's good or bad.

"Breanna, did anyone ever say anything about twins?" The doctor ask and it seems the entire room stops and gets quiet at the same time.

"Ummmm, not that I know of." I say playing with my hands.

"Well it seems the test have come back from the tissues we collected from your cervix. It seems you lost a baby. I'm sorry for your loss. Buy I'll see you back in a week. Please rest and let your body heal." Then he walked out after shaking hands again and kissing my forehead like a caring father.

I couldn't do anything but sit there in a daze. I loss a baby. Like my son had a twin and now they are gone. Oh God do you hate me this much. Before I knew it everything went black.

Jayceon
It was a good thing I was behind Bre because she slowly fell back and passed out. God please keep Breanna and my child. I just held her. They checked her vitals everything checked out she was just over wheeled. This is gone be a long crazy ride. But regardless of what comes our way I'm definitely ready for it.

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Helllllllloooooo! My beautiful butterflies.  Yes it has definitely been too long. Losing my mom took a toll. Just when I thought I was ok, I would lose another part of me again.  I know this update is not long.  Ut I had time at work so I updated. It will definitely be better next time.

To all that are still sticking with me tha k you so much
I love you all more than you know.