Cold play - Fix you

"...I let a monster into my life"

I whispered as my brother's face briefly softened.

"That's not... Can't you see what I fucking see?"

"What do you see Seth? Because last week you were fine with me being with him again!"

"I wasn't fine I just didn't want to argue with you on your fucking birthday but now this! I have to get a phone call from Dean who I haven't spoken to in who knows how long telling me my sister is sporting a rock and then I'm left confused but what do you know its all over fucking twitter!"

"Wha..." I was cut off as he took his phone from his pocket and showed it to me.

It was pictures from yesterday as it was now morning here. It was Brock and I posing with Jimmy, the fan and another one where Jimmy had been speaking to us and Brock's arm was around my shoulder as I held his hand which also made my ring at a perfect angle for the camera to capture.

I read one of the posts.

"@WWEUniverse : RT @WRESTLINGGOSSIP: It seems Michael COLED it! After months of speculation The Beast and his Beauty were spotted at the opening of Brock Lesnar's favourite restaurant. With Mckenzie 's ring finger being occupied mmmm..... #JJ #supportivesoontobewife #surprisesurprise "

I glanced on the far side of me to check if Brock was even still there as he was unusually quiet.

"And let me guess everyone knew except me as fucking usual" he shook his head.

Even though he had just basically ambushed us at Brock's parents home and I didn't even know how he knew, I felt extremely guilty as I should've told him he had done so much for me and I did this to him like thi...

"You see how quiet he is , cause his probably regretting putting that ring on your finger! He can't deal with..."

"Seth I suggest you fucking shut up cause you will not like what I say if you continue shouting at her!" My Beast finally spoke as he walked over to us and Seth chuckled.

"So you're allowed to shout at her but I can't? You don't have the right to fucking lecture me okay? I have been through more shit with my sister than you have ever..."

"Seth.." I tried to speak but Brock's loud voice overpowered mine.

"YOU'VE GONE THROUGH MORE? Where the hell were you when Eric re appeared at Thanksgiving huh? " He moved closer to Seth.

" Oh that's right you were too fucking concerned about crying like a baby to your parents cause you hated that you didn't know I was fucking her!"

Seth tried to speak again but Brock cut him off as he moved forward causing Seth to reluctantly step back leaving me on the porch alone.

"And where were you when Eric attacked Paige and Kevin and took her away? You were sitting on your fucking couch in fucking Long Island while I was here for her! "

He shook his head as he looked down and then back at Seth.

"While you have been through a lot with her I have been as well, so don't bring me that shit! You don't know half the shit that has happened and I don't need to tell you because I have nothing to prove to the likes of you" he wavered at Seth and then turned to me and pointed in my direction.

"She is the only one I care about and because I do I am trying to be as calm as fucking possible because the last thing she needs is..."

"You don't know what she needs Brock! So you bumped into Eric again? I wouldn't be surprised if you two somehow fucking knew each other and he was merely your way of..."

Seth felt betrayed due to me not telling him hence him being so harsh but I hated it , I hated that they were arguing.

"Seth stop please you are not making any..."

Both of them ignored me as they were glaring at each other and I knew as Brock looked at him he didn't care anymore and the next words that came from his mouth proved it.

"Yes I'm fucking working with Eric because I would want the fucking woman I love to get beat up and almost get fucking killed cause her psychotic ex boyfriend's plan was to commit suicide with her! That's what you fucking think huh? That I would risk her life after everything she has been through from her high school boyfriend abusing her to him... I am nothing like them I would never.."

"What.."

I whispered as his words sunk in but as it did I still didn't understand.

Seth was stunned as he stared blankly at Brock and I didn't get how Brock knew about Liam. Only one person knew about that and he wouldn't have had a chance to speak to her...

As he turned to face me his glare faded and I could see the concern and regret wash over his face as he clearly hadn't meant for it to come out.

"Kenz... "

He walked up to me but I looked at my brother instead as I could feel my tears slowly filling my eyes at the thought of Eric wanting to kill me.

I had always feared it but it was just one of those things that you expected but didn't really think someone was capable of and I hadn't expected to hear that.

"Seth please just go..." I finally spoke and as I said it he snapped out of the daze he was in.

"Come with me.. He clearly doesn't care about your feelings as he just used it to .."

"STOP!!" I screamed out as I ran my hands over my face wiping my eyes .

"McKenzie I didn't mean to.." I heard Brock's panicked voice as he stood at the steps of the porch but didn't dare to step forward.

I realized he was afraid .. afraid that I would actually leave him and go with my brother.

"Just stop both of you! You are the two people that mean so fucking much to me and you hate each other so fucking much... I don't get why as.."

"Sis you have to understand that.." Seth began but I didn't want to hear anymore.

"Stop telling me what to do ! I'm not a fucking child Seth I can make my own decisions.."

"Look where that has gotten you! I'm trying to prevent.."

I knew he was angry but this was the anger of his I hated where he'd bring up all my mistakes just to hurt me to make himself feel better for the hurt I caused him. But n the end it didn't work.. he always ended up hating himself for the words he let slip.

"Seth just.."

"Kenz just come with me please. You need to sort out your head you're not thinking clearly his got you here and... "

I saw Brock staring at me in the corner of my eye intently and I could never leave him.

"I don't want to go with you! I love him . I want to be with him. No matter what you are saying nothing is going to change that! I don't care that he brought that shit up.."

I did . I did fucking care but I had spent so much time taking other people's side when it came to Brock and this time I wasn't going to do that.

I wasn't going to doubt him anymore especially in front of my brother.

"I really don't care .. I just want you to leave .. I love you Seth you are my brother but I can't deal with this. I finally found the guy that I love more than life itself and his nothing like any of them despite what you think and I am so sick of defending my love for him to you. So its best if you just .. Leave.."

"You're choosing him over your own.."

"You're doing that because you have this hatred for him and you couldn't even see that he has been trying so hard since you got here because while you think everyone else is blind , you are... because just like most people. You see him and think he is this beast that couldn't care less about anyone. But he cares about me. I see the beast that would do anything for me.. "

I walked closer to my brother.

"That man loves me and its not fake , its not destroying me , its not painful .." I briefly thought of my fucked up past relationships and how they couldn't even compare with mine and Brock's.

" Its everything I want . Everything I never thought I would have after Liam and Eric but now I do. I have a man who can go from being a beast who destroys everyone who tries to bring harm to us .. To going to my fiance who is there to make me happy, make me smile.. Make me be me.."

He shook his head and looked down.

" And you're the only one in my life who doesn't get that and while it tears me a part to do this I can't Seth. You want to protect me because its what you have always done but you don't need to this time.. This time you are the one harming me.. Not Brock. So until you learn to respect my decision I .. I don't want to see you"

"What?" He looked up into my eyes.

"You heard me Seth.."

"You are seriously willing to cut your only fucking brother out of your life? The one who never left your side since you were fucking born. The one who would tell you stories at night so you would be distracted from mom and dads stupid arguing.. The one who was there for you since..."

I could feel my heart aching but it ached more when I heard his words about Brock.

"That's the thing Seth.. You aren't there for me anymore.. You have turned into them."

I slowly spoke and I saw the hurt in his eyes and I hated that I did it but I couldn't handle it any longer.

He shook his head, "this time I won't be waiting around for that phone call McKenzie. You want me out of your life. You want to choose him over your own flesh and blood then be my fucking guess cause I am done!" He walked away and got into his car.

I stood staring as he drove down the pathway from the house. I didn't understand why he hated Brock so much it killed me but Brock was my future and while I wished I wouldn't have had to do it, it just had to be done.

That's what I told myself , what I kept repeating in my head as I watched the person who had taken the role of a father when ours couldn't care less because he was too concerned with us being perfect driving off...

The hand on my shoulder broke me from my thoughts and I saw Brock's saddened face as he stared down at me.

"Kenz..."

I immediately wrapped my arms around him and buried my face in his chest as his arms wrapped tightly around me as I broke down.

"Are you sure I shouldn't make some soup for her so that when she wakes.."

"No mom she just had a headache .. No soup needed"

I could hear the annoyance in Brock's voice as I woke up in his arms.

" Okay dear" I heard the door close.

"I'm so fucking sorry its all my fault.." I heard him as he kissed into my hair.

I opened my eyes slowly and stared into his hooded eyes.

"You're awake..." I couldn't remember how I fell asleep all I recalled was being in his arms.

"Its not your fault.. " I whispered as I stared at him.

"About what I said..." I leaned up and kissed him gently and he held me tightly as if I were going to be gone if he didn't.

I broke the kiss, "its in the past.. He provoked you, you didn't mean to say it. I don't want to know anything further.. I just can't deal with the fact that.. " I shook my head.

"Please don't ever bring Eric or Liam up again please.." I begged and he nodded and kissed my forehead.

" McKenzie dear are you feeling better" I was a bit confused until I remembered Brock saying I had a headache.

"Yes I guess I was actually just tired from the flying." I shrugged as I took a seat at their small table in the kitchen which held just enough space for the four of us.

"Well you woke up just in time for dinner.I made some Mac 'n cheese" she winked and I laughed as Brock had probably told her to.

"My favourite.." I smiled slightly as I picked up Beast into my lap.

" I thought meat loaf was your favourite.."

"Well.."

"They're both her favourite.." I heard Brock's voice as he entered the kitchen and soon felt his lips against my cheek as he kissed me and then walked in front of me so he could take the seat closest to me.

I could feel his eyes on me as his mom continued speaking to me as she was busy checking the food in the oven.

I turned to him and he immediately looked away in his mothers direction.

I took his hand which was resting on the table into mine and kissed it . I knew he felt guilty about my brother but he shouldn't have.. it was my own doing...

His mom left the kitchen briefly to wake his father up who had been napping and I set Beast down so he could play with Rover as I stood up between Brock's legs still holding his hand.

"I love you.." He spoke first and I smiled and kissed him gently.

His free arm wrapped around me pulling me onto his right leg so I could sit on it as his lips lingered over mine.

"I'm sorry I never told you about my drinking pro.."

He sighed.

"I'm sure you have noticed I don't really keep alcohol in my house and honestly I don't really like bars... When I was younger I went through a extremely dark stage in my life I was depressed I hated where I was heading and I had some addictions . I mean yeah I enjoy it now and again but I won't have it every night and shit that's why I don't stock up.Its not something I like to dwell on but I figured it would be fair if I let you know at least something about my past. So you know why I would never hold that against you.. "

I wanted to respond but he continued.

"You were dealing with a lot Kenz.. its nothing . You're better now. We're both better so don't ever feel ashamed of the struggles of your life baby"

I nodded as he had a way of making sense of everything in my life.

"I thought you would hate me after and leave with him..."
He said after a bit.

I shook my head and leaned my forehead against his, "I love my Beast too much for that"

A small smile appeared on his face but before he could say anything , Beast was jumping onto my leg as he most likely thought I had called him.

"I hope you meant me" Brock narrowed his eyes at the little dog and I rolled my eyes as I picked him up.

"Guess you'll never know" I smiled and he gently bit my cheek.

"Guess I won't" He smirked and his blue eyes burned into mine.

A/N:

Well that was a long chapter!!

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