So this chapter I want to vent and talk about what has been going on so if you dont want to read any of this I get it just sint continue ok?..

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So were do I start hmmm.....

I guess I can start to talk about today.

So I hade two major test and I was drained and tired while also doing my job at selling yearbooks.

But my day was ok over all. (What do you expect from school :/)

Wen I get home from school from the bus I have to pick up my lil brother and sister from the babysitter next door.

I would have to take care of them until Ethier until 9:00pm or 6:00pm. Depends on wen my mom comes out of work.
I come out of school at 4:00pm by the way.

But the problem is my brother. Not the lil one. He has told me he hated me and told me im stupid and other things. We get into arguments that end in me felling bad even if It wasnt my faul.

But like most people might know im really noce and shy so I dont stand up for my self. He is younger than me so I cant really fight back.

Thing is he acts like nothing happends afterwards so im left fealling terrible sonce I belive its my faul. This is why I cant sleep.

I over think things a hole lot. More than I think most people should.

But it doesn't matter anymore.

Because im close to giving up.

Not in the ending my life way more like Im not trying to fix anything anymore.

If your still reading thank you for listening to my complaning.

I love you guys. Ya dont know how much ya mean to me since I think you guys are the only friends I have.

My school friends have told me they wouldn't care if I didn't come back to school. :/

Just thank you again. Sorry for whining .