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This chapter will contain kidnapping, blood, gore, death, suicidal tendencies, different types of assault and more. Please be careful reading this very triggering chapter.

Illiana POV

    I take a look at the faces around me. Rissa just smiles, already knowing the secret, while Rosalie just looks confused. Alice isn't bothered at all, Jasper looks concerned, Edward is smiling and Emmett starts laughing. "That's so cool!" Emmett booms out. Rosalie looks between Rissa and I with her brows furrowed "wait. Are you a witch too Clarissa?" Rissa's cheeks turn pink and she nods her head yes. Emmett pumps his fist in the air and hollers "hell yeah" causing us all to burst into giggles. Rissa's hides her face into my shoulder and I giggle.

     The others just watch her with soft smiles. I wrap my arms around her and look to the others. "Look, I know you all have questions but to answer them I have to tell you my story. It's not a good one and you might want to walk away from me after it but y'all need to know." I sigh, picking at my fingers. Rissa sits up now, fully aware of what I'm speaking about and grabs my hand so I can't pick at my fingers. "Let me get through my story and then you can ask questions ok? Just bare with me because my story isn't a great one." They all nod at me.

    I clear my throat and look down at my hands "When I was five I found out I could do magic. It started with nature, I could make flowers bloom but also wilt. My tantrums would cause the grass to die or a thunderstorm to come. Renée, the woman who birthed me, thought I was a monster. Even after my dad explained that I couldn't help it. You see his family comes from a long line of powerful witches that were closely aligned with the Rez pack." I pause as Rosalie scrunches her nose in distaste and let out a chuckle.

     "Yeah, me too Rose. Anyways, that's a whole different story that I will not be getting into anytime soon. Renée began to resent me. Isabella didn't get any magic so she treated her better than me, saying it was because she was special and not a freak like me." Their faces turned somber as I continued the story. My glazed-over eyes settle on the wall behind them, ignoring the stares. Rissa squeezes my hand in encouragement and I sigh.

   "My magic grew stronger as I got older. I could do basic magic but also wordless magic. I could control nature, the elements and the weather. My dad was so proud of me and helped me control my powers. He is actually the one who introduced me to Rissa, after finding her during a magic flare up. He helped her just like he does me" I state with a smile. Rissa nods her head with a grin "Charlie is the best man in the world." I nod my head in agreement with her then continue. "Renée eventually got tired of Forks and my father, and she wanted to leave. I was so happy when I saw their bags beside the door but unfortunately Renée decided that she wanted me too. I really tried to fight it but my father was so broken and I was only seven. What could I do?" My shoulders sag as memories flood my head.

  "So we moved and moved and moved. Renée could never stay in a city longer than a couple months; we'd usually flee after she got her heart broken by another trashy guy. Fortunately, We finally settled in Arizona when I turned 16 and I hated it. It was hot and always sunny. I wanted to move back in with my father so bad but Renée would never let me stay past summer. She claimed to Charlie that it was because the schools here were better but she really just wanted me miserable. So I spent summers with dad and tried to stay to myself in Arizona. But then I met him, my best friend Sammy. I met Sam when I was skateboarding down the road and we literally crashed into each other."

    I smile faintly at the memory, a small tear slipping out. I quickly wipe it away and continue my story, ignoring the looks I'm getting. "We both got up and I don't know, we just clicked. We stayed up all night skating and talking. After that we were attached by the hip. Sammy was my age and an outcast too. He was in foster care and people would make fun of him for being an orphan, Isabella included. So we stuck together, always having each others backs. He would help me escape my house, where Renée made me the maid and occasionally a punching bag. It was like we were meant to meet. He was my literal other half." I whisper out. The others frown at my words and Rissa lightly kisses my cheek.

    I slightly tense before continuing "anyways, we were young and naïve. We always snuck out to ride our skateboards all night. It was the only escape from our shitty homes. We would go to the local gas station and grab snacks then sneak in to the drive-in movie theater.We talked about everything and just lived. But one night we were out eating snacks in front of the gas station and this man approached us. He was huge and tatted, with a bald head. His eyes looked so empty, like they were devoid of any life and he just gave off bad vibes." A chill runs down my spine as I see his face in my mind, forever engraved like a tattoo.

     "Sammy being Sammy said hi but kinda just ignored him. The man didn't say anything but just kept staring at me. I obviously got uncomfortable and Sammy yelled at him to fuck off. It seemed to work as the guy finally left but not without looking at me one more time. He had such a cruel smirk on his face and honestly, I should have know something was wrong then." My hands start to shake with the memories and guilt of that night. "We figured it was some homeless guy or something. Gods. We were so fucking wrong. It was about 3 a.m. when we decided to ride a bit more before heading home to watch movies. Sammy usually stayed with me anyways so it wasn't a big deal that he was staying over."

   My chest begins to tighten so I inhale and exhale slowly, building the courage to finish the story. Rissa gently rubs soothing circles on my back as tears threaten to fall down my face. "We were having so much fun, just goofing off. But all of the sudden we see car lights heading our way. We grabbed our boards and tried to move to the sidewalk but the car followed slowly beside us. Sammy grabbed my hand and we started sprinting away. But before we got too far, I was snatched backwards."

   My voice cracks and I have to physically hold my hands to get them to stop shaking. "Sammy stopped and went to fight the man. Which I quickly found out was the same man from earlier, but poor Sammy was just so small. He was really tall but very skinny so he had no chance. The burly man knocked him out in one hit and I was trying to get my powers to work but they just wouldn't. I tried to scream and get away but he knocked me against a wall and I was out. The next thing I know, I'm in a dark room..."

    My body tenses as it relives the feelings of that night and I try to block everything out just long enough to finish the story. "My head was throbbing and my body just hurt. I whisper yelled Sammy's name, trying to find him or at least an exit. But it was just so fucking dark. And I got up, trying to find a light but accidentally fell over something big. That's when I saw a faint light and heard footsteps. I tried to back up but the lights flashed on before I could run. My eyes took a long time to adjust so by the time I could see, that man was almost in front of me. I scrambled around and tried to find anything. My powers were still blocked and I was in a basement of sorts. The man grabbed me by my throat and lifted me up. He said some um.. vulgar things."

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This will have SA, torture, blood, death, and more, please take caution reading!

    I shudder at the memories but remember to keep my mental walls up so Edward doesn't see. "He said some rather vulgar things and then ripped my shirt off. He slammed me to the ground and started taking the rest of my clothes off. I- I tried to fight but hit something to my left. That's when I saw Sammy." My chest tightens and I almost choke on my words. A deep ache fills the hole where my heart is and the words taste bitter on my tongue. "He's bruised and beaten. But the thing I noticed most was his neck. It was slit ear to ear and there was dried blood all around him. He wasn't breathing and his eyes were open. Gods, his eyes" I choke out in a whisper, tears streaming down my face.

    "His once pretty green eyes were now a cold grey and I let out a scream." The memory plays out vividly in my head. My whole body had been shaking and the scream didn't even sound like me. It was as if someone else was screaming in front of me. "The man started strangling me, yelling at me to shut up." I blink back my tears as I remember everything. The feel of his hands wrapped around my throat, the cold fingers of Sammy, and the blood that pooled around us from my dead friends body.

  "So I layed there. Hoping it would be over soon. Hoping I would die quickly. I knew there was no way I could get away and I was okay with it. I would be with Sammy soon. I just stared into Sammy's eyes the whole time, waiting for it to be over. His devoid grey eyes pierced into my very soul, breaking what was left of my fight. In my mind I begged myself to fight, to live, to do anything but I was frozen. It felt as if I was looking down on myself, watching everything happen and I wanted to die. I wanted it to be over. I wanted to finally be at peace... so I gave up and let him do what he wanted, praying he would kill me quickly." I huff out a breath , not meeting anyones eyes.

   I use the thin hospital gown to dry the tears that run down my face and continue. "The man finished his assault and picked up his knife. I guess to kill me? I don't know. I just remember looking at Sammy and something snapping inside me. I felt like hot lava was boiling through my veins and fire was consuming my chest. But I wasn't angry for me. No I was angry that he took my Sammy. That he stole such a beautiful, caring soul. I didn't care what he did to me but my poor Sammy..." I shudder and my breathing picks up again.

   "I glared over to the man and he started screaming in pain. I wasn't sure what was happening but when he was down, I grabbed the knife. I- Something took control of me and I.. well I stabbed him over and over again. Every time I stabbed him, I felt of piece of me crumble away. I was just so fucking angry and empty. I don't think I would have stopped if it wasn't for the cops. Evidently someone had heard either my screams or his and the door to the basement burst open. Cops swarmed in and I dropped the knife. I was naked and covered in blood with tears streaming down my face. I don't remember much after other than clinging to Sammy's cold body and the horror.. or pity on the cops faces. I don't really know which one."

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   "I was never in trouble but was held at the hospital for a while for my ptsd. At least until my father showed up. Isabella and Renée never did turn up. Not that I expected them to. After that I was known as the crazy girl. Everyone thought I killed Sammy and the man because Isabella started some nasty rumors. Plus the case was never public since I was a minor. So rumors swirled and I was more than just an outcast. I was a pariah." I sigh and recall all the times Isabella made my life a living hell, whether at school or home.

"People wouldn't just bully me, they'd send death threats, slam me into lockers, and even tried to run me off the road a couple do times. My dad found out how miserable I was and decided to move me here. Not that I minded but Isabella wasn't happy that dad only wanted me. So she jumped in and told Renée that we were both leaving. And that's how I got here. Well at least the condensed version." I feel tears streaming down my face as I finish my story. I look up to see the Cullens looking either sad or angry. Rossa has tears of her own and holds me close.

  "That explains so much. I'm so sorry Lils. If he wasn't already dead, I'd rip him to shreds!" Edward growls out. "So you don't think I'm a monster?" I whisper out. Everyone spoke up with varying "No's." Jasper looks at me with understanding eyes and speaks up "I can control emotions, Alice can see the future, and Edward can read minds. So you're not the only one with special powers Lils. We are vampires, beings meant to feed on humans. We are monsters but you, you and Rissa are so special. You may think you're evil but you aren't."

   I shake my head at him. "You have no idea what hides inside me." Before he could respond though, dad and Isabella walk in. What is this bitch doing here? Edward laughs and tries to cover it up, hearing my thoughts now that I'm projecting them. I smile at him and he grabs my hand that holds Rissa's, sending sparks up my arm. Dad says hi and gives me a bag. "Here you go honey. There's food and clothes in there. You will be staying another night, just to be safe. So there's another change of clothes in there and your shower stuff. I also put a lock up on your door and set the code. You know what numbers I picked but you can change it any time. Isabella are you staying here? I have to finish up some work. You can either come with me now or stay and I'll pick you up on my way home."

Isabella rolls her eyes "I'll stay here Ch- dad." I snark my nose at her and Rissa shakes her head. Dad nods at her then leans over the bed to kiss my cheek. He ruffles Rissa's hair before kissing it with a smirk "hey pip squeak, doing alright? I see your taking care of our girl but don't forget to get some rest yourself okay?" She just kids her head and hugs him tightly "thanks Charlie." He squeezes my hand before he makes his way for he door "I love you both. See you in the morning!" I smile and yell "Love you too dad!" He whispers something into Isabella's ear that makes her roll her eyes before he gives one last wave and leaves.

Isabella looks around at the Cullen siblings, Rissa, and then back to me. She then notices my hand is linked with Edwards and Rissa's. Her face turns red. "Why are you both holding his hand?!" She shrieks. I snort at her while Rissa just shakes her head. "Well Isabella, when a man and woman love each other very muc-" she stomps her foot and shrieks "oh fuck you! You know what I meant. Why would anybody, let alone the Cullens, want anything to do with you? You're psychotic! And you Clarissa, you're just some unwanted trash left on the doorstep of a good family!"

A few growls are let out and Isabella furrows her eyebrows. Rage bubbles in my chest and I practically have steam coming from my ears. "I'm not crazy you dumb bitch and I have plenty of people who like being around me. Ones I don't have to sleep with to get them to like me" I bite back. "And don't fucking talk about my girlfriend like that. I know you can't comprehend basic English but understand these words. The next time you so much as look at Clarissa wrong, I'll snap your fucking neck. Got it?" She rolls her eyes "oh yeah? Like who? The only person that ever liked you was Sam-" rage fills my chest and I scream "DON'T YOU EVER FUCKING SAY HIS NAME!" My hair starts floating and and thunder crackles outside.

  "You are a monster. No wonder mother never loved you!" She screams. I scoff and almost let out a laugh at her, if it all wasn't so damn tragic. "Are you kidding me? Renée never loved me, her own daughter. If anything she's the monster!" Isabella's face turns crimson and she barks out "Don't you dare speak bad about my mother! You deserved everything she put you through and everything he did to you!"

   Everyone freezes, waiting for my reaction. Isabella's chest still rises and falls quickly, as she catches her breath. I try to calm the molten hot rage that burns through my body but I already feel my eyes begin to change. My anger takes ahold of me and I get out of bed, ripping all the wires off of me without flinching. Walking towards Isabella, every step I take makes the ground crack, lighting strikes outside of the window, and my hands swirl with blue power. "I was a child Isabella! I was forced to be an adult! I never had a choice and I was treated like dirt! My own mother hates me! Do you know how it feels to be unwanted? Do you know how it feels to want to die?" Isabella is cowering down in the corner from me with tears in her eyes.

   I pause and raise a brow at her but continue.  "You have no idea how many times I've pulled myself out of dark places! Do you know what that does to a child?! I don't fucking need you. And I sure as hell don't need Renée. Gods Isabella! Are you that shitty of a person?! Do you not care about the pain I went through?" She shakes her head no pitifully but makes no move to leave or respond. I scoff at her, for someone that has so much malice in them, she's sure easy to break.

   "Do you know how it feels to have a heart that aches with emptiness? A heart that once burned with love and passion that's now cold and iced over. Do you know how it feels to be absolutely numb? Do you know how it feels to want to die every fucking day?! I have to fucking fight to stay alive. Not for myself but for dad and Rissa." Isabella looks guilty and hurt, like she finally heard what I was saying. I notice Rosalie out of the corner of my eye, shaking with tears in her eyes. "Until you can understand how I feel, leave me alone. You're not worth my energy anymore."

   Isabella looks to me with tears in her eyes and runs out the door. Fucking crybaby. I swivel around and look at the remaining people in my room. "Uh, sorry about that guys.." Everyone has different emotions in their faces. Emmett looks proud, Rosalie looks heartbroken, Alice looks like she understands, Jasper is grimacing, Edward looks pissed, and Rissa just sits on the bed with tears in her eyes. I quickly grab her hand and pull her into a hug. "You ok?" I whisper. She nods her head yes and mumbles "just can't believe she said all those mean things." I hum in agreement, letting her go then turning back towards the others. "Uh guys? Are y'all okay? I mean I figured the story would freak you out more than that." I hop back into bed and grab my soup that dad brought.

  Rissa climbs in bed beside me, stealing a second spoon and eating with me. I tear off a piece of bread and hand it to her, which she promptly dips into the soup. Edward speaks up first interrupting the awkward pause "Are you both ok? I mean that was kind of.. intense." I nod yes along with Rissa. "Yeah, I mean I've never really blew up at her before but I think it was coming. I'm not getting my hopes up but maybe she will be nicer to me." I shrug and continue eating my soup as if nothing just happened.

  "I would like to circle around to something really quick?" Edward asks. I just nod yes and take another bite of soup. "You said you love me." I snort out my soup. "Ow! Fucking damn it!" Edward and the others are silently laughing at me. "Fuck you giraffe! You know what I meant! Ugh. You made me spill my precious soup!" I whine out while poking out my bottom lip. Rissa just giggles beside me, cleaning up my mess. "I'm very sorry Illiana, how about I make it up to you this weekend when we go shopping?" I think about it for a minute. "If you buy me new Doc Martens I'll consider forgiving you" I say with a devious smile. The others chuckle at us.

   Edward nods his head yes "deal. What about you Clarissa?" She shakes her head no but I whisper "anything Crystal related!" He smirks as Rissa glares at me. I kiss her cheek and she stops for a second, before her face turns red and the others chuckle. Not even five minutes later my phone rings. I look down to see Renée's number and hit ignore. I was wrong. Isabella is still a little bitch. Really? Calling Renée? I huff out as my phone rings again, this time showing that dad was calling.

  I hold up a finger to my lips and hit answer, then turn it on speakerphone. "Hey dad, what's up?" I ask. "Hey sweetheart, did you happen to threaten your sister with magic?" I grumble profanities too low for dad to hear but the others in the room get a kick out of it. "No dad. She said some pretty revolting things to me. I don't want to snitch but basically she told me I deserved what that man did to me and then tried to bring up Sammy. Honestly, she's lucky I didn't just poof her into the middle of the ocean." I huff out. I hear dad chuckle but cover it up with a cough. "Oh Illiana, baby I'm sorry." He pauses for a second then speak back up. "I can ask Renée to take her back if you want? I really want you to be comfortable here and to.. well, heal."

   My eyes well a bit but I blink the tears back. "Thank you dad, really. You've done so much to help me and sometimes I don't feel like I thank you enough. I can deal with Isabella because I know you want her here too. I love you dad." I say, ignoring the bad feeling in my gut. "Damn it Lils, you didn't have to make me cry. I love you too and I'll be up there first thing in the morning to get you and Rissa. We three can have a dad and daughter day. Maybe have a Harry Potter movie marathon tomorrow and go shopping for more witchy supplies, how does that sound?" Dad asks.

"That sounds perfect dad. Thank you! I'm going to get off now, I have some visitors here." I reply. "The Cullens right? You know I think that Edward boy likes you and Rissa. He was pretty nervous when you came in. He and the rest of his siblings never left after your panic attack. You know prom is coming up, you could totally ask him. I know Rissa thinks he's handsome or at least that's what she told me" I cut dad off quickly "DAD! That's enough geez. I didn't plan on going to prom since I promised Sammy we'd go together every year. It just doesn't feel right.. Thanks for trying though, I might just have to test your theory on Edward liking us. Though I would need to talk with Rissa first." Dad laughs  and barks out bye. "Bye dad."

  I look up and see the Cullens staring at Rissa and I. "So how the fuck does this relationship work?"

Authors note: whew. This was a tough one to get through. I wrote this during a hard time in my life and it helped me move on. Now coming back to it, all those memories get stored up and I cant help but feel so thankful for all my friends, family, and readers. Thank you all for the continued support.

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