Song: Evanescence - Haunted

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"Is Hazel going to be okay?" A familiar soft voice entered my hearing as I gained consciousness again. Blurry vision clearing to see the white of a ceiling.

Where am I?
Why am I not at school?
Did I have another attack again?
Damn it.

"Miss Lennox will be fine, her heart rate has gone back to normal and so has her breathing." The nurse seemed to pause during her talk. The sounds of paper being moved caught my hearing, must be my medical notes.

I can't believe my stupid panic attacks have landed me in hospital. How on earth?

"The panic Attack was pretty severe, I suggest that the best possible treatment is to seek some counselling for her PTSD, they may prescribe some medication to help with said attacks."

How the hell can I talk to somebody about giant alien robots?

I sighed to myself and finally allowed myself to look around the dully lighted room. I sat up slowly while looking around my bland surroundings. I can't believe this is my luck.

First I get stabbed by an alien robot, then Nathan ends up dead and now I am in the hospital for my mental issues. Perfect. Just...Perfect.

Looking to my left to where I heard the conversation, this is where I spot a worried Aneska talking to the nurse that was explaining the situation outside of the room. Their conversation trailed off as their attention went to me when they noticed I was awake.

"Excuse me." Aneska rushed into the room I was in in seconds after excusibg herself from the Nurse politely.

Quickly closing the room door behind her for privact, the raven haired teenager collected herself for a few long seconds. Analysing the situation. "You scared the shit out of me Hazel!" Aneska finally spoke up with relief in her voice.

"Scared me too." I can't even remember how I got here. I held my head as an headache hit me like a brick, my body was starting to acknowledge the damage done to it.

"You had a panic attack" Aneska started to explain to me, but I halted the explanation. "I know...I know what happened. Don't worry."

A few seconds passed again. Aneska slowly moved to my bedside to take a seat next to me. "You need to stop over thinking stuff dude, it's not going to help you" Aneska muttered out softly, just as affected as I was by the situation. Guilt curled around my body and I winced at the very memory of Aneska panicking.

"How..." I trailed off my sentence while I rubbed my head in thought. "...How did I get here?"

"We had to call an Ambulance, William is on his way from work to help sign you out" Aneska told me the simplest way possible. "He won't be able to stay long though. Things have been crazy since..."

Silence filled the room when Aneskas voice trailed off, an uncomfortable silence. I shifted awkwardly in the hospital bed and placed my face into my slightly shakey hands.

God, now I defiantly don't want to go back to school. Everyone is going to look at me like I'm some freak.

"I thought you hated me" I whispered out instead after finally gaining the courage to do so. My brown eyes casting downwards in shame and guilt.

Aneska stared at me, before sighing in defeat. "No I don't hate you...I was just trying to get my head around things..." The young female before me fiddled with her hands. "I didn't- I don't know how to handle Nathan's death." She admitted with a frown, tears threatening to fall.

I gulped at this, finally realising through all my self loathing and pain, that Aneska...William, everyone, was feeling the same way. That hurt to realise how selfish I was, I am.

My amber eyes just as sad, I looked up at her. "We are feeling the same then."

No matter how much I try to run from my problems, I become tired, and I find myself hiding.

"You're a strong person, you know that right?" Aneska said towards me, a light smile on her lips. "Even with all your...issues. You still continue on."

I looked at her at this. Tears falling off my eyelashes and onto the bedsheets that convered my lap. "Then why don't I feel like it?"

Aneska went to reply for the sound of yelling to be heard. She jolted from her seat while I moved closer to the edge of where I sat. Wondering if we would need to run, was it a Decepticon?

"Let me pass! God damn it!" I could finally make out Williams voice through the yelling down the hospital corridors, footsteps pounding against the flooring.

I jumped slightly when the room door swung open harshly, revealing a worried William. It was obvious he had rushed to get here, limited time to visit.

"Dad" I said with slight astonishment with a raised eyebrow. William had the tendancy to be just as much as a worrywart as me.

"Shit I'm sorry I was late sweetie, Sarah visited with Ratchet, but they had to leave." William commented towards me, walking over to me breathlessly. "It's been hectic."

I blinked at this, unable to recall any visitors other than Aneska. "How long have I been here?" I asked slowly, looking between the sheepish Aneska and a confused William.

"Nearly a whole day?..." Aneska drawled out slowly, my jaw slacked at this. What on earth?

"You were recovering from the panic attack, it's normal" William informed me while raising his hands in gesture to relax. "You were clearly exhausted too. Doesn't surprise me with all the late nights you have been having"

I looked at William with a soft gaze, especially when I noted he was still in uniform and everything. It really flattered me that he cared enough to stop his job instantly and get to me ASAP. Even after all the drama.

I heard a grunt in the room that interrupted my thoughts. I shifted slightly to look behind William, this is when I spot Ironhide leaning in the Doorway, his blue eyes looking at me with a hard gaze.

"Hey Hide'" It was my turn to act sheepish, as I greeted Ironhide quietly. The Weapon Specialist simply nodded back, no words to say, but he seemed to be saying it all in his eyes anyways.

'I am glad you are okay'
Me too.

William growled out in what seemed to be frustration. I jumped slightly in surprise, not expecting the growl from him. It was so unlike William. The Captai was staring at- more like glaring at his phone.

"I need to go, Galloway decided to move forward the meeting" William muttered outloud, before looking at Ironhide. "Ironhide you can stay here if you like, Jazz is still outside the hospital."

Ironhide nodded. Seeming happy with that idea as his body relaxed from its stiffness. "ok." Was all Ironhide replied with.

Aneska semeed to blink very slowly, processing what William had said while the male exited the room. Suddenly she jumped to her feet, a gasp leaving her. "Tell Jazz I said sorry!"

William looked at her confused at this. Me and Ironhide soon joined the confused stare, before Ironhide snorted, understanding what was happening.

Damn comlinks they have. I am always last to catch up on the gossip.

"Why?..." William drawled out confused. Obviously his comlink in his ear was turned off.

"I left him in the rain!" Aneska spat out in horror, knowing the mech would go on about this one incident forever now.

William barked out a startled laugh at this. Stressed brown eyes going to amusement, knowing Jazz hated getting wet from the rain. "Okay, okay." William snickered, as he quickly walked out of the Hospital.

Aneska turned to me, sighing. Oh boy, here comes more bad news I bet. "You have homework."

I groaned at this in annoyance, falling backwards into the pillows- Squeaking I hit my head onto the matress. "Where's all the pillows?"

Aneska snorted at me, making me pull a face at her in retaliation."I'll go find a nurse to give you a better pillow" Aneska waved me off while brushing past Ironhide and walking down the hall.

A few long seconds passed. I shifted awkwardly once again from the mechs stare. "Can you...sit? You're making me angsty."

Ironhide rolled his eyes at this, but soon he sat down on the chair next to my bedside. I could now see his Blue eyes properly, where they showed slight worry.

I smiled lightly at him, nudging him with my hand playfully. "It's good to see you after a week."

"Hm. This is not how I thought I'd see you again though." Ironhide replied, he swiftly returned the nudge with his own hand. Eyes narrowed.

"Easy softy" I teased, rubbing my hand when his knuckle smacked into it. Ironhide always forgets his strength. "I am fragile."

Ironhide scoffed. "Clearly." Before he got offended at what I had said to him. "We have been through this, I am not soft." A defensive look exploded in his eyes.

Giggling in amusement. I grabbed his hand to intwine my fingers with his. Needing to know that he was truly here. "I'm sorry for causing you stress."

Ironhide stiffened slightly at the contact, flexing his fingers at such action, before relaxing and gripping my hand softly. "It is okay, but the nurse mentioned counselling...maybe try that out?"

I closed my eyes at this, before opening them. They shimmered from the tears that I held back. "How can I tell them that aliens killed my family Ironhide?" I spoke out with a raised eyebrow. Wanting answers, wanting to know if he could somehow fix this, because I knew I was unable to.

"I..." Ironhide trailed off and at that moment, I could tell we both silently agreed that talking to a human counsellor would not help my situation.

"Ironhide... You have no idea how much it means to me for you to be here." I whispered out, feeling like my voice was failing me. Raw emotion was in my words, emotion such as care...happiness...love.

Ironhide made me feel butterflies in my stomach, made my head pound with joy and made my body sing with happiness. I hadn't felt such emotions since 3rd grade when I had a crush on a boy called Zach.

Ironhide looked at me when I whispered, a light smile formed on his lips from what I said. A smile that easily suited his holoforms features, a smile I wish to see a lot often.

Leaning forward almost out of instinct, I found our foreheads now leaning against each other. He must have moved as well. The tension felt thick and I could feel my toes curl in anticipation. I could easily feel his breath against my face and that made shivers crawl down my spine. My pale cheeks blushed madly at the very idea of being so close...

I went to pull away.

It wasn't right. Ratchet had lectured me on this. I shouldn't feel like this, I shouldn't be doing this- I was stopped when the back of my head was grabbed gently by his hands. A small yelp escaped me as our lips pressed against each other-

Click.

We quickly pulled away at that noise, a bright light flashed in my eyes and I quickly rubbed them in pain, my back landing against the wall from jerking back so fast.

I was distracted instantly when I felt cold air hit my legs. I looked down to notice my bed sheets had fallen off during the scramble, exposing my bare legs. I never realised I was changed into a hospital gown until now.

It was a weird sight, I always wore jeans or trackies. I stilled in surprise when Ironhides optics automatically looked down at this, his own cheeks flushing a bright blue.

"Don't be a Pervert!" I snapped out at the mech and went to kick at the mech who quickly ducked from range and turned to see where the flash came from.

Ironhides eyes were wide, like mine. We both looked at the doorway finally after realising there was still a light pointed at us. This is where we spotted Aneska, standing there, a pillow forgotten about on the floor.

The raven haired girl had her phone out, flash on, a bright cheeky smile on her face. She was recording.

"ANESKA!"

"What?~"