I tried to keep it a secret. Sabi ko kay Mommy, I would talk to that girl muna before she called my parents. She agreed naman and told me to find her as soon as possible. However, that was my damn problem before we took our Christmas break.

Everyone was excited about our rest days, yet I couldn't enjoy it kasi aside sa ang daming projects sa school, hindi ko na ulit nakita yung girl for the past months after I talked to Mommy, at wala rin akong ibang makausap kasi hindi puwedeng malaman ng barkada.

Ayokong magpa-assist kay Daddy to look for her, or even ask his secretaries to find her kasi magtatanong silang lahat as to why I was looking for this girl.

It's been freaking months, and I couldn't find her. Every day, I was thinking, malaki na kaya ang baby namin kaya hindi na siya nagpapakita? Was she living somewhere out of town? I came to the point where I didn't spend any of my allowance kasi I was looking for a house na puwede naming tirhan. Checking all those townhouses worth two million pesos was okay for me, yet my savings were far from that. My mom gave me five thousand for a day, and my dad gave me another ten. They knew I was so magastos with myself, but those were the days na I was keeping all my savings for that girl I thought I had a child with.

Rico was buying my food kasi I told him marami naman silang food sa company nila. He never asked why akong nanghihingi ng food sa kanya even if my fam was way richer than his'. Leo noticed all my actions and asked din if naglayas ako or something since hindi nga ako lumalapit sa parents ko kasi I was afraid na baka may malaman sila. Will and Clark were the guys na parasite din naman kay Early Bird, so tatlo na kaming mga pinakakain niya.

Christmas break started after the mid-terms. As much as I wanted to spend money to buy gifts, I couldn't kasi I have to save two fucking million for the fucking house (na never ko namang nabili). I only have 1.3 million pesos in my savings. The cash on hand was inside my closet, kept inside a secured attaché case. The rest was in my bank account. I couldn't keep everything in my bank kasi malalaman agad ni Mama na hindi ako gumagastos. I didn't want them to ask me kung bakit ako nag-iipon ng milyones sa bangko ko. And I was far from two million pesos pa for a small house.

One Saturday night, when everyone was busy enjoying their beginning break, I saw her ulit pero along Vito Cruz naman. I visited one of my groupmates for January's presentation para mag-send sana personally ng flash drive with my part. I couldn't ask someone to do it for me kasi nga wala akong maibabayad for the service since I was saving my money nga. It just happen na I saw her walking sa road along Vito Cruz kaya ko siya sinundan. I didn't know where she was going, then she entered a pathwalk na parang may sounds sa loob yet parang walang nangyayari sa labas na something weird.

I followed her and I stopped for a second after learning na may party pala sa looban. Walang guards, parang secret hangout place, and everyone were welcome as long as they knew what was happening inside it. The sounds were booming, everyone was dancing, and the smell of the place was indefinable.

That was the first time na nakasama ako sa isang night club without knowing that it was a goddamn nightclub. Almost everyone was a student kasi so I didn't suspect din naman.

Someone gave me a plastic cup with a drink in it. It was golden and frothy. I smelled it and cringed. It smelled so strong and parang nakakahiwa ng sinus. I tried tasting it and almost threw up. It tasted so bad, that I had goosebumps all over my body. Sobrang bitter ng taste and I couldn't bear drinking the rest of the cup. Alcohol is bad . . . and I was a good boy way back then.

I placed the cup above a small table na kadikit ng wall, and before I could step ulit, someone handed me another cup, but it was smaller than the one I had taken earlier. I thought baka naman, and I was right. It smelled tangy, parang lemon na mabango. I sipped a little and was shocked that it tasted better than the other one so I drank all of it and placed the cup above the other table I saw.

Everyone was dancing. Some girls danced around me. I tried to dance din naman kasi baka paalisin ako if hindi. But it was awkward.

An hour had passed and I was sweating like hell. I went inside this small cubicle to fix myself kasi sobrang pawis ko na, and there . . . I saw her again.

I didn't know na may tao pala sa loob. It was a single stall, no room for males or females, isa lang ang restroom for everyone. I already locked the door for my privacy, yet there wasn't any privacy inside that place.

"Sorry!" I shouted, eyes wide as I stared at her.

The light inside the stall was dim. Yellow bulb na sobrang dilim din naman for a single light source. She was hugging the sink.

"A-Are you okay?"

Lumapit ako sa kanya. I held all of her hair kasi nakabagsak hanggang sink.

"Nahihilo ako. Ang sakit ng tiyan ko."

I patted her back while holding her hair. I waited for her to tell me if she was feeling fine. Naupo ako sa nakasarang toilet bowl habang naghihintay. She tried to throw up pero wala naman siyang nalalabas. After a few minutes of doing that, he gargled with the water na galing sink and took a deep breath.

"Are you feeling well na ba?" I asked her then she looked at me with her droopy eyes.

I was shocked when she sat on my lap (again), facing me, and grinned. "Dami kong nainom."

It felt like I'd seen this before and I didn't like what happened after. Or I did.

She put her arms around my shoulder and I almost closed my eyes when her forehead landed on mine. I was sweating because of the place's heat, and I was there to freshen up, pero lalo lang niyang dinagdagan.

Her lips were brushing on mine and I could smell her breath—cherry because of her lip cosmetic, I guess, and a little of what I had taken earlier doon sa ibang cup na ayokong inumin.

I thought, will she kiss me again like she did last time? Are we going to do it again? Am I ready this time around?

She was so close to me, literally. My heart was beating so loudly, I didn't know why.

"Miss," I whispered, enough for her to hear me and not to fully touch her lips with mine.

"Hmm."

"Are you okay?"

"Why?"

I swallowed hard because her lips were brushing my lips, and it was hard to maintain good composure since she was sitting on my la,p and my pants were getting tighter again.

"A-Are you going to kiss me ba?" I awkwardly asked.

"Nah. Bakit?" I felt her chuckle.

"You're so lapit kasi," I said, keeping my eye on her lips, and I was near to closing my eyes because of that. "We can talk properly naman."

"Gusto kong kausapin ka nang ganito, may angal ka ba?"

I swallowed hard again. She warned me! She fucking warned me! And I was a huge coward at that time.

She moved closer, and the next thing I knew, she kissed me gently, and that brought all my senses down and brought them back with higher intensity.

That exact moment, sabi ko sa sarili ko, wala na akong pakialam sa Earth. I didn't know when this would happen again, so fuck life, I would taste this moment. Again.

That was my second kiss. And she was drunk again. But I didn't want to spoil my enjoyment kasi after all those stress na gawa niya, I ended up missing her kisses more.

How can you miss someone you almost forgot?

I missed that tongue having its battle inside my mouth. I missed those moans that turned me on. My hands traveled inside her flowy dress and touched her sweaty body.

She opened my pants again, and there we were again. And this time, my mind and my body were searching for her even more.

I could be with any girl beside me, but she definitely owned a huge part of myself that I once protected from everyone.

We were exchanging moans and alcohol-smelling breaths. A few humps later, I held her waist, and that woke me up as she enjoyed riding me.

"You're not pregnant!" I exclaimed.

"Oh, fuck, I'm tired . . ."

I should be asking her kung nasaan na ang baby namin, but she just continued humping and moaning and kissing me until I told her I was about to come. I almost pushed her far away from me and went to the corner to hide as I released all my lust juice on the floor.

Her waist was slim. It was so slim, and I didn't think a human could fit from there.

I was panting paglapit ko ulit sa kanya. She looked so lost after fixing herself.

"Oh my God, that was so good," she moaned as she slapped her face to wake herself up. "Sorry." She put her palms in front of her to stop me from going near. She closed her eyes and tried to collect herself, too. "Shit. Broken pala yung toilet, I forgot to tell you. Hindi available 'tong stall."

"Uh, o-okay. A-Are you okay na?"

"Si Calvin . . ."

And that was a mini heart attack for me. He mentioned the name of a fucking guy! And I was no Calvin!

"Hahanapin ako n'on." Lumapit siya sa door para sana hawakan ang knob pero hindi niya naabot, and I stepped to catch her from falling.

"Let me! You're not okay pa, e."

I was praying habang naglalakad kami na sana hindi niya boyfriend ang Calvin na 'yon because I would absolutely find myself in deep trouble if I was fucking someone's girl twice.

Palabas na kami when a hand pushed me on my chest. I met his glares at mukhang galit na galit siya. He was as tall as I am, but he looked more dangerous to have a fistfight with.

"Hey, saan mo dadalhin si Melanie?"

Melanie.

So that was her name. At last.

"I'm . . . a friend," awkward kong sagot sa kanya.

"Hindi kita kilala, a."

This Melanie girl was still looking at this guy in front of us, parang chine-check if tama ba siya ng nakikita.

"Hoy, lasinggera, akala ko ba, dadaan ka lang?" He was about to get Melanie from me pero pinigilan ko ang kamay niya.

"Who are you?" I asked.

"Pakialam mo?"

"She's drunk," I sternly said.

"I know! May mata ako, gago ka ba?"

"I don't know kung safe siya sa 'yo. Why are you taking her?"

He pointed at Melanie's face. "Kinakapatid ko 'yan. Ang sabi ko, dadaan lang kami rito. Kanina ko pa 'yan hinahanap!"

He then suddenly grabbed Melanie and hindi na ako nag-object pa.

"What's your name na lang? Just to make sure na safe siyang makakauwi."

His eyes looked at me from head to toe before meeting my eyes again.

"Sino ka ba?" tanong niya.

"Patrick Lauchengco." I even took my ID from my back pocket to show him that I wasn't lying.

He smirked at my ID and then at my face, as if I made something funny for him to laugh at. Cute naman ako sa ID ko a.

"Nagpupunta ka ng club, nagdadala ka pa ng ID. Iba ka rin, a."

"What's your name?" I asked again na lang. "Just in case she goes missing, I may look for you."

"Hahaha! Iba rin utak mo, ha? Calvin Dy!" He even said where in school he was studying.

He was the Calvin she was talking about. And he said, kinakapatid daw niya si Melanie. And that means he wasn't the boyfriend of this girl. I could breathe properly now.

"Kapag naging missing 'tong babaeng 'to, siguradong eto rin ang may kasalanan, hindi ako!"

He was shaking his head habang papalabas sila ni Melanie sa hidden club na 'yon. I followed them pa rin naman hanggang sa parking lot na nasa gilid na ng main road paglabas namin sa pathwalk.

I memorized the plate number of the maroon SUV na sinakyan nila because I wasn't sure if safe ba si Melanie sa Calvin Dy na 'yon. But I was lucky I already knew her name na. Apart from that, hindi rin siya pregnant. Wala pa kaming baby! And what was luckier than that? I found a closer connection to go near her now, thanks to that Calvin guy.

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