"What were you and you're family doing that night?"

"We were already in bed, I got up to use the bathroom and that's when I saw the man and my parents."

"Do you remember what you saw?"

I nod, "I saw my dad holding a gun...and the other man too."

"You mean the person who broke into your house that night?"

"Yes...he shot my mom first and then.." I sobbed "my dad shot him and I screamed."

"Did they say anything before that?"

"My dad was saying he didn't have to do this..he couldn't finish his sentence...that's when he shot my mom."

"What happened after the man shot you're mother and you're dad shot the man?"

"My dad was shaking and dropped the gun. He hold my mom close to him crying, telling me to go grab the phone and call 911. My brother came out of his room looking scared and he fainted when he saw our mom bleeding on the floor and the other man too."

"That'll be all." She said talking to me and another lady who was with her interrogating me.

As I walked out of the room, I felt the whole floor moving, making my delicate stomach ache. Making the scene pitch black.

I woke up with the sensation of my mouth very watery and it tasted bittersweet, before I could run to the bathroom, I throw up on the floor. I hold my hair up with one hand and the other my stomach as I gag. I hear footsteps and my door is swung open.

"Devina" Kade rushes out to me "Are you okay?? What happened?!"

"Just a bad dream..nothing serious."

"You don't need to lie to me Devina Nesryn Khione, after all I am you're brother. I get those "dreams" too. You always vomit whenever you remember mom's death"

He looks down and sighs, "You haven't gone to see you're therapist have you?"

"Have you?" I returned the question, he kept quiet.

"I'll go get some rags, go wash up. I'll clean this mess." Was all he said and I only nodded. "I'll make you a tea once you're out of the shower."

I start showering, closing my eyes to relax but when I closed my eyes, all I saw was my mother bleeding and my father crying, covered with blood...
I shake my head and open my eyes, a shadow of sadness took over, my chest ached. Feeling my throat tighten, I start to cry. Falling to my knees I cry without making to much noise, I rock myself back and forth. I feel so alone and empty inside...sometimes I wish I was never born...why must I carry all this burden? Why must I raise my sister? Look after my older brother, who is supposed to look after me? Do so many things that I really shouldn't be doing at my age?

I keep on crying until I can't cry anymore, making my head hurt. I must raise my sister because I love her, she's everything to me. I must keep on going so that she can too. I know that's what my mother would have wanted. She always encouraged us to stick together, to protect and love each other...no matter what came in our way. I can't let her down. I must look after my older brother and have faith in him, which will be difficult but not impossible. I will look for another job tomorrow along with Kade, we will get through this together.

I turn off the shower, wipe my tears away and smile. You must stay strong, for them.

I change and get out of the bathroom, Kade is sitting on the table, starring right at the tea, not even looking up at me. I sit next to him, not saying anything. I look over at the time, it's 3:30am. I take my tea and we sit there in silence.

"We need to talk Devina. I need to tell you something important."

"Okay, let's talk."