DREAM
Dreamt that there was a cookout in my grandparents' front yard.  For some reason, I had to take my plate and sit at the end of a neighbor's driveway to eat.  It was odd.  Some other stuff happened too, but I don't remember much of it.

BF
BF is still feeling better!  We may be able to hang out sooner if he's still doing all right.  It was highly unlikely that we'd contracted the virus anyway, since we were each other's first person to break social distancing with and had barely been outside before.  Thank goodness!

EXERCISE
Did some exercise in the morning.  That felt really good!

HAWKY
I accidentally kissed Hawky's head too many times this morning and the next time I tried she attacked me LOL.

VIRTUAL
I wanted to go to a museum and a zoo sometime this summer, but that probably wouldn't work out with the virus.  Instead, I went online!  I did the virtual Sant Ocean Hall tour at the Smithsonian website, then looked at videos and livestreams at the Bronx Zoo and NYC Aquarium.  It was fun!  Definitely recommend it if you need a nice activity.

GENEALOGY
Did some genealogy.  There are some holes in my tree that I've been trying to figure out for years.

YOUTUBE
Then I watched YouTube for a bit because why not.

BAD
Unfortunately though, one of the videos reminded me of my ex.  I don't want to go into detail, but he wasn't very kind to me towards the end of our relationship.  Anyway, I got anxious and very sad, and I felt like I had no one to talk to.  The events had happened almost five years ago, and knowing this made me feel worse, as I felt it was much too late to have those thoughts.  TikTok distracted me temporarily, but in the end, I was upset for nearly four hours.  It only stopped when BF was finally able to call me.  That sounds so pathetic and cheesy, but he really makes me feel better just by being around.

PROJECT
As BF and I called for almost three hours, I worked on a project for a friend.  Listened to Les Mis and Heathers.

YOU
How are you today?