(a/n I'm republishing this bc I don't think ppl could see it)

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October 4th, 1997

"Blue, nice hair." I said nodding my head looking her up and down.

"Thanks." She said. The tips of her hair were dyed dark blue. "You ready for practice?" She asked linking my arm with hers.

"Nah, I think I tore a muscle." Never the less I grabbed my cheer bag from the locker room.

"Huh, how'd you do that?"

"Fell while on the balance beam at the gym." I said shrugging and tearing my shirt off.

"Really? You've-"

"Never fallen I know." I slipped off my basketball shorts so I was left in my boxers.

All the girls on the cheer team knew that I was gay. And none of them seemed bothered by it. Meaning they let me change in the girls room if I need to because it's closer to the field. Not gonna lie that made things a lot easier.

"Did you see Brendon?" Blue asked sitting down and reaching in my bag hanging me my cheer top.

"Yeah actually, Sasha was there too." I said biting my lip. I pulled my sock on and hissed as I stretched my leg a little too much.

"Take it easy boy." Nicole said patting my back. I smiled up at her and stood up grabbing my short shorts. I pulled them on and turned to the mirror before pulling the crop top on.

"What happened? I heard Brendon's back in the dating game." Ari said wiggling her eyebrows. Blues face lit up and she smiled widely.

"Don't get your hopes up Blue, I also heard that he isn't into girls anymore." Nicole said as she pushed me on the bench and started trying to pull my hair back into a pony tail.

"He is, he dated Harlow." Blue said pulling her shoes on.

"Yeah, and she disappeared." Ari said brushing her thick hair back into a pony tail.

"Please just stop talking about him. He has enough problems as it is, he's only 17 and he's a single dad." I said putting my fingers to my temples.

"Do you like him Ry?" Ari asked giving me a side eye.

"No. Ok? I just don't want him getting more hate. He already gets so much." I stood up and grabbed my bag and pushed past the girls to the field.

The couch was in the middle of the field, clipboard in her hand. She looked up and we made eye contact.

"Ah, hey Ryan. What's up?" She asked taking my bag from me.

"I think I tore a muscle. I don't think I can do practice today."

"Why'd you get dressed up then?" She chuckled.

"I was planning to do it if you said I couldn't sit out. I'll get it checked out soon though." I said nodding my head at her.

"How'd you do it?"

"I fell off the balance beam."

"Really? You've never fallen." I smiled and nodded sadly.

"Yeah I know, that's why I'm bummed." I hit my lip and she handed me my bag back. I took it and walked back off the field.

"Take care Ryan!" She yelled.

I ran into Blue, Nicole, and Ari as I was leaving.

"Are you mad Ry?" Blue asked, she fiddled with her fingers and didn't look me in the eyes.

"No, I could never be mad at you guys. But I'm going home." I leaned in and kissed Blues cheek. She smiled and hugged me around my neck. Ari waved to me and Nicole just shrugged. I laughed and waved goodbye to them as I left to go back through the locker room.

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A/N
Hey
Sorry this took so long
I went camping recently so I didn't update and then when I got back all the stuff with Wattpad was going on
So idk what's going on with that but 🤷‍♀️
I changed all my books to mature bc of self harm mentions
Um ok so my school starts soon and I'm stressed
Also this book does have a playlist so far and it's
1-Levitate by Twenty Øne Piløts
2-Fake Happy by Paramore
3-Like to be You by Shawn Mendas
So that's how it is rn
Um I hope this chapter is ok lmao
But y'all are gonna start getting interesting a/ns again bc schools starting
Also for orientation I'm supposed to wear my school shirt but I want to look cute Incase I see my crush so I'm gonna wear my waterparks shirt instead lmao
Also I got heckign razor burn on my legs and I am not McLoving it
Um yeah
•Song Suggestion•: Like to be You by Shawn Mendas
•Fun Fact•: I'm still having a lot of anxiety:/
Anyways

~enjoy killjoys~