"I..i wish i never been borned.." i grabbed a knife and direct it to my hand,wanting to cut it and suddenly jess just took the knife and threw it.

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!" She shouted..how did she get here?

"....how did you get here??" I asked.

"I was planning to escape again through my window and saw you.." she said. "I care about you..please don't do this,it isn't your fault that i ran away.." she said as she grab me by my shoulder and hugged me,crying.

"I..i don't want to break our friendship,jess. I don't wanna see us apart.." i said.

//flashback ended//

And That's how we become friends forever..tragic,huh?

I fell asleep and didn't notice until now. I woke up,seeing jess still asleep and everyone is asleep.

I walked towards jess and hold her hand.

"Please wake up..i'm lonely.." i whispered.

"What are you doing,dumbhead?" She whispered as she peeked through her one opened eyes.

"Thank god,you're awake,jess." I said.

"I'm not in a coma,idiot." She said.

"I'm lonely,talk to me." I said.

"I am talking to you!" She loudly whispered.

"Hey,do you have feeling for ste--" iwas cutted by the doctor.

"Hello,ladies. Uhm,ms.Desyca,can you tell all of the family to get out for a moment? We wanna have the regular check-ups for her." The doctor explained.

"Uhm,yes. Sure." I said while i was waking up all the members.

They all got up and do what i say. We waited outside like for 35 minutes. What's taking her so long?

"AHHHH! IT HURTS!! MY HEAAD!!" I heard jess loudly screamed.

"What was that?!" Leo panicked.

I got to the door and tried to look from the window but nothing works,it's all closed. The nurses came and she screamed louder,making the corridor full of her terrifying screams. I cried and felt someone hugged me,tightly. It was steven,i pushed him away.

"What the heck are you trying to freaking do to me?!" I scolded him.

"I'm trying to comfort you!" He raised his voice.

"Don't you raise your voice to me!! I can raise even higher and i thought we already settle our agreement!!!!" I shouted.

"A-agreement?" He asked.

"Don't play fucking dumb! About years ago,i told you to stay away far far far awayyyyy from me!" I was angry.

"I did and i thought that i would comeback for a good holidays!" He said.

"GOOD HOLIDAYS?! IS THIS GOOD TO YOU??!!! YOU ARE ALWAYS BE ON THE WRONG FREAKIN TIMING!!" I shouted while leo drag me away from him and calm me down,which he successfully did.

"Calm down okay? I'll get you something to drink,your throat is dry from that shouting right?" He said and i nodded.

"I..--" i got shused by him.

"Don't talk..your angelic voice will get worsen." He said and i smiled.

He grab the drink and gave it to me. We went back and saw the doctor's outside. I ran to the doctor.

"Doc,what happened to her?!" I panicked.

"Patience ms.Desyca,she is fine..but her brain will not recover easily and it's gotta be hard to help her remember again. It's on your own risk..to help her or to let it go." He said.

"Let her go?? LET HER GO?! DO YOU REALLY WANNA DIE,RIGHT NOW?" I shouted.

"Calm down,ms. What i meant by letting go is that let her remember herself. Do what she always do and she will probably think and remember herself. If you want to help her then don't make her stress,it will only cause some worse cases to her brain and damage it. Relief her stress with some refreshing stuff and calm her down. That is all the note i can give to you." He said.

For short,don't make her stress if you want to help her. Geez.. .-.

"....but,will she remember me,her friends,her family,us?" I said.

"Probably..maybe? I will take researches on how many had she lost and from when did she remember." He said, "i'm done."

Yeah,you're done with life aren't you? I like making people miserable smh. :)

"Can we see her?" I asked.

"Sure." He walked away. What a retarded doctor.

We walked in and saw a sleeping beauty..yes,i'm a girl and i admire my friend so much..smh,nobody can resist on fangirling her.

We waited about 4 hours now..she didn't wake up. Her mom and dad went away because of business shiz and so is leo with rafael. There is only me,justin,steven,and her..

"When will you wake up?" Justin murmured and burry his face with his hands. He loved her so much..while steven just sit there and play with his stupid iphone.

"You bettet get out if you don't care about her." I said to steven.

"What,i do." He said.

"Oh,really? Does playing your phone proves it?" I said.

"No! But i'm doing some research on how to cure her!" He said.

"Pfft,you only care about the good connection of wifi here,you better take your leave." I hissed.

"Desyca,don't be so rude." Justin said.

"Oh..are you defending him? Is it because he is your brother-in-law and i'm a nobody?? Is that it?!" I shouted.

"Desyca,just...stop. i don't wanna argue with you." He said,still managing to be calm to calm me down.

"Pfft,weak." I said and he sighed.

"Desyca,you're just too much! You're crossing your line to far!" Steven said. "Is that how you thank you people that actually care about you? Is it the way that you show your affection to people?! I can't believe that jess still wants you as a bestfriend. If i were her,i would have just left you ages ago." He said.

Ouch.

"Oh." I said. "Just get out,you're pissing me off." I said.

"No,i'm staying." He said,

"Then i'll go!" I said and stormed out of the room.

I wanna take a good refreshing air from that stupid steven who made my day worse. He's disgusting. I want him far away from me and i don't wanna see him,ever again. But,oh..look what fate brought us..looks more like what hell has brought me.

I feel so calm seeing the clear water..oh,there is a beach near the hospital..so it looked perfect. Ah..the smell of sea and the sound of waves crashing. The water touching me feets feels cold but warm afterwards. Now this is heaven..until steven came. Fuck.

I simply wore my shoes and walked away.

"Desyca,wait!" He shouted. Damn,i need to run.

I ran and ran and ran until he couldn't catch me. HAHA BETCH! You can't catch meh now!!

I stopped to see a beautiful park. But there is no one here,except a beautiful figure of a woman,just sitting there,alone,having some fun times refreshing herself. She resembles me.

I walk towards her and sat hy her side.

"Hello." I greeted.

"Hi." Her soft voice is music to my ears.

"Are you alone? What are you doing?" I asked.

She giggled,"wow,i do ask a lot of questions back then.." she said..wuut..

What does she mean by 'i' ?? And 'back then'..i do not understand.

"Wha-" i could finish my words. Her flaws are just..undeniable. she looked through her watch.

"Do what you need to do and fix it. I have no much time. She will be fine,but in the mean time,take care if her well. Fix all your problems with everyone you have problems with. Don't give up. You'll be a loser again. You're strong and you know you are. Everyone doesn't hate you,they loved and care for you." She said,she looked like she is in a hurry.

"I don't get it..who are you?!" I raised my voice.

"Haha,i'm so cute when i'm annoyed. Leo was right..hey,i need to ask you a favour if i may?" She said. She knows leo?

"Okay,you may." I said and she giggled.

"Close your eyes." She said and i did what she told me. "Remember! The word 'lose' is not in our dictionary!" She said as she sounded like she dissapeared. There was only quiteness.

I opened my eyes to see that i was asleep and steven was beside me,i was sleeping on his shoulders but still on the beach.

"Omg,get off." I said,softly.

"Oh lord. I thought you were dead!" He said.

"Look who's worried." I said.

"What did you dream about? You were shivering." He said. Suddenly,something popped on my head and i start running.

"Wait here,i'll be back!!" I said as i ran as fast as i could.

Yes,i was heading to that abandoned park. And yes,i saw a bench. I got closer to see only a red papered mail. I opened it to see a letter inside that says :

Dear loved ones,

Hi,you know me. I'm everyone's lovable girl,desyca!..

I chuckled as tears come running down to my cheeks,i dont know why.

...you,the past me,the only one that can see the letter,i hope you read this,before it's too late. I told you in your dreams that you should go and fix everything,right???...

I nodded as tears are still running down.

...well,try to do so. I'm a sucker that everybody hates now. I will try to contact you from here on how i am doing on your progress!! God lets me to do so,it's a miracle...

"Did i die while making this? Jesus christ,me." I giggled.

...nah,i didn't die. How can i send you these while i'm already dead,huh?? I'm so stupid. Haha,hey,did you know that leo left you,now?? I cried like 24/7...

"I..i know.." my tears are rolling down more,i cried a lot.

...fix this,please. I can't get over him and i'm just being a mess without him! Talk it out,make-up,do something about it,dumbhead!!

"I'm gonna try to do so..don't worry." I said.

..i feel empty..empty right here *touches heart* ..what you do now will affect me in the future which means you in the future. Honey,i'm doing so bad now..no one likes me,all of my friend left me..including jess..

I cried silently but painfully. I wanna stop reading it here..my eyes hurt so much,probably will be red after this.

...i don't have the courage to even say sorry because i know they will get rid of me,reject me and push me off a cliff. It hurts so much to know the truth..so i just lock myself in a dark room and didn't get out for ages since leo left me. So,i pray and pray everyday and miracle came,that's why i can give you this letters..honey,if i can go back to the past now,i would start putting my lovely favourite nike shoes on and get going to fix some shiz that has been going on there....

"How did you know i'm wearing it now??..oh,wait,you ARE me..dang.." i said and giggled.

Honey,GET YO LAZY ASS UP AND FIX THAT HOLE! PUT SOME BANDAGES IN IT,KISS IT AND PAT IT LIKE IT'S YO FUTURE KIDS!! IDK BUT JUST DO IT,SAAAN! you know why i can be confident like that??

"Tell me.." i said.

Because i know i can! I know i can fix things up! If dad can fix the hole in the dam,then i can fix a hole on my heart! Like father like daughter...

I cried as soon as i read 'dad'..i miss him so much...because of business,he had to do load of shitty papers,he's somewhere in china now..it's been 5 years since the last time he got home..

He's doing good now..he has suffered a lot to make me happy..but he is going to paris to get the company some update..

"B..but,only the owner of the company can do that." I said.

Yep,you know it,or maybe still clueless?? Of course,typical me.. dad had become the owner of the companyyy!!! Yayayy!!! Shhhhh,don't tell him tho..but his work all this time really paid off..he got to be the owner,he can even have loads of time to spend with me. Be happy since he's still working hard. I know sometimes you hated it when he have to leave but he is actually working for you...

Those words made me cry even more..for me? Really?...i smiled like a fool while crying.

Well,that's done for..hey,i really miss leo..what does he look like? Is he still the handsome and kind leo that i know? (Not like now tho..i heard he had another girlfriend after our break up,already..pfft,gimme a break,amirite??)

"Hmm..he's still handsome,kind and adorable as you had known...haha,he moved on that fast?? What a joke.." i said,smiling painfully.

Don't cry..because i'm crying harder than you,rn..it's funny that i thought we have the same thoughts but actually we are the same person..i am you and you are me..we are one..only that you are my past and i'm your future..

"Yeah,right. I thought i got smarter in the future..but.nevermind." i smiled.

Hey,nice talking to me again..i will keep sending letter here about how i am doing right here..everytime i have sent you a letter,you will feel this urge to go here..so don't you worry,my dear..and oh yeah..take this necklace with you..

I grabbed the necklace that was in the mail. Wow,it's so pretty.

That's..that's the only thing leo left to me..everytime i touch it,it hurts me and force me to remember our break up..so i decided to give it to you..i'll give you a hint..he will give it on the 3rd anniversary..don't wear it,keep it instead..i will get it myself if i need it to..

"I get what you mean.." i said.

So,i'll sending 'your' progress on your future..wait for it..bye!!

Lots of love,

Desyca..

"See you soon..me.." i said as i put the letter inside my pocket.

I got back to the beach.

"Hey,steven..look,i'm sorry..i was just in stress because of thing that happened to jess and today. I just can't see her like this.." i said. He smiled.

"It's okay,i forgive you..i know how you feel..i'm her brother." He said.

"Hm..wanna grab some drinks?" I said. He scanned my face,i guess he noticed that i cried.

"Did you just cry? What happened?" He asked as he hugged me and hold my waist.

"No,it's fine..i was yawning all the way.." i lied,sorry.

"Oh,well then,okay. Let's go to starbucksss!!" He said,happily and that made me smile.

We went to the starbucks and i literally fell in love with the coco.

"Mmm,it's my first time trying this hot coco..i always ordered americano,but since i'm not craving for one.." i said.

"Haha,you picked this because it has the 'thumbs up' emoticon on it,didn't you?" He said and i covered my face in embarrassment.

He laughed at me.

"Haha,yeah. That's absolutely funny,hahahahaha." I sarcastically said.

"I was just kidding,but it turned out to be true." He said and kept laughing.

"I'm done with you." I said as i stood up and ready to leave.

"Uhm,wait--oh,no. Uh,you go first,cutie." He nervously smiled and i left. What a weirdo.

Steven's Pov.

She was about to leave and i want to stop her but suddenly,this girl that i know came in and i told her to leave. I know it's rude..but whatever.

"Oh,hi,steven." Her soft,sweet voice greeted me.

"H-hi,melody.." i greeted back.

"Oh,please. Just call me jane." She said.

"Uhm,sit if you want. I got nobody with me." I said.

"I can see that." She said and sat where desyca sat just now.

I am totally in love with her..does she have a boyfriend? Omg,what the hell?! Of course,she does!! Look at her! Who wouldn't like a girl like her..

"Hey,are you listening to me,steven??" She said. Omg,i'm zoning out infrot of her. Shit.

"Hey,jane.." i said.

"Yeah? Ssup?" She answered,haha cute.

"Do..do you have a boyfriend?" I hesistated.

"Uhm,no. I don't like being in a string with someone. I just don't feel like it now..but meeting you was fun. You have this different vibe that made me..attracted to you.." she blushed.

Omg,she blushed! SHE.JUST.BLUSHED,PEOPLE!! IMMA CELEBRATE THIS,AFTER.

"Mmm,k. So,does that mean you like me?" I said.

She nodded.

"So..are we..official?" I said.

"..you..y-you..like me?" She stuttered.

"Yeah..i do." I said.

"So,we're official,yay!" She said.

"Why are you happy?" I asked.

"Shouldn't i be? I mean..i like you and all and i've been waiting for this moment." She said,blushing.

"Hm. Should we celebrate?" I said.

"We should,but i heard that my lil cutiepie is sick.." she said,

"Little cutiepie? Who's dat?" I asked.

"Jess." She smiled,lord..look at her beauty.

"Jess? How did you know?" I asked.

"A lovely bear of mine told me so." She said.

"Whoooo~?" I whined.

"Justin,my lil bro." She said. Ah,that's why he's handsome af.

"Oh,wow." I said.

"Mmm..hey,whose coco is this?" Ah,she noticed.

"That's desyca's,jess's bestfriend." I said.

"Aw,is that so? I bet she's cute,cuddly and kind like jess.(bruh,she's not a freakin doll.)" She said as she smile.

"Yeah,i wish she is." I rolled my eyes.

"So,she's not?" She asked,frowning.

"I mean,you know..she's cute and all but sometimes she likes pissing people off." I said.

"Oh,great." She smiled.

"Why?" I asked.

"By the looks of it,i already loved her. You asked to many questions." She said while taking a sip of her coffee. Look at that lucious lips.

"Lets go meet my sister,honey." I said.

"Oh,wow. That escalated from 0-100 real quick." She said and stood up.

We went back to the hospital,everything seemed fine,nobody's crying..

We went inside and everybody was laughing happily. Then i interrupted them.

"Ahem."

"Oh~~the party pooper's back.." desyca said as she frown.

"Hey! Atleast i came here,safely." I said.

"JANE UNNIE!!" Jess literally just screamed to jane.

"Hi,honey." She smiled.

"Dude,who are you?" Desyca said.

"I'm Jane Melody. Steven's new girlfriend." Awww look at my girl,proudly bragging about it.

"Unnie,come sit with us." Jess said.

Jess's Pov.

Omg,jane came! My beautiful sister..she sat beside me.

"What's unnie?" Steven said.

"Unnie is a korean word that means 'sister'" i explained.

"Oh." He said.

"Can't you thank your sister? Omg.." jane said.

"Nah,it's okay. I don't want his pity thank you's." I rolled my eyes.

"Thank you,my lovely sister." He smiled,looking sarcastic.

"I ain't buyin that,steven." I said.

We all laughed at his embarrasement.

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