Ernest nearly got hit by a car today. Most people thought that I shoved him too hard while we joking around, but I didn't, in fact, I managed to save him. I...
I feel like I actually accomplished something in my life.
His dad wouldn't stop crying though. I couldn't understand half the shit he was saying, but he's thankful. I think.

I also found some kittens near my house, and I found their Mom nearby with a bunch of broken bones. I took them to the vet (my aunt) and she said that she's in a coma.
Jesus, who would've been so cruel to do that, I mean what the fuck!? I'm honestly disappointed that people can just get away with that.

Speaking of people, a lot of people in this town seem almost nonexistent (other than the people I've mentioned in this book of course).
Amanda's dad kinda seems like that too, his appearance always seems to change, and he acts almost like he's being controlled by someone(need to look into this), but then again, it's probably just me being the overly paranoid, delusional bitch I am.

I managed to get a gun today, probably won't be using until the end of the book. Or maybe if I need to shoot some killer cult leader or some shit.

Again, I'm probably just overreacting like usual, I am just another human that will die because death is an inevitable little bitch. I'll say hi to Lucifer at hell's gates for you Joseph, you two-faced bastard.
You're pretty alright at being a Christian, I'll admit that, but being a Christian doesn't mean you're a good person. You cheated on Mary then divorced her, and then you break up with the guy you cheated on her with, who genuinely loved you! And you tell him that he helped you realize that you "still very much loved your wife"?! WHO THE FUCK DOES THAT?!?! I SAW AND HEARD EVERYTHING, AND HE WAS HEARTBROKEN TO HEAR YOU SAY THAT!

Not to mention what you did to Robert, who's going through some deep shit right now because his daughter's coming to town and he needs truth and advice (which I gave to him, he didn't like it, but he needed to know.) because their relationship was broken the moment his wife died. But you wouldn't have known that, would you? I may be useless, but that doesn't mean I don't know about others' pain. You however, choose to ignore the truth about you.

But, why worry about, I mean, I'm only a dead girl walking.

End of suicide entry 3, 63 days until I die.

P. S. I'm not gonna say who was the guy who Joseph Christiansen decided to cheat on with, because he didn't know what was coming to him.