"Let's pay Shōyō a little... visit shall we?"

"What why?"

"Since he can't even kill himself properly we'll make his life hell until he does"

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"Thanks for the food, dad" Hinata mocked with a cheeky grin, taking advantage to tease the male due to his softness when it came to himself.

Everyone thanked their coach collectively and went back outside with each of them having a meat-bun in hand.

Hinata spun around to the group and started scoffing his meat bun "so what did you guys wanna talk about?" Hinata asked kindly, his cheeks puffing up as he ate.

'ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑠 𝑠𝑜 𝑎𝑑𝑜𝑟𝑎𝑏𝑙𝑒...'

Everyone flushed at the sight before Daichi grabbed Hinata's arm; the teen flinched at the touch before he quickly eased off "let's go somewhere else, then we'll tell you" Daichi reassured, letting go and leading the boys where he thought most appropriate.

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"Kagayamaaaa I'm tired~" Hinata wined, pressing his cheek against the setter's shoulder. They had been walking for a little while and Hinata had started to get restless.

"What you want me to do about it boke?" Kageyama huffed, turning away from Hinata to hide his slightly reddened face.

Hinata grinned and leapt in his friend's back without warning "carry meee~" he yelled in a sing song voice, ruffling Kagayama's sleek black hair while wrapping his legs around setter's waist.

"Fine"

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"We're here!" Daichi exclaimed happily after half an hour of walking, it was around dinner time now.

Daichi had lead the boys to a rather euphoric looking place. There was a open grassed out area filled with the occasional wooden bench, complimented with a massive water fountain in the middle of the place.

Clear, crystal like water shon in the darkening sky, it's liquid almost radiated light as tiny gold fish swam happily in the pool beneath the fountain.

The intricate design of a angel carved from stone stood proudly on top the fountain; the water trickling down its fingertips as it formed with the small pool.

Everyone's mouth flew agape at the stunning surroundings; Daichi simply stood there proudly with his arms crossed.

"Cool isn't it?"

"Yeah it really is!" Hinata beamed, bouncing up to the captain and hugging him tightly. The male froze at the contact and looked like he was about to blow a fuse any second.

Sugawara chuckled at Daichi's expression and pulled Hinata off the brunette.

"Shōyō I have something- no... we have something to ask you" Sugawara corrected himself, gesturing the team over to him.

Hinata tilted his head to the side like an adorable lost puppy. Were they going to kick him off the team again? No no... that can't happen.

Hinata began to freak out at his own thoughts before Yamaguci placed a soft hand on his shoulder "you're ok Shōyō, no one is going to leave you" Yamaguci reassured as if he read Hianta's mind.

Hinata shakily nodded his head and turned back to the silver haired male "what is it Suga-sempai?"

"I... well, Um we were wondering if you wanted to-" suddenly, Nishinoya sprung in front of the third year and clasped Hinata's hands in his own; cutting of Sugawara mid sentence.

"Do you wanna be in a poly relationship with us?!" He beamed, vibrating on the spot.

Everyone froze. Hinata looked blankly at everyone.

Suddenly the words fully registered in his mind "WHAA- wait really? Um... I-I'm not sure it's just-"

Tsukishima came up behind the boy and wrapped his arms around Hinata's waist "we'll never hurt you again shrimp" he whispered in the boy's ear, causing his face to redden a little.

Everyone started with hopeful eyes as Tsukishima took and step back to look at him. Hinata bit his lip and began to twiddle with his fingers.

"ok!"

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"Good night everyone! I'll see you for morning practice" Hinata smiled, giving those nearest to him a kiss on the cheek. They consisted of Tanaka, Nishinoya, and Yamaguci.

The three were simply to frozen with gay panic that they forgot to wave him goodbye as he entered Ukai's home.

"What took you so long?" Ukai grumbled just as Hinata closed the front door, taking a deep breath of his cigarette while watching something on the television.

Hinata huffed. He could really use a smoke.

"Guess who's got boyfriends~" Hinata teased, standing infront of the TV so Ukai couldn't see anything.

The coach raised an eyebrow at his statement "eh? What're you on kid?"

"Cocaine to be precise but that's not the point"

Ukai thought about the statement for a second before jumping off the chair rather dramatically "tell me your bloody joking Hinata" he sighed, grabbing the teen's shoulders as he slumped his head towards the floor.

"Geez way to kill the vibe" Hinata replied, slipping into the kitchen and shoving a random apple in his mouth.

"Good night! And you better tell me what you're on about in the morning kid!" Ukai shouted just as Hinata slammed his bedroom door shut.

The teen flopped himself down on his bed with an exasperated sigh.He got a sudden idea as he turned to the bedside cabinet that stood next to his bed.

'𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑛𝑡 ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑡 𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡?...'

The teen gritted his teeth in reluctance as he opened the drawer to reveal his old pocket knife.

Hinata's medium long hair swished around his vision as he hung his head towards the floor; hands trembling as he slowly opened the blade.

'𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑜𝑛𝑐𝑒'

'𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒'

'𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑠 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑓𝑎𝑑𝑒... 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒'

Over the course of a couple weeks, Hinata had actually been having a successful time recovering his trauma.

Hinata knew he would never be the same. And that was inevitable. He just wished he could be the same happy sunshine everyone once knew.

'𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑎𝑠𝑘 𝑚𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑓𝑒𝑙𝑡 𝑝𝑖𝑡𝑦?'

Hinata reassessed the previous situation with his teammates though his head. They did seem sincere... so why was he worrying about it so much?

Maybe this would take his mind of it.

Hinata slipped down his trousers to his knees and pressed the knife against his pale thigh. He winced as the cold metal made contact with his flesh, but at the same time he felt relief.

He pressed the blade harder and the first drops of blood had formed around his blade; gracefully trickling down his leg and leaving streaky crimson marks behind.

He grinned with pleasure and drug the blade across his skin many more times before his phone buzzed, snapping him out of his episode.

He looked at his darkly stained hands and began to tremble from disappointment. Why wound he do this to himself again?...

He angrily chucked the blade to the floor as more thoughts plagued his mind. A drop of blood fell from the knife where it lay, creating a small stain in the pure white carpet.

Hinata shifted his attention to the screen of his phone to check who had contacted him.

Instantly his heart dropped as his eyes scanned the message;

𝙼𝚢 𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚂𝚑𝚘̄𝚢𝚘̄, 𝚒 𝚍𝚘 𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚘𝚔. 𝙸'𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚟𝚒𝚜𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚘𝚘𝚗! 𝙸'𝚖 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚒𝚝

~𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚖.

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