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April 7, 2011

~Lucky~

Calum and I had been dating for two weeks now, and I still wasn't really used to being in a healthy relationship. I was relying on Calum to teach me what was okay and what was toxic.

Really, I relied on Calum for everything. I clung onto him more than I did my mother as a kid. Ashton teased me about it, saying I didn't need him anymore since I now had Calum. Truthfully, I could never go without Ashton.

I couldn't go without either of them, really.

We hung out with Donovan and Kat more often, because they were actually really fun.

I will admit, I was kind of on edge with Kat originally. But, I've grown to loved a lot, and I trust her now.

"Hi baby," Calum cooed, turning the corner into my bedroom. I smiled at his presence and held my arms out as I lay down.

I sighed as he slipped under my arms, laying his head gently on my chest. "I feel gross," I told him.

He frowned. "What can I do to help you?"

"Stay here," I smiled weakly.

He nodded and snuggled into me. This was one of my favorite things, cuddling with Calum. He made me feel so loved and at home, something Damian never did.

I felt the urge to pee, so I unfortunately had to wriggle out of Calum's hold.

Calum tugged his bottom lip into a pout. "You're leaving me?"

I smiled and shook my head. "I have to pee."

"Go quickly!" he called after me.

I laughed lightly and shut the door. When I pulled down my pants, I saw a sight I really didn't want to see.

Red.

I should have seen it coming. The cramps. The headache. Cravings. 

I put toilet paper in my underwear, pulled my pants up, and crouched down under the sink. I searched for my stash of pads, but found none. Did I really run out?

"Shít," I mumbled.

"You okay babe?" Calum called from my bed.

"No," I muttered quietly.

"What?"

"I'm good!" I responded uneasily.

I looked a little more, finding the box of tampons my mom had given me. I didn't trust myself to shove something up my vaheen, so those were a no go.

I threw my head in my hands. The only option I had was to ask Calum or my mom, but I hated confronting people. I decided I would ask my mom, but I had to get through Calum, and I'm not slick. I flushed the toilet and washed my hands before slipping out of the bathroom.

Calum held his arms out again, and I immediately felt guilty. "Come back," he whined.

"Hold on," I backed up towards my door. "I need to go ask my mom something."

He furrowed his bushy eyebrows. "You need help with something? I can help you."

I shook my head furiously. There was no way Calum was gonna give me pads or put in a tampon. No way.

"No, no, I don't think you can help," I murmured nervously.

He frowned and stood up, walking towards me.

"Cal, I'm fine," I held my hands up.

His face softened. "Oh," he smiled lightly. He pulled me into a warm embrace.

"What?" I hugged him back, confused.

He laughed lightly, and I could feel it in his chest against my head. "There's a mirror, baby."

I furrowed my brows and turned around, seeing a mirror.

Damn it. I had leaked through my sweats, and you could see the blood.

I blushed profusely and hid my head in his chest.

"You didn't think I was gonna judge you, did you?" he mumbled against my hair as he pressed a soft kiss to my head.

I shook my head. "I just..." I trailed off. How was I supposed to tell him that I didn't know how to insert a tampon, and I didn't have anything else to use, so I was screwed? "I just can't find my stuff."

"Here, I'll help you look," he grabbed my hand and tugged me into the bathroom.

"Cal, there's nothing there," I persisted as we sat on the tile floor.

He opened the door, and grabbed my box of tampons. "Aren't these what you use?"

I bit my lip. "Well, technically, but I don't use them."

Calum raised an eyebrow. "Why not?"

I swallowed nervously. "Well normally I use pads."

"What's the difference?" he fiddled with the box.

Oh God.

"Um, with these you have to uh... do something different."

He stared at me blankly. "Hm?"

I facepalmed. "I have to shove those into places I don't know how to!" I exclaimed, exasperated.

His eyes widened. "Oh."

I shook my head. "I've always been a wimp and never used them, and now they're all I have."

He looked down and thought for a moment, fiddling with the broken cardboard again. "I could help you?"

I widened my eyes. "What?" Calum was not going to help me put a tampon up my vagina. No.

"I don't know, we could look it up. I'll be here the whole time. I'll hold your hand if you want and everything."

My heart swelled at his sweetness as his cheeks flushed.

"I don't know, that puts you in an uncomfortable position," I played with his hands.

"You're more uncomfortable right now then I would be. As long as it's okay with you, love," he smiled at me.

I nodded slowly.

He ripped open the box and I pulled out my phone, reading instructions on health sites.

"Lucky, look at me," Calum giggled. I looked up to see my moron boyfriend with two tampons up his nose.

I snorted and shook my head. "You're such an idiot."

"An adorable idiot," he wiggles his brows.

~Calum~

When Lucky has finally gained enough courage to do it, we shut the door to the bathroom. I turned away as she pulled her bloody pants down. She didn't ask me to, but I still respected her privacy.

"Why am I so scared to do this?" she sighed as she was propped on the toilet. "People do this everyday! I'm such a wimp."

I shook my head. I carefully placed my hand on her bare thigh, pushing myself up off the floor to peck her nose. "You aren't a wimp, love. It's okay to be nervous. Hell, you're putting a foreign object in your body. I don't even have the balls to that."

She sniffed. "At least you have balls and don't have to deal with this."

I chuckled. "You're cute."

She inhaled shakily. "So they said it's gonna hurt at first, but once it's in you won't feel it. Okay. I can do this."

"As long as you put it up far enough," I piped up.

She stared at me nervously. "Thanks for the input, Cal."

I shrugged. "Sorry, just trying to help."

I removed my hand from her thigh as she spread her legs. I closed my eyes and pressed a soft kiss to her bare shoulder and held the hand she wasn't holding the cotton in. She whimpered slightly, so I squeezed her hand. "You got this baby," I smiled against her shoulder.

"Got it," she exhaled.

I grinned and grabbed her cheeks as we pecked lightly.

"Can you grab me new pants?"

I nodded, heading to her dresser. "Underwear too?" I called.

"Yeah," she hollered back.

I was glad that we were this comfortable in our relationship so quickly. Maybe it was because we had grown up together, or because we just trusted one another a lot. Whatever it was, I was glad that we were comfortable.

I handed her the clothes and turned as she changed.

"Thanks, Cal. It means a lot," she told me honestly.

"Of course, anything for you, babe," I turned to find her changed. I wrapped my arms around her waist and kissed her affectionately.

I knew it was too early to say I love you. I knew that. So i didn't say it. But in that moment, realization hit. I love Lucky.

a/n okay so i haven't updated this book in like two weeks or smth like that and i'm SO SO SORRY i had really bad writers block and had no idea what to do. like i know where the book is going, but i needed a filler.

when in doubt, make it hell for the main character.

this was kinda cute ig. idk. thank you for all of the support!!!

lots of love!!