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" i want to take a b r e a k . . . "

" i'm sorry , n a n a . . . "

those were the last words i heard from him , before he l e f t me .

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it's been 6 months...since i last saw him.

i wonder where he is and what he's doing right now . . .

i quietly s o b b e d in my bed .

this is the 1 8 8 t h time i cried , since he left .

. . .

yes . i c o u n t e d it .

. . .

life has been pretty tough , ever since he said to take a break from us .

i r a r e l y go out of my room .

. . .

i only go out . . . when maybe . . . i need to buy ice cream ?

yeah.

. . .

i opened my phone , which was lying next to me . hoping he would call or text me back . but still none .

hwαng ínjun <3
can't . i'm sorry , i really miss you .

how are you by the way ? i hope you're
doing well ! < 3

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injunie! don't you miss me ? -
just always stay healthy and safe ! -
i'll hit you if i see you having a cold !
i miss you ! < 3 -

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how are you hyung ? -
i hope you're having a great -
time right now !
unlike me...but it doesn't -
matter !
anyways , i miss you! -
and i love you too < 3 -

enter text 🙂 send >

. . .

i keep sending him messages , seriously hoping he would text me back .

but i guess not .

. . .

then , why isn't he b l o c k i n g my number ?

i mean , i don't want him to but . . .

. . .

wait...could it be...

he changed his number?

. . .

n o ! wait . . . no , that's not true ! maybe he just haven't opened his phone yet . . .

for 6 months ? i - impossible !

i chcukled to myself.

then started to sob louder .

. . .

my phone suddenly buzzed.

renjun hyung ! it must be him ! it has to be him !

i quickly took my phone . . .

. . .

oh . . . my battery just died .

. . .

i went outside and sat on a bench.

rain suddenly start to pour . . .

as well as my tears. i look down.

" renjun - hyung . . . where are you ? "

. . .

" jaemin - ah ! nana ! why are you crying!? "

that voice . . . that sweet voice . it's renjun - hyung . i'm sure it is !

i looked up and saw renjun hyung carrying a worried face , with an umbrella .

wait . . . it's renjun !

i quickly stood up from my seat and renjun quickly ran across the road.

i was about to walk , but i suddenly saw a car dashing like the speed of light .

renjun - hyung !

i quickly ran to save him and . . .

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" please wake up . . . i just saw you again and you're like this ? no . i can't take this anymore . i miss you renjun - hyung . please , don't leave me again . "

i cried silently as i held his hands .

" nana ? "

he tried to sit up straight so i helped him.

" injunie! are you alright ? is your head hurt ? or your back ? please tell me ! so i can help you ! "

he rubbed his head.

" nana...you're asking too many questions...it's making my head hurt more. " - he said as he blinked his eyes twice.

" ah...i'm sorry...it's just that i haven't seen you for almost 6 months and now, when i saw you again. you're lying on my bed, and you're hurt. i just miss you injunie... " - he smiled as i finish my sentence .

i miss your smile . but . . . why is he smiling ? is him being hurt should be something that i need to smile to ?

" i miss you too nana , " - he said as he ruffle my hair . " and don't worry , i'm alright . my head just hurts . thank you for saving me , nana . " - he gave me that soft smile again , which made me smile .

my smile finally came back . . . after 6 c r u e l m o n t h s .

" there's the smile i wanted to see ! see ? you look prettier than before ! " - he giggled softly .

" i missed your smile too ! i seriously hated it , when you told me you wanted a break . why though ? " - i asked , and my smile suddenly turned into a frown as i remember that moment .

" i'm sorry , my parents told me to stay away from you . well , i don't even know why . so i convinced them for a whole month . but they said that i'm not allowed to see you nor call you nor do anything about you . for 6 months . i tried to talk with them about it again . . . but they didn't listen and they took my phone and everything i have that i can use to contact you . so i stayed in my room until i'm allowed to see you . i'm sorry , nana . . . " - he explained as he played with my fingers .

so that's why .

" i'm sorry injunie . . . i guess i have a bad picture to your parents . . . " - i looked down . so his parents doesn't like me ? how . . . s a d .

" don't be sorry , " - he then raised my chin , which made me look at him . " maybe . . . they just didn't want me to have a boyfriend . . . " - he smirked . . . e h ?

" b - boyfriend ? i mean , uh . . . are we official now ? uhm . . . you haven't even , uh , p - proposed to me . . . uh . . . yet . "

. . .

wait . . . did i really just say . . . t h a t ?

. . .

he giggled softly . c u t e .

" well then , na jaemin . . . "

. . .

" do you want to be my b o y f r i e n d ? " - he held my hands and looked at me in the eyes .

. . .

i've been wanting to hear this question from you for a long time now . so , injun - ie . . .

" y e s . "

his smile got even wider as i said the word .

he gently cupped my face and slowly reached towards my lips .

. . .

" i love you , nana . "

. . .

" i love you too , injun - ie . "

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