this person means the most to me on wattpad.

i've met aesthetic, power and kindness queens...but this person has always been nothing short of amazing to me.

she was the first person to ever say something to me.

'I'm so glad I get to be your first follower!'

i'm glad too.

i spent one night up, just spamming hearts on your board because of how much i loved you. you were my favourite nejire anon, and another thing...

you were one of the three reasons i joined wattpad.

i joined for my best friend.

i joined to not feel alone.

i also joined to be part of your nejire cult. i wanted to get to know you.

i'll be honest; you're my favourite person on wattpad.

and then, i saw what happened to your bio.

you hated the fandom.

your fake friends.

and out of three people you truly treasured,

i wasn't one of them.

i was upset, i got so upset at myself for not being there for you. for making you feel unwanted and lonely. i'm so damn sorry ceylli.

although sorry doesn't cut it.

it never fucking does.

i'll be honest. i hate wattpad so much since you abandoned your account.

i hate my friends.

i hate my family.

i hate myself.

but i never hated you. you were the person i always hold dear to me.

thank you so much for being there in my life, even if it was short.

now i'm crying - gosh i miss you. i miss talking to you, knowing you're smiling, laughing, spamming-

i miss you.

i understand you have every reason to hate me; but i'll ask this, because i was never ready to write this appreciation.

can we be friends again?

-PIANIST