Ok I started this story in 2021 and its fucking 2023 now wtf?
😔🤌here I am still updating I lost my touch with this cringe asf book.

Ok they kissed

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Harry felt like the world was spinning for a second, there is no way Zayn fucking Malik kissed him right now.

The raven haired pulled back his eyes flashing red, he didn't say anything, he just give him a look and left.
Your fucking kidding me

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"I kissed him today"

"The styles boy?"

"Yea him. Wait how do u know him?"

"Well all your alters seem very intrigued by him, I didn't knew they all hanged out with him as well"

"Dr. Fetcher, the only one fascinated by him is probably zain cause fuck no he's a very annoying brat. And no way Kyle likes his ass"

"Then why did u go and kiss him"

"That's funny I never kissed him"

"U already told me u kissed him Zayn no need to get defensive"

"It accidently spilled my mouth ok ? No need to shove it in my face it's not like I got feelings for him"

" I don't know about feelings Zayn"

"There's no need for knowing about them doc cause there's nun here"

" I belive u"

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What a terrible fucking day.
Harry was damn sure he had a small crush on Zayn now since he got a taste he couldn't stop thinking about it. It wasn't a soft kiss, it wasn't gentle it screamed possessive. But why on earth is he possessive of him? There is no way Wan's "get him jealous " plan worked.

Even though he kissed him, Harry knew him too well. It's Zayn he's hella stubborn there is no way he's gonna be like  "Harry I love you"

He wished

The next day at college was tiring, Zayn came to school late as usual he looked at Harry and gave him a shy warm smile.

Of course that's not zayn that's zain

His damn different stupid personalities were confusing and making Harry mad. Is it weird he likes them all? He is attracted to zayn, but zayn is straight up rude then there is Zain he's such a cutie pie and he makes Harry so- yeah It's obvious Zain likes Harry and he obviously likes him back cause it's Zayn. They are all Zayn.. ok this is frustrating

Harry screamed internally, his thoughts getting interrupted when someone sat next to him.

"Hey Harreh" zain said with a shy smile. Even though Harry wanted to scream at his face for being so ugh but he couldn't.

"Heya back fluff, I haven't seen you in a while" he said ruffling the boy's hair.

"It's some stuff happening but I missed you though "

"I missed you more" he said truthfully making the other blush. "I've been hanging with Zayn though "

"oh, yeah he's more outgoing it makes sense, glad you two good with each other tho"

"NO its not like that fluff, I don't know but I did miss u a lot, what actually happened? Do u happen to know what happened to Zayn a few days ago?"

Harry saw Zain hesitate for a moment, his hands rubbing his knees he looks clearly uncomfortable  maybe asking him that was a bad idea.

"I'm sorry I didnt-"

"It's Rodger"

Now who the he'll was Rodger? Another alter? Why would he go beat himself up though that doesn't even make any sense. How much more does he have.
What if this Rodger guy was-

"Rodger isn't nice. You might think Kyle was terrible but he's a nice dude, but Rodger is just difficult. It's been years since he took over he kinda didn't take it easy I guess" he shrugged.

"How is he not so nice?"

"It's difficult " Zain said clearly trying to drop the subject. Harry didn't want to make him more uncomfortable.

"So wanna hangout today?"

"We could go to my place if you want Harry, wait no-"

"Calm down zaynie boy it's fine"

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Let's say Harry was impatient for class to end and be with zain. He already went home, Harry returned to his dorm to change and was planning to leave in a few minutes.

Zain opened the door with a shy smile, he was dressed in a cute sweather his hair falling on his face. Fucking hell.

They went upstairs in the balcony as usual, chatting bout art and music, Zain was pretty good in drawing he had drawn at least 6 portraits of Harry let's say he wasn't that surprised.

They chatted a lot time just went away, Harry was glad Zayn didn't take over or Kyle (he actually don't mind Kyle) It was getting late even Zain asked him to crash there he refused.

He didn't really feel like it. There was this weird energy between them that needed to be gone. It almost felt like an empty space that needed to be filled Harry wasn't that fimiliar with it.

"So you're gonna leave?"

"Yeah I'll see you soon"

"You too" Zain sighed when Harry stood up, Harry imbraced him in a hug just when he was about to leave he felt a soft kiss on his cheek.

Why was this kiss soft? It didn't feel the same, but it was fimiliar. For fucks sake it wasn't even on his lips but it was more than enough to make Harry get butterflies

Fucking stupid butterflies

"I'm sorry i didnt-" Harry looked down at the boy who looked like he was gonna cry. Harry didn't think twice he grabbed the boy's chin and pressed his lips on his.

And the world stopped for them. Everything went silent, that emptiness was going away slowly, maybe this was it?

Harry moved his lips gently along with Zain's so carefully like he was a piece of glass that was gonna shatter any moment. He hipped Zain's waist which was pretty tiny, it didn't look tiny when it was Zayn though it was just different.

It's a whole different person but the feeling was addictive. Harry gripped his waist harder demanding him to open his mouth, Zain giggled granding him the permission. Harry couldn't help to smile into the kiss, they fit perfect.

Lips chasing lips, tongues tasting each other, hands gripping tightly small giggles and laughter

The kiss was long but they were both so into it until Zain stopped moving.

Oh fuck no

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"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING? YOU CANT TOUCH A LADY LIKE THAT"

"I-"

"OH MY GOD it felt nice but THIS IS SO WRONG I'LL CALL THE FUCKING POL-"

"Veronica?"

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Im so fucking sorry for this trash thing I remember when I first started it I had so many ideas and now look at this lol. I just wanna finish this off istg