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disclaimers,
anxiety
crying
debut jitters

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 Hyun-Seok's leg bounced in anticipation of their leader's return. Henry claimed he was "going to the bathroom" almost fifteen minutes ago and the teen desperately needed him to return. With all the craziness going on in their dressing room Hyun-Seok could feel his nerves catching up to him.

"Buzz-hyung?" He questions pulling at the manager's arm but Buzz quickly swats it away as he continues discussing the schedule for the day with Jessie.

"Hyung!" Hyun-Seok whines, needing the manager's attention.

"Hang on Seokie," he mutters, diving right back into the conversation. Hyun-Seok retracts his hand, balling it into a fist down by his side. As he looked around the room he saw everyone engaged in their own conversations or attending to one of the members' wardrobes or hair.

"I-I'm going to look for Henry" he announces although the words fall upon deaf ears as the bustle and energy in the room was too intense for the adults to pay attention to the anxious teen. Hyun-Seok doesn't bother to repeat himself as he flees the room to go in search of the leader.

Once he was outside the room it was like a weight had been lifted off his chest and he could actually breathe, finally free from all the noise. However, his anxiety had yet to let him relax as he realized he had no idea where to go. This being his first time in the mnet building Hyun-Seok had no clue what was where and where he would even search for the leader. Hell, he'd almost gotten lost following Buzz to their dressing room!

"Guess I'll just have to wing it," he mutters to himself as he begins walking the halls. As he walked around, peaking his head down every hallway Hyun-Seok had every intent on finding Henry, but a ring from his cellphone (that he definitely shouldn't have had) drew all his attention. Pulling the device from his back pocket Hyun-Seok pales at the contact name.

'MOM'

The anxiety of his mom calling plus the anxiety he was already feeling caused his heart to beat in double time and the poor boy felt close to passing out. With an Angel and Devil on his shoulders, he debated answering or not. The ringtone was reaching its end and Hyun-Seok quickly made his choice, thumb pressing down on the bright green button before holding the device up to his ear.

"Seokie?" a young squeaky voice calls out in surprise. Hyun-Seok felt everything quiet literally melt away as he heard his sister's voice ring in his ears.

"Seokie you there?" she questions and Hyun-Seok begins nodding his head.

"Hi, sweetheart! Seokie is here," he says, voice wavering a bit. He can hear Soon-bok giggle with joy hearing his voice.

"Seokie, Seokie! Youngsoo says you get to be on t.v.! Is that true?" she questions excitedly.

"Sure is! Your brothers gonna be on t.v. isn't that cool?"

"Yeah! So excited! But Youngsoo says we have to do it in secret. Why does it have to be a secret Oppa?" the girl questions innocently and Hyun-Seok feels his heart sink. He knew why, because his parents didn't want his bad influence and disobedience to affect his siblings. They didn't want their kids to be able to live for themselves and have dreams but instead live the life they planned for them. It was the reason he'd been kicked out and told to never come back when he became a trainee, and the reason he hardly got to see or speak to his siblings. Of course, Hyun-Seok couldn't tell his six year old sister this, it would break her heart that they weren't allowed to see each other.

"Because mom and dad will be so jealous of Seokie. So you have to keep it a secret" he says trying to make his voice sound happy and playful like she was used to.

"Ahh, that's silly! Mommy and daddy should be happy for Seokie!" the child says. 'They should be, but they're not, the teen thinks sadly. He tries to think of something to say to his sister but a voice in the background bleeds into his thoughts.

"Soon-bok why are you in my room?!" Hyun-Seok easily recognizes the voice of his younger brother and smiles.

"Talking to Oppa!" Soonbok says before the phone is taken away from her.

"Hyung! You're gonna be on mnet today yeah? I told all my friends they had to watch your band otherwise I'd never let them meet you!"

"Wow, building me a fanbase already?"

"Duh! All the girls said they'd watch but only cause they think you're a super hot idol now. How dumb are they? Everyone should know by now you'll never be hotter than me, even if you are an idol"

"Oh yeah dream on Youngsoo"

"Whatever. You're on in like an hour yeah? Soon-bok and I are gonna watch on my laptop since...ya know mom and dad," Youngsoo mutters

"Yeah, I know. Don't let Soon-bok talk about it to them though. I don't want you two getting into trouble"

"Don't worry hyung. I've got it taken care of," Youngsoo says. "Hey did you watch the game the other day?" the teen questions next and when Hyun-Seok says no his brother proceeds to give him a play by play of the soccer game he'd watched the other day. As Hyun-Seok listened to his brother talk it was like he was right there with him, like there weren't hundreds of kilometers of distance between them. It was soon ruined by a voice becoming present on the other end of the phone, a voice Hyun-Seok hadn't wanted to hear.

"Young-soo have you seen your mother's- why do you have her phone?" his dad's booming voice becomes clear as day and makes Hyun-Seok's blood run cold. Quickly he hands up the phone hoping his dad wouldn't take the phone too soon and see that they had been talking. He should have hung up sooner, he shouldn't have answered in the first place. Now they'd be in trouble and it was all his fault.

Hyun-Seok stood there letting his thoughts cloud his mind, wondering if his siblings would be in trouble by now if his dad would have grounded Youngsoo and taken Soonbok's favorite toys. His thoughts were quickly interrupted when his phone began to ring signaling he was being called. Nervously he looked at the phone seeing his mother's contact name again. With a shaking hand, he moves to press the green answer button yet again, bringing the phone to his ear ready to hear the shilling screams of his mother's voice fussing at him.

"I hear you're going to be on t.v." his dad's voice fills his ears, this time no longer booming but calm.

"Yes sir"

"Don't expect us to congratulate you" his dad says next and even though Hyun-Seok had expected to hear something along those lines it hurt so much worse to actually hear them spoken from his dad.

"Do well tonight and maybe you might hear it," he says next. Hyun-Seok should be angry. He should curse his dad out and say he doesn't need his approval or his congratulations but he doesn't. He just sits with his eyes closed biting his lip to keep from crying because as much as his parents disgust him they're his parents and unfortunately he was still just a boy who wanted their approval, who wanted their love, who wanted them to be proud of him, their son.

"Do well. Your siblings are watching," the man says and with that, the line goes dead. Hearing the monotone end call sound Hyun-Seok fills his legs give out, causing him to crumble to the floor. He can fill the tears fill his eyes but refused to let them fall. He wasn't going to let his father's words make him cry on his big day. He wasn't going to let them break him down and make him give up. He was going to fight. Hyun-Seok was going to fight and show them they were wrong, that they were always wrong and that he had always been a good son. They were just too blind to see it.

"Stupid bastards" he grumbles.

"Wow, is that any way to speak around your staff? Especially when they spent the last twenty minutes looking for you?" Jung-ho questions as he squats down to Hyun-Seok's level. He was ready to give the boy an earful and lecture him right here for any onlookers to see but as the teen looked up at him Jung-ho could see the tears in the boy's eyes and the words left him. Still peering into the boy's eyes he could see the hurt and sadness but something else... A look of anger and determination.

"Sorry hyung," Hyun-Seok says with a sniffle.

"That's ok. We're just glad we found you. You made us worry, you know" Jung-ho says, standing up to reach his hand out and offer it to Hyun-Seok, who took it and stood up.

"Don't you ever run off like that again? Buzz was ready to use the intercom and claim that he'd lost his son" Jung-ho jokes and breaks out into a smile when Hyun-Seok giggles.

"I knew he loved us!" the teen says and Jung-ho pinches his cheek.

"Yeah yeah. Now come on. I didn't work hard to make you boys look camera ready for it to go to waste cause you missed your call," Jung-ho says, hand locked around Hyun-Seok's wrist as he drags the boy back to their dressing room.

Once inside Hyun-Seok was swarmed by just about everyone in the room, everyone worrying about him.

"Where'd you go huh?" Hiro questions worried for his friend.

"I um, just had to take a call..." he says and Minhyun knew that tone, it was the same tone Hyun-Seok had as trainees when he'd get a rare call from his parents. Shocking to everyone Minhyun pushes everyone out of the way to hug Hyun-Seok.

"Are you ok? Did they say something again?" he whispers in the boy's ear. Hyun-Seok shakes his head no, arms going to wrap around his hyung.

"No it's ok...they're gonna let my siblings watch though" he answers and Minhuun pulls back surprised.

"Guess we have to show them that Beyond Infinity is about to be the best band in Korea," Minhyun says and he was definitely not talking about Hyun-Seok's siblings.

"Just Korea? Make that the world" Hyun-Seok his determination coming back. Yeah, he was going to show them alright.

"Enough chit-chat you go on in fifteen minutes!" Jessie says pushing everyone in the direction they needed to go in. With their remaining minutes, everyone rushes around finalizing any final details before the boys go on for the camera ready to present themselves to the world.

"To Infinity!" Henry shouts before they head onstage.

"And BEYOND!" the rest of the group shouts together as they head on stage ready to make their debut.

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ೃ⁀➷ ꒰ a/n꒱ just a little peak into hyun-seok's life with his parents...they suck. he loves his siblings a lot and they love him and want to support him and of course the beyond team love him and support him a ton. hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! ♡༉

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