𝐜𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞
𝐫𝐚𝐟𝐞𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯
𝚓𝚞𝚕𝚢 𝟸, 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟶

the music was blasting as bodies grind and linger around each other.

smoove'l is talking about getting money as i down my casaamigos shot. my third to be exact.

it's been nine days almost a full week since sloan died. my heart hurts, i cried for two days straight, i didn't eat. now i am currently numbing away my pain with a party on the figure eight.

kelce is with kai getting more drinks, kie is on the balcony. sarah well she's on the table top dancing her ass off topper is trying to get her down. max is on the couch zoned out, i see slight tears in her eyes. which of course forces me too head to the bar for a nice cold beer.

to catch you guys up since the author wants me too.

i am going to be planning the funeral with sloan's big brother mark. mark gave me her journal and a bunch of other keepsakes even raven my love's board.

i read sloan's words with her voice in my head. i have all our photos, she has a film camera she hasn't developed yet. I developed them.

pictures on pictures of me & her, our friends and us, a few candid shots of her that i took. one very peculiar photo of me giving a funny face but it was double exposed as well as blurred in some parts.

. . . i could continue but i'm needed at the party.

"rafe!" my attention called away by one of my ex conquests.

"hey. katerina" i said no in any mood to speak.

"would you wanna maybe...?" her eyes flutter at me

"you want to fuck, am i right?" my raised eyebrows at her approach.

she nods.

"i can't i just took a vow of celibacy last night" i sip my drink, there's a hookah being passed around. i take a pull.

"really?"

"yes look" i show her my silver band on my right ring finger.

"ok see ya" she scurries away to another boy in the party.

my lie was a good one.

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"what are you doing out here?" i hear sarah as she wobbles my way.

"just thinking of her" my eyes are fixated at the sky. the moon looks so beautiful my mind reminiscing on our night at the beach. our first date.

the tears are already falling just when i thought i couldn't cry anymore.

sarah's fingertips graze my cheeks as she in front of me wiping my tears.

"i can't imagine what you are going through but i want you to know i love you, sloan loves you, she'll always be right here and here" sarah lifts up my hand to kiss my ring. "we are here for you. we love you support you"

"thanks sis i love you too i needed that"

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𝑠𝑙𝑜𝑎𝑛 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑑, 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑢𝑙. 𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑠𝑜𝑢𝑙 𝑡𝑖𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑘.

𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑙𝑓 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦 𝑒𝑥𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒, 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑦 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑒𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟.

my mind drifts to her ever so often at this party.

topper is handing me some white powder shit on a little spoon from someone's necklace "take a hit! you'll feel great!" he yells over the music.

other people are doing lines in front of me.

i take the bump, *sniffs* clouded in immense feelings of happiness. i still have sloan on my mind but all our happy times. all our laughs, our funny face pictures, when we serenade each other.

my eyes drift to the lines, i sniff a whole line.

before i know it my addiction begins.

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シ author's note ☽ 

THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE READ THIS. thank you to those who stuck with me. thank you to my small votes, thank you for adding my book to your reading lists. all of this is very much appreciated, always wanted this feeling from one of my older wattpad novels but I finally got it with this fanfic.

I will be posting a epilogue soon. This is the final chapter of my fanfic 𝚌𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚎 I put in work, it paid off. I have to go back and edit some small mistakes.

Hope you enjoyed the ride that was sloan & rafe. Look out for a few new fanfics coming. with faster updates ;) I promise.

𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞, 𝐒𝐮𝐧𝐉𝐞𝐰𝐞𝐥 ☀︎︎