𝗹𝗶𝗹𝗶𝘁𝗵'𝘀 𝗽𝗼𝘃

telling the pogues i cannot hang tonight is hard, most thursday nights is either a movie night, or a chateau extraordinaire event. game night, cold ones, a midnight surf if we get lucky.

can't hang out tonight guys

our p4l chat is set ablaze by the nooos, forreal lili, a gif to add dramatics.

we're going miss you tonight we'll use your cut out plus kie's like we always do, pope added. it was his idea to get paper cardboard cut outs of each of us to use in the absence of someone.

smiling at my phone before i say crack some cold ones for us.

rafe's secret name in my phone is blue brass but i found something that allows me to password protect that message thread so i did it.

tonight is the night, i'm picking you up by your house at 7. please wear something dressy.

ok i'll be ready by then and great idea.

"lili aren't you suppose to be with the boys tonight its almost 5 what's up?" my dads voice makes me look at him.

"i have plans tonight so i can't see them today"

"care to tell them to me" he crosses his arms over his chest, giving me the 'you better tell me or'

"going on a date pop ok"

"oh my girls going on a date, go lili, go lili, go lili" i'm laughing my ass off because he's emulating me.

"thanks dad for the support"

"you're welcome princess but one thing i must tell you be yourself with a smile ok. i love you have a great time"

"love you too dad"

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7PM

standing outside rafe's pulling up as i reach our meet spot.

coming to open the door for me he hugs me. as he whispers "you look gorgeous"

"you clean up nice" my hand drags to smooth out his dress shirt, his muscles feel firm and warm.

"get in" his eyes on me as i make my way into the passenger seat.

childish gambino is sing rapping about his heartbeat. one of my tops favs by him. singing along until rafe realizes he starts too. We end up belting the song loud until we are laughing.

"that feels great to just laugh with no care in the world" he spoke as he comes to a red light.

"its freeing"

"it is yes" rafe says as i noticed his fidgeting.

"i'm indebted to you for helping me last weekend. it is hard handling the irritability, if i can be honest most of the withdrawal symptoms are kicking my ass" my hand finds it way to his cheek which makes him smile. the one that really makes me push my thighs together in pure want of him.

he leans into my hand as he continues on our route to a place he said i'd enjoy. just on the outskirts of town.

"you really must enjoy my company to want to drive this far out for me. on the way back could i drive just to let you rest" my conviction is solid and i really want him to say yes.

"lili you can drive, please don't scratch her she's sensitive and we are 10 minutes away now"

"what is it with men and cars?"

"they become a part of us. you wouldn't call your car a he and love it and cherish it"

"good point i'll give you that" laughing simply because he's right.

"such a beautiful sound"

like a cue came out of nowhere and said 'laugh again' i do unsure if to shake why i'm in a state of extreme comfort with him. been this way since the first time i— looked in his eyes. those blue dreams stared in my brown liquor.

the way he cursed under his breathe every time he's frustrated or disappointed by something. he'd use insults to make himself feel better on strangers and friends. ok, misplaced rage that not gonna lie is unnecessary but imagine it's used in a different way.

maybe i sound like a stalker but my crush on him somehow manifested into this our first date.

"we're here what's got your thoughts?" his hands under my chin to get me to look at him.

"nothing, do we have to get out now?" as i start to get lost in his eyes.

"mm mm look"

'drive in restauarant' instead of popcorn, soda, candy. we give meals, mocktails, cocktails, regular drinks too. just enjoy. tonight's screening, "the before trilogy" starring Ethan Hawke and Julie Delpy.

"how'd you guess movies are one of my favorite things to do" my jaws almost on the floor at how spot on this is for me.

"the movie dvd stack in your bedroom was a dead give away that night i came to ask you out"

"you saw that even though you were their for a few minutes at most"

"i did but i need you to close your eyes"

"ok"

he guides me out of the car and we walk for less than a minute. "you can open your eyes"

rafe's trunk is filled with snacks, water, and blankets. a server greets us and gives us the menu explains the marathon will start in 5 minutes. to use the QR code to order and thanks for choosing them.

we get comfortable, rafe sneaks his arm around my shoulders which just makes me sink into him.

"you're very snuggle proof"

"snuggle proof that's a thing"

"to me it is yes if i am able to rest on you with ease"

"snuggle proof" he repeats as he laughs. the movie starts and about 15 minutes in our food arrives.

we eat and watch the movie in comfort. i keep bringing up this topic because it's odd for me to feel this way around someone i've spent 168 hours with our more over the course of several weeks.

whispering i said "this movie is very interesting so far"

"they need to control the tension by kissing already and the convo is intriguing"

"yes" we engross ourselves in the tale of jesse and celine this ends up become a staple in my movies list.

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"lilith" rafe is at a vocal tone almost inaudible.

"yes"

"i like you" he gives me a shy smile that solidifies my prolonged interest in this guy who is more that meets the eye.

"i like you too" we clink the ginger ales we got. smiling at each other with what feels like not a care in the world.

my phone buzzes in my pocket i ignore it until the third movie ends around 11:40 pm.

"thank you so much this was a nice date" my facial expression must've been one of happiness because rafe smiles back at me with a cute grin in between.

as we head back to our hometown sade's vocals chime beautifully in the back setting the scene. how we must cherish, i'm full a bit tapped out. but i'm driving us back so i must stay awake.

"you do handle her well" rafe's tone soft and quiet.

"sure i do i don't want to scratch or do worse to your baby here" i tap the steering wheel.

"it's okay rafe promise, rest"

"closing my eyes for a little bit" he mumbles placing hid head on the chair head rest.

their was a cocktail i had from a stash rafe brought with him it was rosé with this pear juice. he mixed it himself a mixologist in the making haha. it was pretty decent.

"rafe hey wake up, we're at my house" my hands caressing his cheek back and forth to etch him out of sleep.

"how long was i asleep?" he spoke stretching quick bones crack i respond with "most of the travel back your music kept me up but you looked handsome in your sleep so i didn't wake you"

"let's get some fresh air huh" rafe some as he's exiting the car to open the door for me. his hands make there way to my waist as he lifts me from the car. standing in his arms i look at him with an emotion that's building.

"how's this feel?" his genuine curiosity just makes me hug him. unsure how long we stayed like this but it felt great.

"thank you. i'll see you tomorrow please text me once your home" quick and swift i kiss his cheek before tossing him the keys and running to my front door.

finding the gall to look back i wave as he watches me go inside.

moments later he drives off.

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✎𝗌𝗎𝗇𝗃𝖾𝗐𝖾𝗅☀︎︎ 𝗍𝗒𝗉𝗂𝗇𝗀 ．．．

slow but steady i'm figuring out how I may want this story to go, rafe and lilith are sped up a bit after this chapter. 

✩ 𝖣𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝖿𝗈𝗋𝗀𝖾𝗍 𝗍𝗈 𝖺𝖽𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗅𝗂𝗌𝗍𝗌, 𝗏𝗈𝗍𝖾 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝗆𝖾𝗇𝗍 ✩