𝗹𝗶𝗹𝗶𝘁𝗵'𝘀 𝗽𝗼𝘃

waking up to rafe beside me is a new comfort, i'd been able to fully map out his face with my eyes closed. for if i ever go blind. sneaking out of bed i head downstairs to make breakfast. turkey bacon for me, bacon for him, eggs, pancakes with strawberries in it. coffee, with two glasses of that wine we drank last night. last but not least his gift took awhile to choose one that'd speak his language but i got it.

upstairs i wake him with kisses on his face his eyes carrying a small innocence, even though the depths of hell have touch them. those blues in this light haunting me like their meant for me and only me. on his head blonde bed hair as i run my hands through them "mm lili love why are you waking me?" his eyes fixate on my breakfast in his tray giving me a sleepy for, me? look. smiling i nod and say "for us both mines is right there but yes and i have a surprise for you so go freshen up" kissing me quick. rafe makes his way to his bathroom. we've been in his house, playing house for the week so far, my father's allowed it as long as i have dinner at home, check in, and know when friday comes it's back home.

sipping some wine rafe kisses me lingering on his breathe the sweet wine as he spoke "i'm glad we got acquainted fully, lilith" my name from those lips shook me. my full name just like i felt when i had first told him. this game of home was immense in emotions, explosions of small fires in my body, mind, soul over a boy who'd be a teenage lover in the future.

kissing more melting into one another as his hand traces my skin with fragility like i'd break any second. "mm. we. gotta. eat. g—" cutting me off with more of his lips "gets cold yes, yes" rafe adds.

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finishing our meal i drain the contents of my wine after my last coffee sip getting comfortable, i curl around his body placing my ear on his heart beating the same tempo as mine.

holding his gift up to him, slight maneuvering he seats up a bit to take it from me and look. rafe is laughing at my corny poem inscribed on his new journal, a necklace with my initial on it. last a poster of the current k drama we are watching.

rafe taps my waist for me to look at him "hmm" before i get a chance to continue his lips are on mine. we've never kissed this way before, it feels like a plea, a cry for help in the distance. like what i've done for him has soon left him sad, forever in my debt.

pulling apart rafe smiles against my lips as he said "thank you lili i love everything"

"could you put this on for me?" he hands me the necklace it's a gold chain but this jeweler asked if it needs anything special. i said surfer, sun all the time, and put my initial l. i was gonna do my full name but decided against it. so he put conch shells that been gold plated by the initial to make it stand out. "you like the necklace forreal" my hands in his hair as i tug and play in it.

"yes lili" the sincerity in his eyes tell me it isn't a lie.

"whatcha wanna do today?"

"surf, k-drama watch along, go for a drive, we must have a nap time, games, dinner, something steamy" the smile plastered on my face must tell him let's get moving. rafe races to the bathroom to get ready for our day.

to conserve time he wants to shower with me, "— in here now" this commanding tone i've had yet to know sends electric shocks through me.

you can guess what happened right??

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my hands out stretched as the sun bounces off my arms, tingling my skin with warmth. my curls flowing with the wind, rafe's hands on my thigh as he drives just to drive. our surf turned into a competition, we projected the korean drama in the car and watched with the waves in the background.

"you look so beautiful right now" rafe's voices pulls me from my thoughts "thank you, what about you so handsome" i stare at him as i caress his cheek.

biting his lip as he watches me for a few "not even you look sexy right now" i spoke correcting my former statement.

his kilowatt smile makes my heart stop, he let's go of the wheel to run his hands through his hair "use this hand prince!" he rakes his hands in his hair whenever he's nervous, thinking, for my pleasure when time calls for it.

"i just don't want to let you go, touching you is something i'm always doing"

"true one of your love languages"

"how far are we now?" i continue.

"fifteen more minutes from my house"

"are we skipping the nap?"

"yup i think we can"

"lunch"

"take out, our we cook" rafe contemplates our options he looks at me expectant for me to choose"mm i'd say take out" nodding rafe makes a detour to head towards the tiny restaurant strip we have in the outer banks. it's a area you'd stumble upon if lost. we get our favorite dish and dessert to eat at his house.

rafes phone rang, "hello?" his one sided conversation seemed to be with his dad he mouthed to me so i wouldn't be confused and in the dark. his conversation lasted the rest of the car ride to his house.

once we got to rafe's house, he was in his dad office all night the first day he wasn't with me twenty-four seven. since i didn't want to eat alone, i waited.

"lili, you didn't have to wait for me" rafe voice is hoarse, sultry, a bit raw even. flashing back to the slight shouting i heard earlier in the night.

"prince but i wanted to, tea?" he nods as he pulls me into an embrace, wrapping his hands around my waist which makes me place my arms around his neck. rafe looks at me as if all my thoughts are in his eyes, in his thoughts. one of the many things that makes us click. he senses my curiosity even before i do.

"my father wanted me to put somethings into place for tomorrow so before he comes home things are done. ward cameron got major anger when mentioning i was spending time with you so why shouldn't i do his chores. we argued about it but in the end everything's sorted"

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my minds free at the feel of the whip hitting my ass, i yelp.

"don't. stay. silent. lili. or i'll hit you harder than this" rafe's gruff voice piqued my interest, the heat traveling from my soft spot is unbearable.

"stop. teasing"

"did i say you could speak?!" he hits me once more causing me to scream from the pleasure and pain. ever since we recreated the scene rafe saw his father do. the breathe play, the belt, we explored this realm more in the bedroom. role playing but essentially taking the roles serious.

"no, sir"

"before we continue your safe word"

"moon"

which gets me a peck on the lips just as fast as i wanted more. processing whatever he does to me never gets to intake in my brain, he doesn't let up. the power in his eyes, the hunger, crave in mine. when we embark on this my second guard drops. the one that's where all my emotions that go unexpressed. my anger, my sadness, grief, my nympho goddess inside.

it's cathartic. once we had an experience using shabari rope, my favorite, after our intense fuck. the tears that sprung ready to rain down, i had to run to the bathroom. draining all the repressed emotions that surfaced until i felt better. silent tears to not alarm rafe.

happens every once in awhile after a intense encounter of our bodies.

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our last night together playing house, i have to leave tomorrow morning. a smiling rafe looks at me from the bottom of the stairs as i descend my dress clinging to me. we thought fancy dinner for the last night, "you look—" rendered speechless rafe pulls me into a small hug. smiling against my hair, which causes me to smile against him.

"how's your voice now?"

"better, shall we?"

nodding we make our way.

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"rafe, are you sure you're ok? I'll come with you to the meeting if it's allowed"

rafe just went to see barry, to check in on a friend in his eyes and barry was bagging for re-ups his words to me was "tempting the lines fate, this would be a sin. pure as snow fresh out the brick. lili my willpower raised because i'd drop all this progress before in two seconds."

i'm beyond proud of him because he's been clean for almost four months now. it's been a whirlwind of a switch from when we first met to now. he's done so much to improve himself i can't help but admire his bravery to be in recovery, to be in sobriety.

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✎𝗌𝗎𝗇𝗃𝖾𝗐𝖾𝗅☀︎︎ 𝗍𝗒𝗉𝗂𝗇𝗀 ．．．

I'm literally at a wall here with this one. I want a happy ending for this story but I can't think of what to leave off with. I'm doing thirty chapters once more too.

✩ 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝖿𝗈𝗋𝗀𝖾𝗍 𝗍𝗈 𝖺𝖽𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗅𝗂𝗌𝗍𝗌, 𝗏𝗈𝗍𝖾 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝗆𝖾𝗇𝗍 ✩