so as you all know, i'm currently on hiatus. but since it's my birthday (AND THE START OF TXTS TOUR!!), i thought it'd be nice for me to come on here for a bit and just thank you all.

i started this account in april 2020, my life was a mess, covid had just started, and wattpad was my escape. i started reading bts added member fics and fell in love with the genre (?).

i wrote my first ever book in what i believe to be late 2020. it was a bts added member book, with a terrible cover. my theme was disgusting, the book was unorganized, and my writing was worse than a first grader's.

at one point, i had four books out, and 20 drafts. the four books were terrible, my bts member, my seventeen member, my nct member, and a bts manager au. i thought i was killing it, but i now look back at that time of my life and realize how bad it was. my mental health was almost at an all time low, and wattpad was all i had. like i said earlier, it was an escape from my home life i severely dreaded. as time went on, i've learned how to cope with things the right way. but i still have a special place in my heart for this app and my first ever book.

i can only thank one person for the growth of my account. it was during the time of the mingyu situation. i can't remember this person's username and it breaks my heart. they sent me a dm with constructive criticism and went to the point of completely revamping my account in a google doc. i still have that google doc. without them, i bet you i would still be at 10 followers. now i'm almost at 400. whoever that is, i love you, i miss you, and i thank you with all i have.

because of that one person, i learned how to reach out to new people. i gathered up the courage and asked someone if i could use their layout. my fingers shook with every single letter i typed, but i did it. so thank you, @/ha3chanies !! without you, my books would definitely be as unorganized as they were previously. i love you <3

i've made many friends on this app, friends i genuinely wouldn't trade even if i got the entire solar system in return. every day i look forward to talking to these friends and i hope one day we can meet in person. i love you all so fucking much.

3 years ago, i couldn't imagine having what i have currently. i know i don't have that many followers, but i'm insanely proud of myself and grateful to all the 390 people who currently follow me. i don't know what i would do without you all. you're all my motivation to keep writing, even when i think i can't do it anymore. i love you all. thank you.

i hope in the future i can become a better writer that you all will support. i am still learning and growing, and i appreciate the fact that you all are still with me and commenting/voting on my books. i can't imagine a world where i would still have this app without all of you. my good experience with this stupid orange app is all because of you.

i love you all so fucking much, it's insanely hard to articulate. but i'll say one thing: thank you. from the bottom of my heart, thank you. thank you so fucking much.