❝ '𝗽𝘂𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗱 𝘂𝗽' 𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗮𝗶𝗱.
𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗮 𝗹𝗶𝗼𝗻.
𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁
𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗻𝗲𝗶𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗵𝗲𝗲𝗽 ❞
- 𝗔𝘁𝘁𝗶𝗰𝘂𝘀

𝗔𝘃𝗮'𝘀 𝗣𝗢𝗩

I'm laying down in my tent and trying to will myself to fall asleep when I hear the zip open.

"Took your damn time. Where the hell have you been?" I ask without opening my eyes.

"Ava" A deep voice says and I shoot up straight, opening my eyes.

I see Bellamy crouching down at the opening of my tent with a lit torch.

"For fuck sake, jackass. You scared the shit out of me!" I scold him.

"Well maybe you should check who's walking into your tent. I could have been anybody" He scolds me as though I'm a child.

"I thought you were Octavia" I mumble, frowning at the fact he just scolded me.

"Well, I wasn't" He retorts.

"But have you seen her?" He adds.

"No. Not since this morning" I state.

He walks away but I grab my jacket and pull myself to my feet, running after the boy.

"We should get Clarke. She might know where Octavia is" I suggest.

"I'm way ahead of you" He replies and sure enough I see Clarke.

"You're up?" Bellamy asks and Clarke rolls her eyes, getting up.

"Yeah. Knowing that hundreds of people might be dying on the Ark makes it pretty hard to sleep" Clarke spits angrily.

"Raven's flares will work" Bellamy replies confidently.

"Her radio would've worked better" Clarke retorts.

"All right you two" I huff and they both look at me "As much as I love watching you both argue, my friend is missing and excuse my damn french but I'm fucking worried about her, okay?"

"Have you seen Octavia?" Bellamy asks Clarke.

"No. I mean, It's Octavia. She's probably chasing butterflies" Clarke basically scoffs and I glare at the older blonde.

"Clarke, I've checked the camp. She's not here" Bellamy argues.

"Okay. I'll help you find her" Clarke nods.

"Let's check again. You go to the drop ship. I'll check the rest of the tents" Clarke orders and I frown.

what about me?

"Thank you" Bellamy says gratefully.

"Don't thank me. I'm not doing this for you. I'm doing it for Octavia" Clarke replies.

Clarke heads off to search the tents and I stop, trying to think of where else my friend might be.

"Are you coming or what?" I hear Bellamy ask and I look up at him.

"I'll be right back. Go on without me" I tell him and he looks at me skeptically.

"Don't do anything stupid, Ava" He warns me in a serious voice.

"Please, Bellamy" I scoff.

He gives me a stern look and I roll my eyes.

"Fine. I won't do anything stupid" I grumble and he nods.

I turn my back to the man and run straight through the tents and out the camp wall.

I sprint through the woods, as fast as my legs will possibly take me until I get to the waterfall. I stop by the rock Octavia and I sit on, looking around.

"Octavia?!" I shout.

"Octavia!" I holler this time.

yeah, yeah, I know that it's dumb as hell to be shouting in the middle of the forest because of grounders, but Octavia is missing! if I gotta fight off a grounder to find my friend then I will

No one responds and I let out a frustrated groan, kicking a rock. I hear a twig snap and I immediately pull my knife from my boot.

Another twig snaps from a different direction and I spin around.

I will not yell out 'who's there'

I will not yell out 'who's there'

I will not yell out 'who's there'

I chant the sentence in my head before letting out a sigh and rolling my eyes.

ah, what the hell

"Come on out, bitch! I know you're there!" I shout.

The sound of running is heard behind me and I spin around to be faced with a girl running at me. I duck out the way and she ninja rolls over me before jumping to her feet.

I guess I lied to Bellamy, but what can I say? trouble is my middle name

I put my knife in my sleeve and show her my fists with a smirk on my face.

"There you are. I knew you wouldn't leave me hanging" I tease and she growls at me, like an actual animalistic growl.

"Whoa. No need for the attitude, missy" I joke and she doesn't seem to appreciate my humour because then next thing she does is pounce at me.

My back hits the forest ground and I'm punched in the mouth. A warm metallic taste enters my mouth and I grab the girl's face, head butting her in the nose.

She rolls off me holding her bloody nose and I spit blood onto the ground, getting ready to fight again.

She runs at me again but this time instead of ducking, I swing at her face. My fist connects with her eye and she grabs my hair, bringing my head down to slam her knee into my face which makes a sickening crack sound through the air.

son of a bitch!

The hit to my nose makes my eyes water as I stumble backwards and she uses my distraction to her advantage by grabbing my shoulders and slamming her knee into my stomach. I double over in pain, a scream leaving my lips and she grabs my hair, pulling me up again.

Without hesitation I sweep her off her feet, something I've become very good at during my seventeen years of friendship with Finn and then jump onto her.

I lay punches into her face as she struggles underneath me and she manages to dig her nails into my thigh making me shout in pain, rage speeding through my body.

Without actually thinking about the situation at hand, I grab my knife and my brain screams at me not to do it but before I can stop myself I sink the knife into her neck.

Blood spurts at me making me grimace at the feeling as the liquid hits my face and runs down my neck.

oh my God

I scramble to my feet and stare down at the body in shock, not quite understanding what i've just done.

My gaze drops to the bloody knife in my hand and my heart beats loudly against my chest. I hear another twig snap behind me and I spin around, getting ready to defend myself but it's not a grounder that I'm met with. 

"Ava?" His voice asks in disbelief.

"Monty" I breathe out, eyes wide and out of breath "I can explain!"

"What the hell happened?" He demands, rushing towards me and I wipe my knife on my shirt before slipping it into my boot.

"She attacked me. So I- So I defended myself" I explain.

"She's dead. You killed her" He counters.

"She wasn't going to stop. I had to!" I argue and he pushes his hair back in frustration.

"We have got to go now. Quick! Before more of them show up!" Monty stresses but I stay rooted in my spot, looking back at the dead grounder on the floor.

"Ava!" He shouts and I snap my gaze to him.

"Yeah, I'm sorry" I mumble.

He grabs my arm and we run through the forest towards camp. I check behind us worriedly multiple times on the way home and Monty stays alert as well.