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(finally a longer chapter !! stay tuned to the end for a little vent session, it'd be appreciated if everyone read <3)

❝𝐢 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐚 𝐬𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐠❞
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❝ 𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐭𝐨 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐝❞

Nonetheless, you and Connie packed up and headed back home. You clenched onto Bawney and Sean's cage as Connie hastily drove to the hospital where you met your friends. They were all waiting in the lobby for you two. Apparently nobody would've felt right going in before you.

"Hey." Mikasa greeted you with a tight hug before she caught a glimpse of the small hamster cage in your hand. "Anddd you guys bought hamsters on the way here ?"

"Long story," you answered quickly.

"Excuse me." You all turn to see a nurse in all blue scrubs walking towards you. "You all are here for Samuel Rodriquez ?"

"Samuel ?" Jean questions from behind Mikasa.

Samuel Rodriguez was Papi's actual name. But since he didn't like to be called that, for reasons you, my beloved reader, would find out soon, you guys always opted to call him Papi. It's his childhood nickname.

"Yes. We are," you answer the woman. She nods and proceeds to lead you guys to the room Papi was in. You knew where he was already though since you always visited him while he was in his coma.

You took a deep breath before walking into his room. But when you did, you were greeted with the sight of him still with a tube connected to him and with the same casts and bandages you saw him in last time you visited. It must've slipped your mind that even though he woke up, he wasn't fully healed. He was reading one of the books you forgot by his bedside.

You felt Connie's hand tighten in yours, since he could tell you were a nervous wreck.

Everyone filed into the room one by one. Tears began to well up in your eyes but you quickly blinked them away. "Mr. Rodriguez. You have visitors," the nurse spoke before exiting the room to allow you all to have some private time.

Papi looked up from the book. "Hey Pa'." You sheepishly waved at him as you and Connie walked closer. Instead of what you expected to be a smile, his face remained blank and a little confused.

"Hi. I'm sorry if this is rude but who are you ? Wait no are you my girlfriend ?"

Immediately, you felt your heart sink to your stomach in a violent and swift motion. What was he talking about ? You're (y/n). How could he not remember ? In fact you were the one whose name he said before slipping into the long sleep.

You quickly rid of these thoughts in your head since it really wasn't his fault and you knew that. But it still hurt like a bitch. Connie draped his arm over your shoulder and pulled you a little closer. You cleared your throat before answering so that your voice didn't shake while you spoke. "I'm (y/n) and we're really close friends," you laugh.

Papi might have just woken up, but he could tell his question upset you. "Oh right right. Sorry I remember now," he answered before passing off a forced laugh.

You smiled at his attempt to make you feel better. "It's okay if you don't," you lied. "We'll have plenty of time to catch up when you get out."

"Do you remember any of us ?" Armin asked, stepping closer to the bed.

Papi chewed his bottom lip as he scanned across the room. He took his time with each face until he pointed to someone in the room. "Her but not that much."

You turned to look at who he was pointing to and it was Sasha. Her eyes widened with shock as she quickly looked at you for your reaction but you turned your head in the other direction.

"What do you remember ?" Eren asked. He was a little pissed to given the fact how close he was to Papi.

"We're friends. Really good friends like as if she's a sister. I think we met at a salon or something. Right ?" He looked at Sasha for confirmation.

"Y-Yeah. Me, (y/n), and Mikasa own it," she answered, giving him a small smile.

He nodded. "That's all I remember though but if it helps some of you look and sound familiar."

"How ?" Connie looked at him with curiosity.

"Well her voice. I remember hearing it while I was sleep. You told me a story my tia used to tell me." Papi pointed at you. "But for some reason I can't remember you. And him. I remember seeing your face too." Papi then directed his finger towards Eren."I'm sorry I'm really trying to remember you all."

Jean smiles before inching closer to the bed. "It's all good. Just give it time."

"What about the night of the accident ? Do you remember that ?" Eren asked once again. He didn't have any bad intention behind it but surely if he remembered Sasha, he would remember what happened. Right ?

Wrong. He shook his head. "I remember small parts. Like a boat, the ambulance, and that it was night. I was actually hoping you guys would know ?"

All of you exchanged looks. And as selfish as it sounded you were angry Sasha was the one Papi fully remembered. As mentioned before, it wasn't his fault but still. Sasha wasn't the one driving two hours to his aunt's house to get childhood stories. Sasha wasn't the one spending every second that she wasn't in the shop sitting at Papi's bedside. Sure she would visit from time to time but not like you.

But despite all of this, you couldn't stand for Papi to revisit the moments leading up to the accident. That would hurt him more than any injury ever could. "Let's focus on how we're gonna celebrate when you're released instead," you smile.

"Yeah I'm thinking girls, club, girls, studio, repeat." Eren had no problem popping himself in the chair next to Papi's bed and talking his ear off about his plans.

Papi looked over at Eren with his lips curved up into a smile. "Yo are we brothers ?"

"Mind as well be," Mikasa chimes in.

"Not gonna lie, I feel like you're my soulmate bro. What's your name again ?"

Eren laughs. "Eren."

"That sounds fun and everything but we should have an option for you know," Connie cleared his throat. "The ones with girlfriends."

"What about a block party ?" Armin suggests.

It wasn't a bad idea. Sure it would be something to plan but it was for Papi so you didn't mind. Plus you guys used to have block parties at the shop all the time. Usually it would be in the summer but with Halloween coming it would be something fun to do. "I mean we'd have to start planning now. Halloween is two weeks away."

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Once you got home, you couldn't shake everything that happened. It was clear to everyone else that you were bummed out but you didn't say anything. You went to your closet and found a little shoe box in the back of it. Inside of it, there was a pack of edibles you saved for stressful moments like this.

Just as you were about to put one of the weed infused gummies in your mouth, you heard a knock on your door. It was Sasha. You slightly opened the door ,poking your head through it. "Yes ?"

"Can we talk for a minute ?"

You look back into your room at the gummy you put on the desk and looked back at Sasha. "Will it take long ?"

"I don't think so."

You sighed and let her in. You walked over to your bed and waited for her to speak. "Is that one of your emergency edi-"

"Just go ahead Sasha. No need for small talk," you cut her off.

"Listen about what happened at the hospital. I'm sorry I swear I didn't think I'd be the one he'd remember. I just feel really bad."

You looked down at your hands before looking back up at her. Since the two of you never really got the opportunity to settle the tension between you two, in this moment, all the anger you felt rushed out of you. "Sasha I'll be honest. How 'bad' you feel is the least of my worries right now."

This was the first time you ever spoke to Sasha in this tone. You, Mikasa, and her barely argued for real. And on the occasion you guys did, it was something ya'll could squash within five minutes.

"So can you speak to me ?! This is the longest we've ever been in a spot like this."

"I wonder why that is."

"It's fine if you still think I played a part in everything. I've been beating myself up about it for months. But we're gonna have to move past this eventually."

You sigh. "I know but it's hard." You saw drops of water begin to fall from your face and onto your hands you kept in your lap.

Sasha sat next to you and put her head on your shoulder. "So let's talk about it. I promise I'll listen."

And that's exactly what you did. You told her how you also felt guilty that you or somebody else wasn't in the car with him when it happened. You also told her how you felt when she was the only one he remembered. It ended up turning into a session for both of you venting. By the end of it, the both of you were laughing at how weird you guys looked when you cried.

You wiped some of the tears from your face. "Yeah but do you think we should ever tell him about.. it ?"

Sasha shrugged. "He'll probably be mad at me for a while but I deserve it."

"You were drunk, Sash."

"I know but I shouldn't have went that far. But if we ever do tell him, I want to be the one who does it."

You got up from your spot on the bed and went to go get the full pack of edibles from your closet. You hand one to her and take one for yourself. You both dink them together but right before you got the treat in your mouth, there was another knock at the door.

You shot up to go get it and it was Mikasa. "Yeah I was listening through the door this whole time. One you two look crazy, two give me a gummy, and three I'm glad you both squashed it.

now for the author's cute little vent session / announcement corner

Hey guysss. first of thank u for 40k+ reads on superstar it means alotttt

i haven't written a note at the end of a chapter in a minuteee LMAO but yeah here i am

first things first i dont rlly like to address comments on my page bc girl.... i hate to seem like im nitpicking at shit but sometimes they rub me the wrong way

i do wanna say i feel like some of yall dont have any negative intentions with the shit yall say so thats okay

but as for the ones who leave comments kinda.. downplaying certain things in this book.. it makes me itch and id appreciate if yall would like chill.. like some of yall will make an honestly cute moment and make it seem like its cringey LMFAOO like.. damn

so thats really that and heres another thing. if you dont like papi's character character.. keep it to yourself to put it simply. papi is inspired by my guy friendsss from him rapping to him, throwing up signs, and just him being himself.. thats all a reflection of actual ppl i know. so its really like ewlk when i see papi slander (even though its rare) !

besides that i do wanna say thank yall so so so so much for making me feel validated as an author whether its wattpad or somethig outside of this. TW i started writing this book when i was in a. very very very dark time chileee. so seeing it grow like this means alot to me

alsooo imma be doing a litttle q&a live to celebrate this account's growth or whatevaaa so leave questions on this part of the chapter anddddd follow my spam on ig @conniesbabymother .

THATS ALL BYE MY LOVES AND SEE YOU IN THE NEXT ONE