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(don't play the song yet)

❝𝐰𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬❞

Alas, a text didn't come nor did a call. In fact, it was like that for a few days. As much as you wanted to think that he was just busy, this was highly unusual. Each day you would wake up without a text or call, you would text him, still getting no answer.

Well, you figured that today, all of that would change since there was going to be a meeting to give updates on the fundraiser's development. As soon as you got off of work, you headed home and slipped into a tee and sweatpants. When you were done, you decided to go see Connie a little earlier than the meeting, hoping to get to the bottom of what was happening.

You told Mikasa and Sasha before you left. It was a quick drive to his house but once you got there, you felt a little uneasy. You couldn't put your finger on why but still. Like I mentioned earlier. Your intuition was always right.

You put one foot in front of the other, approaching the front door with ease. Once you got there, you knocked. Giving three knocks to be exact.

The door opened but opened a little later than it would usually. It was Eren.

"Oh. Hey (y/n)." He seemed off. He kept on moving his hand along the back of his neck and looking back.

"Hey Eren.... Is everything okay ?"

"Hm ? Yeah yeah of course. Why wouldn't it be ?"

You raised your eyebrow in suspicion. "No reason.. Are you going to let me in ? I need to talk to Connie."

(play the song now & take your time reading for the effect)

"Oh right. He's not here." As soon as he says this, you hear Connie's voice booming from his room, as if he was upset about something. You didn't spend anymore time trying to figure out why Eren was clearly stalling, so you pushed past him. "Wait (y/n)." He grabs you by the arm before you could walk any further.

"Eren what is wrong with you ?" You shake his hand off. You were growing to be a little frustrated as you slowly approached the room.

As soon as you turned the corner, looking through the open doorway, you felt your heart drop into the pit of your stomach. Your breath hitched and your body tenses up.

There he was. Your boyfriend, who had been ignoring you for the past few days, in his room, with her. With Trixie. The very girl he sworn he despised. And she was sitting on his lap. You quickly take a deep breath before being bought out of your character.

Flashbacks of that night you caught Jay in bed with another girl rushed through your head. You felt betrayed. Your throat felt as if it was closing from trying to hold your tears back.

"What is this ?" Your voice was shaky. Eren came up behind you, having his jaw drop at what he was looking at too. Trixie quickly got off of Connie, whose face was turning a bright red. Your mind raced. Why would he be yelling as if he was angry, if he let her on his lap damn near mid kiss? you thought to yourself.

"I-It's nothing. What are you doing here (y/n) ?"He says back, in a tone, he has never gotten with you before.

"I figured I'd come check on you since I haven't heard from you in a few days."

"Like you care," he scoffs.

You feel Eren put his hand on your shoulder. "Come on (y/n). Everyone will be getting here soon. Just talk about what you did some other time."

You quickly turned around slapping his hand off of you. "You knew about whatever the fuck this is ?"

Eren went quiet so you turned around to face Connie. "Fine (y/n). Let's put it all out on the table. I know about you and Hange."

You laugh. "Is this some type of sick joke ? What are you talking about ?"

Connie snatches Trixie's phone out of her hand and holds it out for you to see. When you look, you see two pictures. One of the two of you talking, when Hange put their hand on your thigh and one more of you hugging them before leaving.

Your heart begins to pump out of your chest. He couldn't be serious right now. You look at Trixie then back at him. " And you believed her."

"She showed me pictures (y/n). What do you expect ?"

Your tongue began to poke at your cheek. "And then you decide to have her in your room ?"

"I told you it was nothing ! And you have some nerve to try to spin this on me !" Connie began to raise his voice.

"Spin this on you ? You want to know what happened Connie ? Fine. I went to see Hange to get them to give you a day off, for something I was planning for your birthday, I missed. Granted they got a little carried away and I shut it down ! And that hug you saw, was me thanking them. I was so happy they said yes." One by one tears started to stream down your face. This couldn't be happening again. Connie's face dropped when you gave him your explanation.

"Hey guys what's going on- Oh." You turn to see Mikasa, Sasha, Armin, and Jean now standing in the same doorway as Eren and you.

You ignored them and darted your eyes straight to Trixie. "And you, bitch. You are literally the spawn of a demon. You evil ass, slut ass, autotune using ass, hoe. And if I wasn't worried about my business, I would whoop your ass."

"And you'd be on the floor bitch," she barks back.

Suddenly every care you had vanished. And that anger that you managed to keep away for so long, came rushing back with the force of a raging river. You slowly walked up to her and swung, landing one clean right hook onto her cheek, causing her to fall back. Once she was on the floor, you wasted no time in getting on top of her, giving her all kinds of hits. Open and closed fists.

"(y/n) !" Eren, Sasha, Mikasa, and Armin rush to pull you off of her but Armin and Eren were the only two that was able to hold you while you tried to kick and punch yourself free.

"GET THE FUCK OFF OF ME." They put you down and you turn to Eren, laying a hard slap across his face. "YOU FUCKING KNEW ?! AND LET IT HAPPEN."

Connie stepped forward. "Wait (y/n). Please it's not on him. Just let me exp-"

"Oh like how you let me explain ? Oh wait, you didn't. Fuck you too."

"JUST LISTEN. I didn't ask for her to do that ! She chose to. I shouldn't have let her in my room but she said she would show me the pictures-"

"THE PICTURES THAT WERE WRONG. WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH YOU ?" You sighed deeply, feeling Sasha and Mikasa softly grab you on each arm. "Maybe we don't need to be together and should've just stay friends. If you can't even talk to me about this, how do you expect this to work ?"

"(y/n) I'm sorry it was a misunderstanding."

You ignored him. "And if we're being honest, I don't think I could stand to be around you right now. It was fun while it lasted right ?" The tears kept on coming as you turned around and left out the house. You slipped off the ring, the one he gave you all that time ago and placed it in his hand. "Mikasa and Sasha. Let me know what happens at the meeting tonight, alright ?" You flash the two of them a small smile before taking your leave.

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You're eyes were red and stung from all of the tears you shed over the situation. You were curled up underneath your covers, in the dark, listening to a few Spanish ballads that matched the pain that your heart was enduring.

You couldn't believe it. All of those promises he made about how he would be different than Jay for all of it to turn out as a lie. Honestly you believed for the most part that nothing happened between him and Trixie earlier, but this situation seemed all too familiar.

You cared so much for Connie more than words could ever say. And the mere thought of him doing you wrong, hurt like hell, possibly worse than Jay. You got tired of crying and screamed into your pillow one last time before getting up.

When you did, you lit yourself a blunt and put it in between your lips. You then walked over to your desk and opened the gold-plated box that held all of the memories the both of you shared. Between each puff of marijuana you took, you found yourself letting out laugh-like sobs as you looked at each picture and letter.

And honestly looking through them only made you more upset. The tears you wanted to force away so bad were starting to return. You put the letters and pictures back and checked your phone that you tried to stay off of ever since you got home.

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(𝟓) 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐬 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐦𝐲 𝟒𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐫🤞🏾💏🌹💕

(𝟏𝟎) 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐬 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐦𝐲 𝟒𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐫🤞🏾💏🌹💕

𝐦𝐲 𝟒𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐫🤞🏾💏🌹💕
i'm so sorry
if i could take it all back i would

i swear
i never wanted to see you like this

please call back whenever you feel like it

i should've talked to you first

i can even come see you if you like.

actually you probably don't want to talk and that's okay

take all the time you need
pls just promise to take care of yourself

(6) 𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐬 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐥𝐮𝐛 🥰👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩💕

𝐬𝐚𝐬𝐡𝐚🥔 / 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐜𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐠𝐟 #𝟐👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩
hey (y/n)
we love you and we'll make sure to get you something to eat before we come back

𝐦𝐢𝐤𝐚𝐬𝐚 💜/ 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐜𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐠𝐟 #𝟏👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩
and you don't have a choice you're going to eat
but just know we love you
and everything will be okay

𝐬𝐚𝐬𝐡𝐚🥔 / 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐜𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐠𝐟 #𝟐👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩
also i kicked the shit out of Connie and Eren

(𝟐) 𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐬 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐡 𝐦𝐜𝐣𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐫🦅🤨

𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐡 𝐦𝐜𝐣𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐫🦅🤨
im sorry (y/n)
i wish i would've known the full thing..

(𝟏) 𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐧 ❤️🌊

𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐧 ❤️🌊
i'll be over with the girls later. we can talk about it. im so sorry. i wish i was home

You put your phone down, not replying to anyone and continued to smoke the blunt. You thought of what could've been if maybe the both of you made different decisions. Right person wrong time right ? You could admit you'd miss him like hell. But it was for the better. You stayed, laying at the ceiling until you dozed off. When you fell asleep, reminiscent dreams filled your head.