TW // slight nsfw (no smut), mention of watching porn, making out
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"Donghyuck! Your boyfriend's here!" Mrs. Lee announces.

Renjun sighs on the couch. Jeno, who's beside him, looks at him and speaks.

"Dude, I don't know what happened to him. He just suddenly became like that. He's a totally different person now."

"Yeah, he became so mean." Renjun replies.

Jeno laughs, "Well, he's a bit mean before he went into comatose, but he was doing it jokingly. But now, I think he became mean for real. Like, yesterday, he made Mark hyung made him a coffee and he didn't even drink it. Then later on, he said he didn't want it anymore. What the fuck!"

Renjun exhales. He doesn't know what caused him to be like this, but he believes Donghyuck will be back to his real self.

It's been almost an hour now since Mrs. Lee called him but Donghyuck didn't even get downstairs.

"Uh, Mama, can I go to his room, instead?" he shyly asks, standing up from the couch.

Mrs. Lee nods, wide smile on her lips, "Of course, of course! He may be sleeping that's why he doesn't hear me."

Renjun bows and walks to the stairs. He goes up until he reaches his room. He knocks first before opening the door. His jaw drops upon seeing his boyfriend laying on his stomach while watching gay porn from an ipad.

"Hyuck!"

Donghyuck turns his head towards him and loudly gasps. "Renjun!" He pauses the video and sits up then squeezes his thighs together. "W-what are you doing h-here?"

"I'm here to visit you." Renjun replies and walks over to the bed but Donghyuck stops him.

"D-don't come near me. Get out! Who gave you the permission to enter my room?"

Renjun exhales. "Well, if you're watching porn, you should've locked your door so no one could barge in and catch you." He continues to sit on the edge of the bed. "Do you need any help?"

"N-no!" Donghyuck gulps. "Get out, Huang!" He throws a pillow at the older, and good thing Renjun catches it before it even hit him.

"I have something for you." Renjun says and pulls out a small box from his pocket.

Donghyuck furrows his eyebrows, watching the older as he takes the box's lid off and picks up a bracelet inside.

"I... I'm not accepting that."

Renjun pouts, "You don't have to wear it if you don't want to. I just want to give it to you. Today's our 9th monthsary, Hyuck."

Donghyuck glances at the bracelet then stares at him with dark eyes. "How can I be so sure that we're really boyfriends? I don't even remember you."

"It doesn't matter," Renjun utters, "we can always make new memories." He moves closer and gently taps his thigh, making Donghyuck's leg twitch slightly. "I won't give up on you."

"It's so hard to live with no memories of the past. I feel like there's something missing in me but I don't know what it is. There's a void in my heart that I couldn't remember yet I need it."

"That's why I'm here, Hyuckie. Let me help you." Renjun holds Donghyuck's hand and wear the bracelet around his wrist. "Happy monthsary. Even though you don't remember me."

Donghyuck stares at his eyes softly. Renjun smiles, feeling like he's melting anytime. The younger bites his lower lip, his gaze travels down onto the older's lips.

"Since you're here already," Donghyuck lowly says, "and you said you want to help me," he then gulps, "why don't you help me get rid of this pain... down there."

Renjun gulps. They haven't done it. They never did it. He has never done it with anyone, either. Yet he found himself nodding at Donghyuck's statement. "Anything for you."

Donghyuck moves closer, placing his hand on Renjun's thigh. He leans his face towards the older's and slowly presses his lips on Renjun's soft ones.

It's been so long since Renjun felt the younger's lips onto his own. He honestly misses this so much. He longed for this for so long, it hurts.

When he kisses Donghyuck back, he can't hold his tears from falling out of his eyes. Donghyuck notices but he didn't point it out. The kiss is soft and gentle, Renjun feels like melting into his arms.

Donghyuck licks Renjun's lip and the older immediately complies and opens his mouth slightly. Donghyuck inserts his tongue inside his mouth. He doesn't know why but he felt like he's memorized every part of Renjun's cavern. After that, he goes back to kissing his lips.

But he stops when he hears a sob from Renjun. He pulls back and looks at him. "W-why? We don't have to do this—"

"No!" Renjun exclaims, "I want to do this with you."

"Then, why are you crying?"

"I just miss you." Renjun gently pushes the younger on the bed to make him lay down and crawls on top of him.

Donghyuck gasps and holds Renjun's tiny waist. "Do you really want to do this?"

"Yes, yes!" Renjun kisses him again and Donghyuck kisses back.

Renjun wants to cry again. Donghyuck is so gentle while kissing him, massaging the skin of his waist. The way he is kissing and holding him right now is as passionate as the first time they had their first kiss.

t's like, even though Donghyuck's brain can't remember anything, but Renjun knows his heart still remembers him.

Donghyuck pulls away and flips their position. Now, Renjun is lying on the bed while the younger is on top of him.

Renjun stops him when he's about to lift his shirt. "Donghyuck, wait!"

"Huh, why?"

"Lock the door first."

Donghyuck rolls his eyes at him and gets off him to lock the door quickly. He goes back on top of him and glares at him, "Stop interrupting."

"Tsk! What if someone barges in and catches us having—"

"Shut up now! I already locked the door!"

Renjun sighs and looks away. He just let the younger take off his clothes. He can't look at him like this. He misses the old Donghyuck.
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