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He doesn't remember when he reached the hospital. The entire earth was like shaking to him. Everything was noisy. The earlier traffic was no joke, but that didn't stop him.

The fear of being alone again was eating him alive. All these years of being lonely and deserted were like a curse to him. And all he wanted was to break that curse out.

And he did that too but for now, he failed to protect the only person which was keeping him feeling that way.

The emotions which were bubbling inside his heart are scaring him. No doctor was coming out of the operation theatre. Five minutes were already passed. He was still sitting in the chair, legs shaking in nervousness and confusion.

Slight teary eyes looking down at the shining white marble floor where he saw different types of shoes running towards respective rooms.

But from the room of hers, no one came out.

"So you're Taehyung?"

A monotonous voice asked, with a little hint of sympathy present in it. Taehyung saw a person with wide shoulders, a pink hoodie, a natural bare face, Jin who was looking at him with an unknown expression.

Hands folded, attached to his broad chest. He looks intimidating, but that was just a facade. Because the moment Taehyung looked up to see the boy, Jin's voice changed, turned soft.

"Hey, are you alright?"

Taehyund nodded timidly and again looked down, still so lost in the situation he was in but slightly flinched when he felt a presence near him sitting on the right following chair.

"I was the one who called you. And maybe you remember me, I am the guy from last night."

Jin explained, and all Taehyung did was nodded because he knows who the person is. But he tried to not make it obvious, "Yes, I remember." He sniffled and answered while wiping the flowing tears, and Jin hummed in understanding.

A part of Jin wanted to ask many questions about the girl who he safeguarded in his house last night.

But the other part of him was understanding the circumstances and the current situation. He needs to stop thinking about asking questions to the poor boy.

He has to console him because the boy is undergoing stress, it's all written on his pale, totally colorless face. So he did what he wanted despite how he saw the same person last night, drenched in alcohol and liquor.

"She will be fine. Though doctors never said that but I hope she will be." He softly patted Taehyung's left shoulder, trying to soothe him with his voice.

All Taehyung did was shake his head in sadness, he gulped aloud and looked up straight to the wall, struggling to control his breathing due to how heavy his heart feels at this moment.

Jin, who he thought will despise him for acting the way he did to him last time was here comforting the same person like a big brother.

"I apologize for my behavior last night. I was out of my senses." The younger one sniffled and delivered a sentence while crying.

"Hope you un-understand that." He stuttered in front of the other, breaking the barriers of his close heart.

In response, Jin smiled wholeheartedly and nodded, a beautiful smile curved in his face, shooting safe and bright energy in the younger's mind.

Taehyung saw how much the other was sparkling, despite all the sadness. He saw how positive he is, just by looking at him he can say he just came to know a very good person.

The younger wiped his face and properly cleaned it when the other passed some tissues from his pocket. Just after the five minutes of them being silent, they heard a noise.

A gate opening noise.

Without waiting a further second, Taehyung stands up abruptly, startling the elder a little bit. But they both gain posture and started to talk to the doctor.

Taehyung started first, concern dripping in his voice as he delivered the first sentence, "How is she? Is she okay?"

Jin hummed in understatement that same question was flooding inside his mind. The doctor not even nodded or answered, he just bounces a different question back to both of them.

"Who is her family from two of you?" After taking off the green mask, he narrowed his eyes to both the boys in front of him.

"I...I am her family."

Taehyung answered, voice unstable and broken. He looks expectantly towards the doctor. When he heard a slight murmur.

"Yes, he is. I am just a. . .friend." Jin mumbled, underneath his breath, not disappointed or something, just trying to say the truth.

The doctor sighed while tightening his lips he responded, "I need to talk to you. Please this way." gesturing his hand in the left direction towards one of the white rooms.

They walked away from there leaving Jin who quietly sat down on the chair to wait.

Everything was silent, no communication was performed between them till they reached the white cabin. They both entered the room and sat down in the usual places.

After a whole thirty seconds, the doctor started his series of questions, not seeing how much the other was afraid of answering. "Does she live with you?"

"Yes, Doc." He answered, fingers shaking in anxiousness.

"Okay so does she go to school or has any job she is working on?" The doctor again questioned, now collecting the closed files in his hand, which were scattered on the table.

He opened one of them when Taehyung answered. "Yes, she goes to school with me. She is doing part-time too. Why d-doctor?"

"She is underweight. It seems like she didn't feed for like weeks. She overworks herself without eating anything, that's what makes her body lose control over herself. Because of not getting any sleep in days she has dark circles underneath her eyes. From the reports. . ."

He scanned the file again, studying all the details while the other felt he failed her.

The sentiments Taehyung was feeling now were only notifying him that he failed to take care of the only one person who lives with him.

The only person who he oath to take care of till she cured with all the trauma and pain.

The damage which was caused by others, he wanted to lessen that, but what is he doing now?

Her suffering is not decreasing. And now after all the thoughts which were running in his mind when he was in his house this morning and explaining the fact that he did exactly the opposite of what he said to her.

He didn't take care of the only family he has.

". . .she had mild anorexia. And if her condition worsens, this disorder will harm her more than anything else because her body is suffering from stress and depression too which invites all the other problems. I think you know it's like the cherry on top."

He listened to everything properly, don't know what to say about it. The silence was creeping him out. However, when he thinks about asking more, the doctor beats him to it and explained.

"I think you don't know what is it. Allow me to enlighten you."

The doctor asked and all the other did was nodding his head, don't know what to do anymore.

He failed to protect her.

He promised.

There's no excuse in it.

The doctor hummed, "Hmm. So it is an eating disorder where a person abnormally loses their body weight. The person didn't eat properly in this disease. It also includes emotional and behavioral issues. It can happen because the person has a strong fear of gaining weight or becoming fat."

"It may be difficult to notice the changes and all the symptoms because they vary from person to person." He stated, looking sympathetically at Taehyung.

"Doc, w-why would a-anyone do that?"

Taehyung asked, after listening to all the terms that he never heard before he feels everything around him spinning again.

"Self-loathe." The doctor explained without any hesitation.

People need to know this. This feeling will creep a person out from the inside.

People don't even know that many of them are undergoing these types of problems in daily life. Every single second they have this undying feeling in the pit of the stomach that they are not enough.

Useless for this world.

"Huh!?" Taehyung gasped about what the doctor said.

His eyes round, full of confusion and sadness as he tried to pour all the given information from the doctor inside his mind.

"Feeling of self-loathing. A person who hates her/his existence on this earth. Sometimes people have this feeling because of extreme bullying. Wait, is she get bullied in school? Do you have any idea?"

"Ah. . . yeah. I t-think." Taehyung stuttered, shame wash all over his face.

Moments of Sun getting bullied by Mina flash in front of his eyes. He remembered the day he even slapped Sun for accusing Mina of something she didn't do.

But all that was wrong.

"And you didn't do anything for her?" The doctor raised his eyebrow in slight confusion.

He blinked his lashes a bit towards the other to know that he wants answers, but Taehyung didn't answer.

"Are you really her family?" He now asked in irritation.

"I -I am. I am her f-family." He stammered in his words, don't want to deny this but still have shame in answering.

"Didn't seem like it."

The doctor heaved a heavy sigh, now putting the file back in its place. He then intertwined his fingers on the table, almost examining the other boy's behavior.

All he saw was a boy who was hesitating to answer but still has tears and was about to bawl his eyes out.

"Look. . . I don't know what's happening between you both but you have to take care of that girl." He declared.

"She has all the symptoms of this disease and is still increasing if not taken care of. Her heart rate is slow, she had hair loss too with drop in blood pressure. You can see her skin is tinting yellow, she is almost going pale. How can you not see she is suffering? It's so obvious."

"Family is all about helping and loving others. See this is not my place to tell you but you need to stop being silent because I am a doctor I can tell you have many questions in your mind. Please ask, I am here for the answer to every one of them."

"But there's something more I need to tell you. But before that, I will advise you to tell her to stop overworking herself. When she came to the hospital, she was already unconscious. Her eyes were puffy too, seems like she cried last night. Her periods are not regular, all because of uneven eating schedule."

Taehyung, closed his eyes, small beads of tears slipped towards his cheeks again wetting them. He sniffled loudly, finally bringing both of the hands on his face to cover it as he sobbed loudly.

God, why is he so stupid?

Now he is crying for what? There's nothing that can be reversed now.

The damage is done.

"It's all okay boy, stop crying." The doctor's voice softly whispered. "You'll recover from this and believe me she can too but about something I don't know if she can." His voice then trailed off.

Taehyung looks up in horror, don't know what's coming now. After everything, something is still left. Why God hates him so much? Why she has to suffer because of him?

Sometimes he thinks she must've been happy without him.

Maybe for the first time, he is right.

All of a sudden the doctor drops the bomb from which Taehyung is well aware. His heart stopped beating for a mere second and all he answered was a sobbing "no".

"I found some signs of senile dementia. We normally call it, Alzheimer."

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