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So guys, it's chapter three I hope you like this. I am nervous for this chapter. I think I am nervous on updating all the chapters hehehe ❤️ Dont forget to give your love to Ms_starsky

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Flashback

As usual I don't eat today. What can I say, it's normal not to eat breakfast and lunch. My head is pounding and stomach growling at me.

I have to eat today, but I don't have that much money. Father knows that I skip my lunch. And I vomit all my food after eating it. He was so stressed. I am so ashamed of my doings. I don't want my father to suffer because of me. My gaze went to my knees seeing the fresh scars he made yesterday. Even if I move a little bit, they pains.

"It will be okay." I sigh slowly making my way to cafeteria, legs badly shaking and stinging at every step. My eyes blur with tears. " One day, I will be okay. Everything will be fine." I mumble under my breath.

"Look who's here, faty fuck!!" A girl laugh at me with her friends. Suddenly whole cafeteria was silent as she slowly walk towards me. I lower my head. I don't like to see these faces everyday.

But....faty?

I didn't even think about my weight when I was walking towards the cafeteria. I find all my hunger vanished by just this word. I was now thinking about how can a word do this much? Words can make you feel different things. A word can make you cry if that hurts you bad. Good words, bad words.. yeah.. father told me. I feel like I am saying big big words. I giggle lightly.

"Words can be magical too...." I don't realise that I said that loud.

"Are you spacing out, when I am here talking to you!!" She shouted. I flinched back. After a second I shake my head slowly.

"LIE, FUCKING LIE...ON MY FACE!! YOU HAVE THAT AUDACITY TO LIE ON MY FACE!! THIS GIRL." She pours all hot milk from her plate to my hairs. I yelp loudly, the milk burns all my scars. Whole cafeteria was laughing loudly.

The scars stings so much. I started sobbing loudly. This is not how I want to be in school. I want to graduate and make my father proud. He think that I am not capable of doing anything. I can't be better in anything. But I want to make him belive that I can do this.

But the moment I step in my school every single of my dream vanished away. I don't know why I don't like this.

My friend love to give me gifts.

But when some other person do anything to me, I don't like it. This is my body I want it to be marked by my parents and my friend. But when they start bullying me, I can't do anything to stop them. They say words that hurts more than these scars.

Once a boy did something. He just said to 'not bother him anymore and he will tell the principal' and all the rich boys beat him till he was half dead.

It was scary at first to see those beatings but father makes it less scary. He loves me so much. He always says to not bring any scars which are done by someone else, because I am his canvas. He paint me with all the blood and scars so they will look beautiful on my body. I don't want any scars now. Father will punish me. I have to calm, one wrong move and they willdo something that's not good for me.

'It will be fine in some seconds' I repeat it in my mind. Suddenly, all the laughter die down and whole cafeteria is silent. I open my eyes as I feel a hand on my shoulder. I look up to see the girl from that day who is my 'friend'.

I give her a small smile. She is always there for me whenever I need her. But she is glaring at someone. Following her gaze, I realise its on the girl who poured milk on me.

But why is she doing like that?

Is she not her friend?

"I told you Sana a fucking million times, stay away from her." She said.

Sana is a beautiful girl, but not with a beautiful soul. 'Curves doesn't define your nature. Weight do not define your personality' you have to give if want to take anything. Father always tell me these biggy sentences.

Sana is the biggest bully in the whole school. She loves to do something you don't like. She smokes and drinks. The thing is that she is the third topper in the whole class. This makes me feel like a fool. I study hard with all those subjects maths and science. I will never get a satisfied position in my life if it will be like this. I get like eighth or nineth place in the class. A voice cut me from further thinking.

"What's my fault in that if you became a softie?" Sana spat on my friend.

"Whatever, Just go away." It's like my friend is not in mood to say anything. I have seen many changes in her. I can't point that out so briefly.

Sana gave her a bored look and walk away. My friend gave me her hand helping me to stand up but the moment I grab her hand and push my legs to the floor to stand up my legs feel like jelly, resulting me to fell down on the floor. My legs gave up on me. I feel my legs shaking due to the pain. She tripped because of my leg, I feel so guilty. I mumbled a 'sorry' to her.

"Stupid baby." She smiles at me while booping my nose and I shyly rest my head on her shoulder. She giggles at my action. The way she treats me is different, I never give a thought that my first friend will be this pretty. She has a great soul. I like her so much.

Oh my, did I just said 'like'?

Like?

Is this how 'like' feels?

Is this is how someone like a person?

Who gives you both pain and pleasure?

Who smiles at your action?

Who compliments your scars?

Who calls you beautiful even if you are not?

"Did it hurt that much, hm?" She asks me sweetly. I nodded slowly, my eyes shine with small tears due to the pain.

Before I can say anything she slipped her hand underneath my legs and lift me in the air. I yelp lightly in this process my hands automatically wrapped around her neck to steady myself.

Gasp left from my mouth and my eye widen when I saw everybody in the cafeteria is staring at us. They are shocked. I want to stop her doing anything further but I know she didn't listen to anyone not even me.

"I a-am h-heavy" I am so embarrassed by my weight and she is just holding me like it's not a big deal.

"You are not heavy. It's just the person who is taking care of you needs to be strong." She smirks at me. I shyly rest my head on her chest.

She walks to the direction of tarrace. We love to be here, we never talk much but we talk about how our life is going. It's just so hard to tell anybody about ourself because of insecurity.

She slowly put my body on the floor, I hissed softly and we both sit there with the beautifully blowing wind. Now if I look at her, she is stunningly beautiful with those long hairs. She has beautiful curves in her body, giving her a perfect figure.

Why can't I have this body?

With those beautiful curves.

So I can say that I am beautiful.

I slowly raise my finger and poke her upper arm. I can't control myself. It feels so pokey. And that's so tight.

Oh.

She looks at me confused. I feel ashamed for touching her but I want to know something.

"A-Are those b-biceps?" Her eyes smiles at my action.

She laughs freely, I never seen her laughing so hard. My cheeks flushed red due to the embarrassment. I feel my eyes blur with tears and I look down.

"Sorry." I feel like I have done something wrong.

Seconds after that her laughter die down, she slowly raise my chin with her index finger. I dont want to look at her. Now she will think that I am not in my right mind state.

Maybe creepy.

Touching her or something. Aishh.

"Hey, what happen?" I shake my head slowly. She gives me a cute warning look. She slowly put my hand on her arms.

"Yes my candy, these are biceps." She smiles at me. I don't know why but whenever she smiles like that to me, I think it's the most beautiful moments in my life. I feel like I can trust her. Gave her everything I have. Just to see her smile like this everyday.

"Okie." I pause for a second, thinking something.

"We didn't do that today." Her face suddenly shows seriousness. Did I said anything bad. We did it like everyday. She loves that. I feel so sad all of a sudden.

Why is she not doing that to me?

"Did you eat anything?" She diverts the topic.

"Yeah." I feel like my voice stuck in my throat. I look down and start playing with my skirt. I don't want to lie. It's breaks the trust of the person.

The moment I feel my plan of convencing her is successful, my stomach glowled loudly making me sigh.

"Aishh. You dumbo. Eat this." She gives me a hamburger from her pocket. She knows what I like, hamburgers are my favorite. But I can't eat that.

I know it's hard to convince her. She is so stubborn, but I can tolerate anything about her. She is only one I have after my family.

I grab the hamburger and took a bite of it and gave it back to her. I munched the hamburger happily.

"See, I ate." I smiled at her, she pats my head softly.

"Aishh, you baby." She smiles and look forward.

The moment she looks forward, the smile on my face falls. I want to shallow that bite, but I can't.

My throat hurts so much. I feel like crying. I have to eat this for her. I keep trying to swallow the one bite but it's not working. It's so heavy, I didnt eat anything like this, it's been months. Tears land on my cheeks making them wet. I turn my head to a side and wipe my tears.

After some seconds I swallow that bite. My throat hurts like hell, it burns. But the progress makes me happy. I closed my eyes feeling the wind then I rest my head on her shoulder. She didn't even look at me and it hurts me.

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