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All the water near me disconnected from my torso, it was there like lifting my body in the air.

With my hazy sight, I saw everything near me, it's blue and white. I am on the clouds. Not a single dot of darkness was there. It is completely flawless, and the perfect environment to make my body relax.

I inhaled the aroma deeply which is wrapping me with it. Closing my eyes in a calming way, feeling the air-kissing my cheeks.

A small smile starts curling on my face as I fully opened my hands in the air, feeling the coldness. I was nowhere screaming and crying. Everything is so peaceful and quiet. A floral odor is making its way towards my nose making me happy.

But wait, flowers in the sky!?

I opened my eyes gradually, they expand a little too much when I saw myself standing on the earth, encircled by a beautiful enormous garden.

I gasped when I felt a soft sensation of something on my hand. My gaze instantly landed on them. They are neat and so soft. All those painful bruises and blackness of healing scars were gone like never been there.

How can it be possible?

My body is completely different from what it was before.

Am I dreaming? Is this not a reality? Is everything here is a trap?

Then I saw her. And everything near me goes blur.

A butterfly on my hand.

Awww, she is so cute.

A fully black body with azure blue and purple patches on her is giving her an elegant look. She is mesmerizingly beautiful with those black antennas. The orange dots on those purple patches on her feathers are gracefully sitting on them.

I saw something in me which is completely similar to her feathers.

My gown.

I was wearing a black gown that has identical characteristics to her. I giggled and was startled by her when she flies and sits on my nose. I scrunched my nose playfully that's when she flies away from me, like asking me to play with her.

I giggled at her silliness and take a step forward to run to catch her. But no garden was there when I blinked my eyes. It was again those clouds.

Is this heaven?

Beautiful and majestic.

But why everything is changing so fast?

I turned around as I heard some chirps coming from behind me. And to my amazement, I saw birds flying in my way in this white and blue sky. After some seconds they passed by me. I was solely jumping in excitement.

What did I do to deserve it? Everything is so wonderful here.

Please be like this, always.

My eyes filled with happy tears, they slipped and landed on my cheeks wetting them. I was not complaining about anything. It was way better than that hell.

Wait! Where are Tiny and bubba?

They had to be here. They should see how beautiful it is to fly in the sky.

That's when I heard a sweet voice near me. The voice was attracting me towards it. My breathing gets heavier in seconds and I moved my head towards every single direction, but all the clouds are going blur now.

What's going on?

Then the voice was gone leaving only confusion in me.

A drop of water landed on my forehead shocking me and bringing me away from my thoughts, to see what is going on, I looked in an upward direction.

Black.

Everything is black there.

Every single cloud was raven up there and it was shifting rapidly towards me changing its shape and size, scaring the shit out of me.

I wanted to run away from here. Away from this agonizing black sky that is coming close to me but my legs aren't moving at all. They are stuck in a cloud.

The black sky was about to touch me when I heard that voice anew, making my heart hurt once more. This time the voice is clear and understandable, it's a boy.

I looked up suddenly and all those dark opaque clouds started moving away from me like the clouds are scared of that voice.

The voice stopped again.

And the second it stops, the rain starts pouring, drenching me with the water. I started shaking in coldness. My teeth chattering from the chilliness.

What's happening here?

My eyes suddenly widen when my trunk dropped somewhere on earth without causing any harm to my body.

I was thunderstruck, how the...??

I was wondering about the unbelievable things that I just go through, just then I heard the voices of many people, talking and giggling. I looked forward to seeing the place. It's was a building.

I have seen this building in my memories. It is very familiar to me.

It is my school building.

I was on the terrace.

The twilight was spreading its wings in the sky making the school looks beautiful in its hold. It was dawn but students can be seen roaming in the corridors and the ground. Suddenly the lights went on making everything crystal clear.

All the voices stopped, the students stopped where they were, not even moving a single inch. Their feet are stuck on the floor like mine before, making me uneasy.

My breathing gets hitched when I heard that voice again.

This time it was more sweet and calm making me feel soft. I closed my eyes, not knowing what's coming for me. Not giving a single fuck about anything around me I listened to his voice.

The boy is humming like no tomorrow making me cry silently with his soulful voice.

Please......don't see,
Just a boy caught up in dreams and fantasies.
Please.....see me,
Reaching out for someone I can't see.

My hands are automatically attached to my heart because of the booming voice. I felt a strong tug, I can't help but clutch it.

It's hurting again.

Take my hand,
Let's see where we wake up tomorrow.
Best laid plans,
Sometimes are just a one-night stand.
I'll be damned,
Cupid's demanding back his arrow.

"My this version is beautiful and the reason is you."

I sucked a deep breath. Suddenly I jerked back and choked on air, my eyes wide as ever. The hairs of my hands stand straight, leading to goosebumps, the only question I asked myself is what was that?

Who?

Who the-? My eyes are roaming around my surrounding, looking for the voice hopelessly.

The voice, so familiar...so distant yet so close to me.

Don't you dare,
Let our best memories bring you sorrow
Yesterday, I saw a lion kiss a deer
Turn the page,
Maybe we'll find a brand new ending
When we're dancing in our tears and god-

I fell on my knees, my hands still on my heart. Tears streaming down from my puffy eyes on my face making everything in front of me hazy. Heart accelerating out of my chest. My eyes were on the floor when...

"I am yours there is no doubt in this, but will you be mine, forever?"

A screech left my mouth when a sharp pain strikes again in my heart as a result I fell ahead. My body connects with the floor with a thud noise but fades away in the beautiful voice.

-tell us the reason,
The youth is wasted on the young, it's hunting season-

My body is sweating profusely, my hands started shaking in fear, the anxiety started screaming at me. 'This voice.....it's hurting me.' I sobbed while crying, not knowing what's happening to me.

'Stop, please!' I begged.

-and the lams are on the run, searching for meaning. Aren't we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?

I thought I saw you out there crying.
I thought I heard you call my name.
I thought I heard you out there crying...

"I am not hurting you. Kissing on your heart is not hurting, it's affection, it's love. I am loving you, I could never hurt you."

Rage started bubbling in me as I listened to the voice, my blood is boiling in anger, but the reason is unknown to me.

I shakingly lift my body with the last ounce of energy left in me. The wrath was helping me with it. I wanted to scream, I wanted to shout at this mesmerizing voice with all my heart.

I hate this!

It's piercing my heart! This is taking my breath away from me!

'I wanted to get out of here. I don't need this heaven. It's KILLING ME.' I shouted in my head, the tears are not stopping, my head is pounding in my skull, with those different memories, and images that are rapidly forming and evaporating, playing games with me.

They are showing me something, which I couldn't able to recognize.

There are many people, everyone is screaming at me. These voices are the cause of the fire which is burning in my body and now it's going to explode at any minute.

"And then there's this voice, which is not stopping at all" I screamed at myself, pulling my hairs in frustration, fear, and sorrow.

I shake my head like crazy, the muscles and veins are causing pain in me. I was never like this. I never did this. Why am I like this screaming?

I want to... I wanted to....!!!

He was continuously humming not giving a single fuck about my pleadings. For the first time, I hear the voice crying like he is in pain.

He is sobbing, just like me.

"You are always beautiful, these scars, these marks on your body, everything told itself that you suffer much. But from now it's my responsibility to love you and cherish every moment with you. I promise you that till my last breath you are the only one who will always stay in my heart."

"STOP IT!! I SAID STOP IT!! FUCKING STOP IT!! MY HEART...... IT'S HURTING! I AM FEELING LIKE I AM GOING TO DIE!! PLEASE STOP FOR GOD'S SAKE!!" I screamed in tears and cried continuously.

I thought I saw you out there crying.
And I thought I heard you call my name.
And I thought I heard you out there crying...

"NO YOU DIDN'T, YOU WERE NOT EVEN THERE WHEN I CRIED MY EYES OUT. YOU WERE NOT THERE WHEN SHE LEFT ME! YOU WERE NOT THERE WHEN THEY KIDNAPPED ME! YOU WERE NOT AT THAT PLACE, WHERE I AM RIGHT NOW!!! ALONE AND SCARED! YOU WERE NEVER THERE, YOU- YOu were n-never there when I s-screamed your n-name. Y-You were late, always l-late. Everywhere...even- EVEN WHEN YOU ENTERED IN MY LIFE! YOU WERE LATE TO PROTECT ME!! YOU WERE LATE IN EVERYTHING!! EVERY FUCKING SINGLE THING!!!" I yelled at the top of my lungs, not knowing what I am saying and to who I am angrily delivering these words.

The emotions, the sentiments are unknown.

My chest is rising and falling in fury, my eyes spilling painful tears but then I dazed out of my thoughts and backed to reality.

What just happened?

Did I just shout? What I just said? Why did I say that? Why am I so angry? Who was that?

My eyes widen when I saw someone's eyes..... near me in my head, in those images, in those threads of memories.

His Bambi's eyes.

So dark yet so fascinating.

"There's nothing I fear, you are here- in my heart, safe and secure. Near or far, it doesn't matter. We both will stay forever this way, in my heart. My heart will go on like this always, just for you."

I fell again on the ground, but this time it doesn't hurt. Though I was in great pain caused by the fall and this burning anxiety. But the pain is sweet now, the darkness is blinding me with it making me scared.

Why everyone has to come into my head? After making a great impact on me they left me like trash like I don't have feelings at all.

And what now?

I choked on water but it's nowhere near me. It's not raining or something. My vague eyes scanned my surroundings but nothing is there instead of the floor and the dark sky.

An excessive amount of water again comes out of my mouth making me feel dizzy. My body was drained of energy and strength and all I can say that I am losing consciousness.

I am scared of closing my eyes, I don't know where they will open again, and then all I have will be pain, pain, and pain.

Everything is overwhelming.

I can not survive anything, right?

I scoffed at myself. 'Why am I scared. Don't worry Sun. That's all is written in your faith. Just pain. So don't be scare of it. Just bear it till you die. Because this is your life. You don't deserve happiness.'

My eyes rolled back in my head with the last melodious hum of that boy.

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It's time to open my eyes again... I am feeling it.

I opened my eyes again but they closed again when a loud gasp left my mouth, coughing and wheezing continuously. The water constantly coming out of my mouth, my lungs were full of water. I wanted to grab my head, it's crushing the life out of me.

Everything in me gets sucked out when I reopened my eyes after realizing that my hands were handcuffed and I was under the big scary monster SCAR, who is smirking at me with his lusty eyes roaming around my chest.

The temperature was cold as ever, my lower body shivered in chilliness. The scent of smoke and water entered my nostrils bringing all the memories back.

There were two people near me, one was laughing sickly above me as if he will swallow me whole with the big mouth of his, and the second one was crying his heart out in pain and agony, screaming my name to know what's going to happen with me now.

"You are dry when I am dripping. But do you think I care? No!!"

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