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The sunlight hits my face, radiating a warmth that spreads throughout but it can't seem to reach the core of this coldness. This cold and dead feeling I harbour inside me seems to be growing ever since that day. My pupils constrict under the beam of sunlight and I close my eyelids taking a deep breath in.

There's a knock on the door which my mind disregards. I don't want to see anyone right now, no living soul because it would remind me of the dead ones. The dead souls that no longer are able to carry on and their lives have been snatched from them abruptly.

The screech of the door knob is heard all round my silent and still room. I don't look the other way but keep my gaze fixed at the window.

"Akemi" a soft whisper comes from a familiar face. I don't reply nor show movement. " You should come eat" his voice repeats and the shift of ambience in the room starts to prick at my skin. " Leave me alone" I mumble, my voice lower than my spirit.

Gojou shuts the door behind him and walks to my bed. The footsteps echo and the distance between our bodies is felt. He sits down at the edge of my bed, the vibration passing through the mattress.

I finally met his covered eyes. His face gives off a gentle expression, one to melt you into water. I fix my arm, which is in a cast due to sukuna breaking it a few days back, and sit up straight against the headboard.

The air is silent and both our minds stifle us from uttering a word. After a duration of exchanges of glances he finally speaks. " it's not your fault"

I finally lost it at this, I've been ignoring these memories and thoughts for days and shoveling them deep inside me where they wouldn't bother but he had to bring it back again, throwing water on my efforts.

" You don't know that you weren't even there," I replied harshly. " I know, I'm sorry but please don't blame yourself" he replies, maintaining his mellow aura. Tears well up in the corner of my eyes and Yuji's face flashes in my mind which further reminds me of how I'll never see him again.

" Shut up!" I say looking at him completely. My skin becomes tainted with tears of affliction and my blood rushes to the surface eager to escape. " he's gone.. He's gone and I couldn't do anything" i completely broke down at this point. My tears fall on the duvet, soaking it.

I feel 2 arms around me and I lean into them in hopes of comfort and distraction. Gojou holds me tightly and pats my hair trying to calm me down. I wipe my tears with the edge of my sleeve and try to bring my breathing under control.

I look up and his face is inches away from mine. I feel his hot breath brush against my nose and I feel our skins creeping closer. My lips finally meet his and they fit perfectly together, like two entities longing for each other for centuries.

He holds my face in his hands and deepens our kiss. I put my hand on his chest for hold and let myself get lost in the moment. He pushes a strand of hair behind my ears and caresses my face, wiping the tears.

My mind blurs into ecstasy with flashes of my agony and gojou's smile in mind. My emotions are at war with each other for even having the wish to continue on with life. I finally pull back and look down, not having the courage to look at him.

With his finger on my chin he lifts up my face. He kisses me once more and once more the myriad of feelings rush in. He pulls back and gets up. " Be at dinner tonight" he says and with that he walks out, once again shutting the door.

I stare at the dark polished wood of the door, contemplating getting up and running after him but if I did do that what would I say to him. I have nothing to say, my mind is so empty I can hear my heart. I lay back down, closing my eyes, pushing away all thoughts and noises.

a/n: they finally kissed