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" Goodnight guys" I wave to megumi, nobara and yuji as they walk off to their rooms. I'm not sleepy so I walk up the stairs leading up to the roof. I feel the gentle breeze of the forest against my skin and I walk to the railing, leaning against. The sight of dark lush trees under the night sky stands before me and I close my eyes, now only listening to the sounds of the night.

" Why are you always stalking me?" I say in a light tone. I hear a low laugh from him as he leans on the railing beside. " I was not stalking you" Gojou says. "Whatever you say" I reply mockingly and roll my eyes. " the mission went well today?" he asks after a few seconds of silence.

" Yeah, it was fine. I'm surprised you even know we went, considering you're almost never around" i say facing him. He doesn't meet my eyes but just looks ahead into miles and miles of forest. " I had to tend to something" he says.

Him and his secrets. Now that I think about it, nobody knows much about him or his past. He also usually prefers to be by himself although he has a wholesome relationship with his students. I can sense they genuinely make him smile.

"Why are you smiling?" he says, finally looking at me. I look away this time and bring down the corners of my mouth. " None of your business" I say. He rolls his eyes and stands up straight, his eyes look ahead. We both stand there quietly, not uttering a word.

" Why do you wear that blindfold?" I finally asked. " none of your business" he smirks and walks away to the stairs going to the floor below. I just roll my eyes at him. " See you tomorrow akamatsu" his voice echoes up the stairs as his footsteps slowly get further and further.

Who said I even want to see him tomorrow. But I myself can't deny the magnetic pull of my heart whenever I see him. It might be just because he's annoying. Maybe, I don't wanna think about it right now. I go downstairs to my room. I change into my pajamas and after brushing my teeth, lay down in bed.

The moonlight seeps in through the glass windows, illuminating half the room. I sigh and turn the other side, away from the windows. I close my eyes and drift off to sleep.

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" get up" he spits through gritted teeth. I look up at him from the ground, my whole body aching from training for hours. " i- i'm tired" i say stuttering, not meeting his eyes. He aggressively squeezes my face between his fingers turning it toward him, " get up. Do you wanna turn out a useless bitch who will ruin our clan's reputation".

I can feel the loath in his eyes and voice, which radiates out and to the core of my being. It stings more than any other words have ever stung. " ye- yes father" I say and stand up. My leg. My body shaking because of the energy drained out of my 12 year old body by immense training.

" attack!" he says throwing a punch my way which i dodge and take him by the neck with my arms. He breaks through and tries to flip me over but I go beneath him and kick him from behind. He tries to grab my legs and I take his arm and twist it behind his back. He interlaces his leg with my ankle and pulls me down, strangling me.

" is this all you can do huh?" he says, wrapping his hands around my throat, choking me. I scream out trying to break free as everything else starts to blur around me.

" LET GO!"

I wake up in a cold sweat and look around and realise I'm still in my room. I take a deep breath in trying to calm myself down. I get up and walk towards my desk and pour myself a glass of water. I look at the clock. 4:01 am.

I put down the glass and go lay back down. I pull the covers over me, and close my eyes trying to go back to sleep. Tears form in the corner of my eyes but I wipe them. I refuse to cry, I refuse to cry over them. They deserve nothing, absolutely nothing.

More and more tears start rolling down my cheek and at this point I lose all control. My vision is blurry and all I feel is the ache of my heart against my ribcage and my mind screaming at itself to stop being weak.

I take tissue from my side table drawer and wipe my tears off only for more to roll down. I put my hand over my mouth to stop a sob from coming out. The tears feel hot against my skin and crying numbs everything a little bit.

When are these nightmares gonna stop. I don't wanna see them again

a/n: i cant honestly wait for s2 of jjk and the movie aswell.