18 August 2024

Dear Seungmin,
Our flirting led to you confessing to me. 11.08.2024.
Sure, I fell first. But you didn't know. You don't know. I wanted us to take things slow for it's been a month since we met. Now that I look back, maybe it would have been okay if I had said yes.

We continued being the cringe, cute duo we were. We flirted, we talked hours on end... only for me to find out you got a boyfriend today? I'm still trying to wrap my head around it. I thought we were on the same page, that we were building something real. But then, just like that, you jumped into a relationship with your best friend?

I won't lie. My heart shattered. Yet again, the crimson red liquid flowed down my wrists. Was it so easy to move on?

I tried to be happy for you, but my stupid ass confronted you about it. I wanted to yell, to ask why you didn't choose me. I wanted to know how you could just switch gears like that and leave me behind, feeling like a fool for ever thinking we could be more.

But deep down, I also know that I can't just blame you. I had my chance, and I hesitated. I told myself I wanted to take it slow, but maybe I was just scared. Scared of getting hurt, scared of losing you altogether. Now, here I am, regretting every moment I held back. I guess that's what I get for overthinking everything.

I don't want to be the one causing drama, but I can't pretend that I'm okay with this. You deserve to be happy, but it hurts to see you with someone else when I was ready to give you my all. Guess I'll be the friend for you. And you probably won't see me in the school for a few days.

Yours,
Hyunjin