𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗿𝗼𝗱𝘂𝗰𝗶𝗻𝗴 . . . txt's :: sakura

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THIRD PERSON
SAPPY FLUFF
MAY 10, 2023

the cheering, the fans, the members by her side. it was everything sakura had ever wanted. she wouldn't have it any other way.

when she was young she dreamed to be a star, someone the public just couldn't ignore. and here she was, achieving that same dream.

sure, there were definitely multiple times where she craved the feeling of normality, but nothing could beat her love for her job. and for her members. and for most importantly, moa.

to think that millions of people all around the globe love and support her just felt unreal. she was lucky, very fucking lucky. all these people in this arena came because they loved her and the rest of the members.

if she could perform forever, she would. no matter how she was feeling, the synced lightsticks and fanchants gave her energy, gave her to motivation to continue, to improve.

anything she did, she would receive support for. the endless and unconditional love she received was something she could only wish for at the center.

she wondered what people from the center thought of her now. did they even know she was an idol? hell, did they even know she still existed? even if both answers were no, she didn't mind. she had moa, her moa.

their tour had been a long and tiring one, the jet lag was constant and unmerciful. practicing every day too, did not help at all. but she was never too worried. she knew that just hearing moa from backstage was like a shot of espresso.

even if she was performing in the most uncomfortable stage outfit, in a hot spotlight, and in the worst weather, the annoyance was nothing with her fans. she could do anything, things she deemed impossible from what seemed like birth.

this feeling wasn't unfamiliar. she didn't know how to describe it, other than feeling loved completely. she was used to being the quiet girl that was simply there during her youth, and she was now the girl she dreamed to be. the girl everyone knew, the girl everyone loved.

but she couldn't have done it without the boys, her boys. they accepted her despite the obvious difference, and helped her through her hardships. when she was depressed, when she wanted nothing more other than death, she stopped herself because of them. they were the reason she was still here, they always would be.

she couldn't live without them. if she didn't have them by her side during her trainee days, she would probably be working a nine-to-five office job until she physically couldn't. instead, she was living her dream life. a life she couldn't imagine would be hers.

it wasn't unusual for her to become suddenly quiet during concerts, fans learned that as time went by. whenever her eyes glistened and a soft smile etched her features, they knew what she was thinking about.

and that was exactly what she was doing at this moment. she was just so grateful, to be living the life she was at such a young age was unimaginable. and to be surrounded by people she loved more than herself made everything so much better. she enjoyed every situation with her members and moa.

her expression turned into one of pure adoration as she watched yeonjun and hueningkai lead their fans into doing a wave with their lightsticks. it wasn't something abnormal, but she just couldn't get over it. she couldn't tell why, but it just made her feel so appreciated.

the concert was slowing coming to a close, the mood had become one of excitement to one of sadness. she didn't want to leave, she wanted to be with moa forever. but she knew that wasn't how it worked.

their ending ments began, and she was set to go last. she normally spoke for about two minutes in the middle of the order, never was she ever last. as per tradition, the last member to speak usually had to have the most impacting talk. she was nervous, to put it lightly.

she knew moa or her members would never judge her, even if she said a maximum of two words and then the concert ended. she just wanted to provide the best thing she possibly could for them.

as soobin finished speaking, the mic was passed to her. she smiled and looked up at the people she adored the most in the whole entire world.

"moa!" she called out, bursting into a wide smile at the immediate responsive cheer. "i have a lot to say today, but i'll try to make it short. is that okay?" as she revived the approval, she actually started her speech.

"we started this tour almost two months ago, and during this period i've learned more about myself, the members, and moa. i spent more time to myself thinking, and i realized that i never really verbalized how much you all mean to me. it's an indescribable feeling. i feel truly loved, for all parts of me. i feel comfortable and supported no matter what i do. and i wish in my next life that i am able to give back this love to you all."

"because of you, i've been able to achieve things i could only have dreamt of when i was young. i like to say that the boys also played a role in this, but it really is mostly you, moa. you all are the reason i continue to work through my struggles," she sighed.

"speaking about struggles, as i'm sure you all know, i tried to take my own life earlier this year. i think because of that experience, i learned how to appreciate the motivation i didn't realize you all have me. whenever i'm upset, i can simply go on any social media and your comments are always there. supporting me and the boys."

sakura wasn't a crier. she wasn't vulnerable, that's what she prided herself on. but she couldn't help but let go of that pride when she saw the packed stadium of fans. tears began forming in her eyes, but she smiled. she made it. 

with a shaky voice, she continued. "each and every one of you currently in this stadium, are the reason i'm still here today. you all have shown me endless love and support, and i can't thank you enough. you all are my motivation to improve on myself and help others around me. so moa, thank you. thank you for everything you've done for me, and the rest of tomorrow by together. i love you all with my whole heart, i love you all more than i love myself. moving on, similar to our name, i found a saying that i wanted to repeat to you all to close this concert."

"the saying is 'you are my today and all of my tomorrow's.' thank you, this has been tomorrow by together."

LANA HAS SOMETHING TO SAY!

the last scene chapter of kura :( i can't believe this book is coming to an end so soon. i feel like it was just yesterday when i decided to post her. thank u all for the support, i love u all sm <3 :(