"You wanna eat ramyeon? Its your favorite. " Your eyes lit up, asking your best friend. You turned your head to him, to only see him on his phone, talking to his girlfriend. Again.

"Jungwon."

"She's so cute..." Jungwon chuckles, not caring that you were calling out his name.

"Yang Jungwon." You coldly say with a serious tone, as his head jolts up to you.

"I-i'm sorry, Yerin just posted on instagram and-"

"You've been dating her for a week, Jungwon. Your life doesn't revolve around her."

Jungwon doesn't get it. You always teased him of how he should get a girlfriend. And now that he did, you don't support him? It didn't make any  sense.

"I-i'm sorry..." Jungwon looks down, feeling disappointment and confusion.

"Wonnie!" You take a deep breath and turned around, throwing a fake smile at Yerin, as she hugs him.

"Hi Y/n! You wanna join me and Jungwon? We're eating ramyeon." You watched her link her arms around his, making you hide your fisted knuckles behind your back.

"Uhm no thank you, i shouldn't be thirdwheeling."

"Y/n-"

"Have fun!" You fakely waved at them, as you turn around and show no more expressions.

You were tired of thirdwheeling. You were tired of his girlfriend. Yeah you wanted him to have a girlfriend, but what you meant by that is you! You wanted him to date you! Not some clingy ass girl who has looks but no brain...

-

You rushed out of the school gates, not noticing someone was running behind you to catch up.

"Y/n wait!" You turn around to see Jungwon catching his breath, looking at you.

"I'm going home by myself. Go home with Yerin."

"Don't say that, Y/n. Please? You're my best friend. If i lose you, i have no one left."

Jungwon wasn't great at making friends. He was a shy and introverted guy. You were one of his few friends, but you were just standing out to him. You were the friend he needed in any occasion. He would never want to lose an amazing friend like you.

"But you have Yerin?"

"Yeah but, she's different! You're my best friend and she's my girlfriend! Please don't turn your back on me Y/n. I don't want that."

You gulped, seeing his eyes get watery. You never meant to make him cry. He was obviously hurt. But, aren't you hurt too?

"Do you...love her?" You ask as he gets taken off guard.

"Y-yes i do, a lot, i-"

"I heard enough. I'll get going now." You walked away and put your hoodie on, not saying goodbye to him.

Love?! He loves her?! Is this how fast they are?! Jungwon is wrong. He's not losing you, YOU'RE losing him! But what can you do? The boy was in love. Love isn't something you can just tear apart and make a new one so easily.

-

You dragged the garbage bag out on the streets, dropping them beside the bug green bin that was supposed to be picked up tomorrow morning.

You looked up and saw the sort of flat brick made roof of Jungwon's house.

It was where your first kiss was.

You tried smiling, but what was there to smile about anyways?

"What are you staring at?" You looked back and saw Jungwon wearing a hoodie and some sweatpants. It looked like he came back from the grocery store.

"I was just putting these away. I'll go home now-" Jungwon stops you by your wrist, pulling you by force.

"Why do you keep ignoring me?" He asks. You looked down, as he notices a tear roll down your eye.

"I just don't get it." You sniffled.

"Don't get what?"

"You. I don't get you. I...i always thought you liked me or something. I mean, you're always there for me, you make me laugh, you blush when i compliment you, you always give me support, you...you even kissed me." You stuttered. You finally let everything out, making Jungwon gulp.

"Y/n, that kiss didn't mean anythi-"

"I know. I just wanted to let everything out. Get out of my sight." You wiped your tears away and yank your wrist back.

Jungwon never expected you liked him. It was just so sudden.

"Let's talk this out properly." He tries hugging you but you push him away. You looked beside you and grabbed a crushed can of soda from the garbage, throwing it at his chest.

"You piece of trash. How dare you do this to me?" You start breathing heavily as more tears streamed down your cheeks, anger building up inside you.

"What does Yerin have that i don't?! You belong in the dirt! You hurt me! You lost my respect! You jerk!" You threw more things at him as he endured the not so much pain.

He understood how you felt, so he just let you do what you did. He honestly felt so bad for you.

"I hate you so much, Yang Jungwon. I hope your relationship goes to dust, just like how you threw me there." You put your hands on your pocket, walking towards your house that was apparently beside his.

Jungwon took a deep breath and looked at your windows, watching you carefully close your curtains.

"I hate myself so much..."