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Lilith's/(y/n)'s POV
"Are these really necessary?" Ti held up the force restraint cuffs as I guided her down the hallway towards Cal's room, upholding my promise to her.

I side-eyed her with a nod, "Forgive me for not trusting you, but you have every right to turn against me. I wouldn't put it past you to do so."

She sighed as she dropped her hands down, "I'm not going to try anything, all I want is to see my daughter."

"And you will," I pointed to her cuffs, "With those on."

We fell into silence as we continued on our walk, clones in the halls quickly moved out of our way - saluting me in the process, "You're greatly feared." She pointed out.

We turned a corner and I chose to change the subject, rather than dwell on the affect I have on people, "So, who's Ahsoka's father?" I questioned curiously, turning my head only slightly to catch her gaze. But our eye contact lasted hardly a second when she glanced down at the floor, giving me no response, "Don't tell me it was Windu." I insinuated.

She shot her heard back up with wide eyes, "Gods no."

I chuckled at my own humorous suggestion, "Then who? Why so scared to say it? It's not like the council can reprimand you; I killed them all." I shrugged.

"Even your Master?"

Now it was my turn to look away - ignoring the pain the mention of him brought me, "Yoda is thriving on a planet far from here."

"You know where he is?" She wondered.

I nodded, "Of course I know, I've known for quite some time." I just choose to pretend that I don't, "Now stop changing the subject, I asked you a question first."

She sighed, "He wasn't a Jedi if that's what you're wondering. He was a Togruta man I met shortly on an assignment, but sadly he was killed shortly after I found out I was with child; he was a good man." She paused for a moment and I heard a light sniffling come from her, "Master Plo helped me hide the pregnancy from the council, then when she was born - he pretended he found her in the lower levels of Coruscant. So that way she could be raised around me, and I wouldn't suffer repercussions for having a child."

I snorted with an eye roll, "Why choose to remain with the Jedi? You could've had a normal, happy life with your daughter - yet instead you chose to stay with the people who look at emotions and love likes it's a disease." I turned to look at her once more, and her eyes were already on me, "How is that a life for anyone?"

"Look where those emotions and love got you (y/n)." She shook her head.

I paused my movements, using the force to grip her neck; lifting her from the floor as her feet dangled and she gasped for air, "Just because I've learned a few things, doesn't change who I am." I growled, "I was manipulated and used - yes that part is obvious. But it was the Jedi who made that all the more possible. It was my lack of faith in them and their god awful beliefs that pushed me further down my darkened path." I released my hold, and she dropped down to the floor with a groan, "If I didn't feel the need to hide my emotions, out of fear of their repercussions - maybe things would have turned out differently if I felt I could be more honest."

I used the force to bring her back to her feet so she could continue following me to our near destination, "I wouldn't have judged you." She coughed just as we reached the door, "I'd have fought for your benefit."

"It's too late to find out if you would have lived up to your words or not," I pressed the button for the door to Cal's room to unlock and open.

Ahsoka jumped up from the edge of the bed with a nervous look in her eyes, then her gaze landed on Ti - surprise flashing through her features, "Snips, having a good stay?" I asked knowingly with a head tilt. Her cheeks burned red, and she dropped her gaze to the floor.

I chuckled and turned to Ti who was looking at Ahsoka with tear filled eyes. I glanced down at the cuffs and with one quick motion, I sliced them off; contradicting my words from earlier. She looked surprised by my actions, and gave me a thankful smile.

"I'll give you some time, I'll also return soon," I gestured for her to go inside and she wasted no time in rushing in to pull Ahsoka into a hug. She looked completely surprised by the gesture, but welcomed it.

"It's so good to see you alive Master Ti." She smiled up at the woman who began caressing her cheek as she backed away from the hug.

"I have something to tell you Ahsoka."

I waved the force restraint door closed and locked it so neither could leave. It may seem a bit insane to use such a door for Cal's room, but it's for his protection when Sidious is around. He has this idea in his mind that it's him who is supposed to be protecting me, but I believe it's quite the opposite.

I slowly began walking through the halls, making my way to the one other person I needed to talk to. There is still one more truth to learn. Before I was too stubborn to listen to their side, but now I'm here.

I opened the door to Obi-Wan's medical room, both Anakin and Cal jumped up from their chairs when they saw me. They almost looked guilty of something which intrigued me. But I came in here with one purpose and I don't plan to get sidetracked.

"Skywalker, come with me."

Cal stepped towards me, "Master, I need to tell you-"

"Later Cal." I walked out of the room. When I didn't hear footsteps following me, I groaned in annoyance, "Now, Anakin." Finally, I could hear him following behind me in the same rhythm of my own footsteps.

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I closed my bedroom door behind us and took a deep breath, "What's going on Lilith?"

I cringed at the name he called me, I didn't like hearing it from his mouth - I never have. A part of me missed the way his soft voice used to whisper my real name as he told me he loved me.

I sighed quietly and pushed the memories away, "Kenobi wasn't lying was he?" I turned my head slightly to meet his confused gaze, "When he said that Sidious killed my real parents."

He shook his head, and I suddenly so hope flash across eyes, "No."

I nodded; fully facing him now as I got closer to him, "I should have done this earlier instead of being stubborn, and for that I'm sorry," I placed my hands on his cheeks in preparation to learn the truth. His eyes widening slightly with hope and surprise,"Show me what really happened on Mustafar Ani."

I closed my eyes, and I felt him place his hands on top of mine. He then allowed access into his mind, and I was suddenly on Mustafar, watching everything play out from Anakin's point of view.

**"Why did this have to happen?" He cried clutching onto my clothing, "And why to you?" He slowly lifted his head up to look at my unconscious figure. I could feel his pain as if it was my own, and it was agonizing.

Did I truly bring him this much pain?

He raised his hand and moved my hair away from my face, "Please forgive me, I'm so sorry I broke my promise and didn't protect you. But I can now." He picked me up, "I'll keep you away from him, and it'll all be okay." He kissed my forehead and walked towards the ship with me tightly in his arms.

My chest tightened painfully. He wasn't abandoning me - he was taking me with him.

He looked down at the new mark on my face - the one inflicted by him, "I'm so sorry I did this to you and I'm so sorry I pulled my weapon on you," He whispered through tears as his grip on me tightened "I should've tried harder for you, but I'll figure out a way to help you (y/n), I love you-" He paused - frozen in place as he began struggling to breathe.

"Touching, but you're not taking her anywhere Skywalker." The grip on his throat tightened and he fell to his knees, dropping me down on the floor in front of him. Anakin lifted his gaze - his eyes landing on a hooded figure, "She is not yours to have, she is mine." Palpatine glared down at him with disgust.

"No-" Anakin choked out as he looked at me.

Palpatine was beginning to use the force to lift me up from the ground.

"Yes," He cackled, "She is my daughter after all."

No, I'm not. He's a liar.

Palpatine finally released his hold on Anakin's neck and my love took a deep inhale.

"You're lying," He coughed, "You're nothing but a pathological liar."

And I'm so stupid to have fallen for it.

Sidious growled as he floated my body away as Anakin reached towards me in a panic. My heart began to ache at the sight of how helpless he looked. To think I've hated him so long for absolutely nothing, "And you're nothing but a failed experiment." Sidious spat.

Then he floated my body near the rising lava, not far from where they were, "Stop, what are you doing?" Anakin tried to get up, but he was pushed back down to the floor. "Don't!" He yelled in fear.

Then my blood boiled as I watched him dangle my body over the lava. The smoke and ash rising from the molten liquid - entering my body and damaging my lungs. Placing them in the crippling condition they are in today.

"How fast can you catch Skywalker?" He laughed before dropping his hold on me, and Anakin - my savior, used the force to catch me from plummeting to my death.

And just as he saved me, Sidious stabbed him through the back - attempting to end his life, to destroy the one person who he knew could bring me back to the light.

Even through Anakin's pain, he fought to keep me above the lava, to keep me alive. He slowly began pulling me from the dangerous edge, and set me gently down when I was safely away.

"I'm impressed." Sidious retracted his blade - making Anakin scream in pain before pushing him down.

He kept his eyes on me as he fell down by my side. He then slowly reached forward to touch me, "Princess," He whispered, but before he could reach me - I was being dragged away from him.**

I opened my eyes; my gaze landing on crystal eyes that were locked with mine, "You didn't leave me?"

He shook his head slowly, "No Princess, I would never leave you. I love you, and I never once stopped loving you."

Those words, they hit me hard. My body felt instantly weak as multiple emotions slammed me all at once; love, pain, self-loathing, sorrow, hate, and most of all regret.

"I-" I looked down to his shirtless self, my eyes trailing along the wounds I previously inflicted upon him. As well as the noticeable scar placed there by Sidious from Mustafar, "I'm so sorry, Anakin I'm sorry." I began to hyperventilate - hating myself for hurting him this way.

Anakin gripped my shoulders, and my tear-filled eyes locked on his, "It's okay baby, it's okay." He tried comforting me, his lips tugging into a joyous smile, "If it's anyone faults - it's mine. I should've listened to you better, and I never should have left to go to Kamino. I never should have pulled my weapon on you - baby I never should have done a lot of things." He began throwing all the blame onto himself, and I wasn't having it.

I'm the murderer, not him.

I believed Sidious's lies, not him. If anything, he warned me about Sidious and I didn't listen.

I shook my head, "No it's not I-"

Anakin grabbed my mask, and pulled it off. Before slamming his lips to mine while cupping my cheeks. I hes I stared for a moment, surprised by the sudden gesture. But eventually I kissed him back, losing myself into his embrace as I wrapped my arms around his neck - ignoring the ache in my lungs.

He grabbed me by the waist and picked me up, pushing me up against the wall as our kiss intensified. A years worth of lost love being pushed into this act, "I love you, I love you so much." He mumbled - pulling me away from the wall and dropping us into the bed with him on top of me, "You did nothing wrong."

"I love you too." I uttered as the pain in my throat intensified, but I fought through it, never wanting this kiss to end as he began pulling my clothes off with urgency.

Until he stopped and lifted his head, using the force to pull my mask to his hand, before placing it over my mouth for me. Allowing me to be relieved of the pain that was growing to be too much.

He breathed heavy, as he tried to catch up on all the oxygen he was lacking from our intense session, "You were wronged by so many - including me, and for that I'm sorry." He dropped his head down and placed his forehead to mine, "Please say you forgive me."

It felt wrong to say that, mostly because I felt like it was me who is supposed to be asking for forgiveness. I'm the killer here, the war criminal who has killed thousands - maybe millions, "But I-"

"Stop - you owe no one anything," He removed the mask and grazed his lips against mine, "Can you forgive me for not being there when you needed me the most? I swear to live the rest of my life trying to make up for it. I'll never let you leave my side again. Together forever (y/n)."

I nodded as a tear fell from my eyes, that I'm positive were their normal shining (y/e/c). Hearing him say my real name was everything, "Of course I forgive you."

He smiled and leaned down, kissing me passionately once more. Our lips moved quickly again, and my body begged for him - after a year of missing him.

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