I wish I still had the heart

that could love you without hesitation.

A heart that never had been

deceived

lied

beat up

or broken.

I wish I could give you more of me.

More of the parts they took with them

when they left.

I am still trying to figure

how to get them back.

And I am so sorry.

I am sorry that when I feel like falling.

I know it can't be easy to love someone

who doesn't know who to let go.

But I will work on it.

And maybe I am afraid

because sometimes I love you

scares me more than goodbye.

Maybe that makes me a coward.

But the thought of doing this without you

is even more terrifying.

So please bear with me.

Please hold on.