OIKAWA REO

"i can do this, i can do this." i mumble under my breath, intertwining my hands together.

"calm down." kei says as he figures my state out, clicking his tounge as he leaves the scene.

here i am again on the hill outside the campus. the last time i knew, tobio-kun and i met here that night before i met up with the twins. that night, everything was still okay, but tonight might be the last conversation i'll ever had with someone dear to me.

"this better be important." i hear a familiar voice with its footsteps approaching towards me, until he is now in fromt of me.

gulping my own saliva down because of nervousness, i sigh. he's in a hurry.

before i even got to speak up, i noticed the heads of the others peeking from the campus exit, even kei, gesturing me to go on.

"give me few minutes to at least tell you what i have to say." i blurt out, staring onto his beautiful dark blue orbs.

"just tell me. practice is essential, y'know." he rolls his eyes, looking away.

"so, I'm not important?" i ask, smiling towards his direction.

i saw a smile creep up onto his face, a smile that had me feel sadness.

"yes. now hurry up." he answers, crossing his arms.

my smile became wider with his answer. clearinf my throat, i heaved out a heavy sigh and stared at him once again.

"i like you, ever since the beginning." i say loudly.

that sentence seemed to have taken him aback, but his eyebrow raised all of a sudden, like as if it'll leave his face.

"is that it? i'm supposed to be practicing by this time." he asks.

"do you perhaps... have any thoughts about the situation?" i ask, keeping my hands intertwined.

"it's absurd. get rid of it. besides, i have a girlfriend, alright? you know that very well." he replies.

"y-yeah, guess so." i tone down, looking down.

"anything else?" he asks with a stern tone.

"um... you do know about those rumors about akira-chan, right? that playgirl part. what if you're just a fling to her?" i ask, staring at his eyes.

"akira is not the person you think she is. just shut your mouth if you're going to talk about something unpleasant and completely untrue about her." he replies, and i did shut up.

"now, if you'll excuse me, i gotta go and practice." he adds, leaving the scene slowly.

clenching my hands into a fist and my teeth, i screamed out loud for him to hear.

"you are such a jerk!"

he stopped from his tracks and turned around, making his way towards me. damn it, what did i just do? i ask inside my head, closing my mouth with my hands.

"what did you call me?" he asks with his devilish glare, pulling me towards him by the collar of my uniform.

"use your damn ears." i smile towards him, pissing him off.

"you call me, a guy who sees the good in my girl, a jerk?" he asks, clencing onto my uniform.

"is this a warning or are you just trying to talk about these stuff about her so that your feelings for me will prevail?" he asks again, making me clench my fists as i try to push myself away from him, but no doubt, he sure has a strong grip and power than i do. does he even know what prevail means?

"you know that i'm not that kind of girl, kageyama!" i yell, glaring at him.

"then why do you have to stab akira at the back rather than supporting us!? you're my childhood friend, remember!? instead of arguing with me with this and your stupid feelings, why don't you just support me!?" he shouts, leaving me in shock.

i start to tremble out of fear and rage. he has never shouted at me this way and i never felt this kind of anger inside me. it all seems different and before i knew it, my hand unconsciously moved on its own and slapped his cheek.

"it's because i'm hurt, Kageyama! i'm deeply hurt! how can i support you when my heart hurts a lot because of the events that has been happening!?" i shout back, tears streaming down my face, making me face the ground.

"yester was supposed to be our day, a day that i can enjoy with you because i know i won't be experiencing them again because of your girlfriend but no, she just have to butt in into the moment i imagined to be perfect! do you know how much i was hurt back then? do you know how I became an idiot last night for hitting myself with my own serve just because of anger and pain? kageyama, you don't know how it feels to be in a situation like this, so you have to rights to look down on what i feel." i say calmly, leaving the scene with tears still flowing down my face.

"w-wait, reo!"

"leave me alone!" i shout, running away.

all those words, i never thought i get to say them towards him. i had such a great fear whenever he talks that way, but i was able to pull it off.

but it seems like the pain and sadness is now heavier than before.

rather than my chest being lighter, it just became as heavy as a ton of rice grains.

guess every friendship, even very close ones, come to an end.