TSUKISHIMA KEI

FLASHBACK

"one drop from your tears is the key to bring her back, tsukishima-kun. that drop must flow onto the cracked part of the pen. however, if the pen is not fixed and she doesn't wake up at that very moment, that is due to the lack of feelings. if that is to happen, she has no chance on coming back." aiko's mother explains before she places her forehead on mine, sending chills down my spine.

what is this feeling?

my tears?

END OF FLASHBACK

it has been a day ever since we visited aiko's residence, yet the explanation from her mother still rings loudly in my mind.

this is such a big responsibility over a girl i thought i'll never get along with, over the girl i thought was nothing but a nuisance to my life.

over the girl i thought i'll never care about.

i scoff.

this is stupid.

"are you okay, tsukki?" i snap out of my thoughts as i hear the familiar voice of my male friend.

heaving out a deep sigh, i gave him a nod, reassuring him that i am.

"man, it's really lonely without aiko-san around, isn't it?"

ah, i forgot. yamaguchi and i are walking back home with the yachi and the two idiots. just great.

"bet tsukishima feels lonely the most because of the fact that he likes her." i hear an annoying voice, causing me to roll my eyes.

"i didn't ask for your opinion, you cruel king." i reply, sighing.

"what did you say, beanpole!?"
"um, you guys, calm down."
"yachi-san's right. people are watching."
"you cause a lot of trouble nowadays, kageyama."
"hah!?"

i roll my eyes once again. why do i have to be stuck with these people?

well, except yamaguchi, though. i admit. i enjoy his company.

i gave yamaguchi a pat on his shoulder, signaling him that it's time for me to go and do what i have to do, thus earning a nod from him.

i sighed, taking the way where the hospital aiko is in located.

as i started to walk faster to reach in no time, my hands were trembling, thinking if it will work out or not, thinking if my feelings for her are special enough to bring her back.

normally, i'd just leave this be, but am i supposed to sit still when her life is on the line?

after a few more steps, i have finally reached the hospital.

sighing, i entered the place and made my way towards aiko's room, barging in.

"hey, you sloth. you've been out for almost a week. wake up, or else." i say, locking the door.

without getting a reply, i heaved out a heavy sigh, sitting beside her as i snatch the pen out of my pocket, looking at it.

without noticing, my lips turned to a faint smile, memories flashing through my mind.

"who would've ever thought that you'll get me to fall over someone like you, aiko?" i ask, looking at her face.

"who would've thought i'll care about you so much that it hurts to see you lying on this bed in the brink of your death?" i ask once again, frowning.

"why did you not tell me anything sooner? if only you did, you won't end up like this."

this time, as i said those words, my voice started trembling, so as my hand that's holding the pen tightly, a few tears falling from my face.

i scoff.

"who would've ever thought i'd ever cry for you?" i ask, looking down.

"remember that night when i treated your wounds and bruises? that night i told you that the moon is beautiful that night?" i ask, not expecting for an answer.

"you set the thought aside that night, didn't you? however, i do know that you know i meant it's illiteral meaning, so wake up already, damn it. there's no way i'd let you disappear when i confessed to you already, idiot! now that you know how i feel, you're suddenly gonna leave me? is that how it is, aiko?" i raise my voice unconsciously.

this is nuts. have i felt like this before? no, of course not.

without forgetting what i have to do, i let a tear of mine flow onto the cracked pen to seal it before i plant a light kiss on her forehead, my tears dropping on it.

and so, like a miracle, the pen started to emit a great source of light, shadowing everything else in the room.

though the pen did shine brightly onto my eyes, it didn't hurt. I can clearly see the pen floating by the top of my head, not until the light disappeared and the pen fell back onto my hand.

i looked over aiko, expecting her to startle me with that annoying but lovely voice of hers, but luck was not on my side this time, for when i looked at the pen, it's still there.

"t-the crack... is still there." i mutter under my breath.

for the last second before the light came, i had hope on my heart that this'll work.

i scoff, a bucket of tears running from my eyes.

great.

guess my feelings aren't enough, after all.